boxing day, i feel like boxing myself

went over to my witness house today after doing some shoppping for towels with Crystal.

helping him to set up the bianance with link to muskbot.

sigh, messed up the P2P, because the ANZ bank won't transfer the funds to the gwailou's westpak, until 29th morning. zzz

1500 nzd for 1000usdt.

just waiting, nervously.

should have just gone for bank transfers that were ANZ,

or purchased with the credit card on bianance for an extra 20 bucks.

to buy some peace and less hassle, as learnt from Jacky.

he has 11k in full auto bot. lol on houbi.

what in the world

predictions and errors

 so investing eh.

i had this weird thought.. about cryptocurrency..

just 10 bucks today in a coin,

what would it be 100 years later in the future?

when i pass them down to my grandchildren

unseen what is seen, seeing what is unseen

 what i perceive is stems from what is in my mind,

but reality proves otherwise by what is seen and show my erroneous ways.

Arguments, good ones

 “In disputes upon moral or scientific points, let your aim be to come at truth, not to conquer your opponent. So you never shall be at a loss in losing the argument, and gaining a new discovery.” - Arthur Martine

1. Listen and re-express what your target's points are, clearly

2. List points of agreement

3. Mentioned things you've learnt in the argument

4. Respectfully express your rebuttal or criticism

 

trading bot

Day 1.

Saw james post a few times about profits on FB wall. Decided to PM him about it.

We had a zoom call and he explained to me about the bot and day trading. A one hour session, bit i felt like it was too short. He had to go at 5pm and thats a good time to respect it.

Day 2.

Set up the binance acc and musk bot. Need to verify with ID and all. Bought some USDT with fiat jist for kicks.

Day 3.

James helped me to get the 1k USDT through P2P. In NZ everyone ask for pic of ID and a note. Its for the banks if they ask.

1770 NZD lets go. 

Did the APIs etc.

Day 1 of trading AVAX. Supposed to be a hot coin but didn't move that much. It covered until there was 400 bucks stuck in it.

I wasn't too patient and just wanted to release the capital so i could play with other coins.

Day 2. I jumped out of MANA and SAND just before they shot up (25th nov 2021). Super regret. I thought those coins were going to go stale.

Chit chatted with the community on whatsapp. They know how i feel becasue they've been there before.

I was so desperate to clear my operations to get a clean slate and start all over again. No patience. Everytime i see red i think this is not a good coin and i just want to get out.

Learnt some good tips from the more experienced guys. Just leave it. Dont touch. Be patient.

It'll come around. 

Night. I jumped in when was high. Was still earning a little here and there. But when i woke up things were in the reds with -10s and 12s... Sigh

Should have turned the CIS on. And changed from 15usdt to 12usdt for initial. 

And not cover 4 times. Cause the fourth one is about 400-500 bucks. 

And i dont have that much capital. I should only take up 2-3 coins. So greedy i took 4.

Why why.. So much to learn.

truth be relative to ones level of understanding

Haha happen in chemistry too. At individual year levels. Learning it in form 5 and going on to form 6 be like 'what i learnt was a lie!'... And then after that if we go further into uni also the same thing 'what we learnt before was a lie!' 

Well to be fair, many things we know as truth today will be outdated in the future and might not be 'false' just... shallower as we get to go deeper. 

Think of galileo telling the church the earth wasn't the center of the start system but the sun.

I'm not saying truth is relative. But the exposure to things that can be relevant to an individual at a certain time is. You wouldn't teach a baby economics before math. Uh.. Maybe not even math, just learning to read.

Your students might not understand this video even if they watched it. But to those that do, good for them. 

the root of strife

 every video online now can be scrutinized.

you never know if it was a candid shot taken without prior planning,

or if it was directed and all 'acted' out.

but whichever it is, the goal is to connect with the audience watching in someway,

whether it is mentally, logically or emotionally.

making a person think in their mind "wow this is so dumb",

or "gosh this is so natural, it gives me a sense of tranquility"

..

but when people find out that what they thought to be real is actually, well fake...

then they get so upset. why? because their trust was broken.

the video creator didn't specify that it was an undoctor film,

nor is there any need to disclaim that it was so, unless needed otherwise

why do people even get upset about things?

it's when another person's portrayed reality (in art/film/words/etc),

is in conflict/different from one's perceived version of reality.

not that we consciously want to be upset about it,

but it just happens subconsciously.

as if,... we almost had no control about it if we weren't aware what was the root cause of dissention.

difference.

of my reality and yours.

of my opinions and yours.

bible study John while reading the Immortality Key

 My Elim small group is doing a bible study on the book of John.
And I'm currently listening to The Immortality Key by Brian C. Muraresku.

Haha, seeing things I never thought of before,
due to the added historical context of the Greeks and Dionysus.

Well.... I still have no doubt that Jesus is the Son of God, for all the things that He has done.

I believe, Lord help my unbelieve

"If you die before you die, you won't die when you die."

Online Silent Retreat testimony

 "Silent retreats aren't easy to come by,

To take time and dwell in a secret place,

Life is full of hustle and bustle nowadays.

seeking God's face can't be done in haste.

Amidst the pandemic and border restrictions,

One would think he has ample amounts of time,

How far away from the truth that's the case,

Especially when I think life is all well and fine.

Despite the challenges we still did it online,

I'm glad Simon and Rinda made this happen,

They helped me to look deeper within life,

And made me realise things that were hidden.

Throughout the sessions and the guided silence,

There was rest, comfort and introspection,

It helped me to be calm and make some sense,

That I'm still under God's loving protection.

Life isn't easy, It's full of weary,

I'm reminded Jesus knows my worry,

So I'll continue to walk this journey,

Giving God the glory for this story."

- 28 yrs, labourer, NZ

me and my big stupid mouth

So we had to move house.

Because the landlord is moving back into this house and selling it off after 6 months. 

While we move into his other house, just 5 minutes away. 

Much bigger, all rooms with toilets. 

Went skating will Crystal, came back. Open my big stupid mouth and told Kinns that we are moving. 

If i didn't say anything she wouldn't have known, because she doesn't read the house group chat messages.

Its not likw i have anything against her. But Crystal does. And it frustrates her which frustrates me.

Sigh. Our one chance to be free, and i go screw it up. 

But she's alwags had something against someone in the house. There's always got ti be a scape goat.

Well small things that irritate constantly become sores. Festering sores. That just make life sour. 

Putting shoes on the top rack and moving other peopls stuff underneath. Rearranging stuff in the cabinates and placing things wherever she likes. Sitting on the couch and not making the cushions right after messing them up. Making a mess in the kitchen and not cleaning up. Noisy enough to be heard thorugh room walls. The list goes on.

Sigh... 

Me and my big stupid mouth thag can't shut up. 

I'd feel bad if i didn't tell her and she found out later that we went to view the house without her. She would be sad no? That she has no friends. I just want to be a friend to the friendless... But sometimes is hard to care for everyone's feelings.

Care for those that matter to you, 

Screw the rest.

Thats what relationship has thought me

SC2 addiction

 i've bee addicted to Stracrat 2 custom maps, Direct strike, squadron TD, zerg hex..

sigh, spend friday whole night playing it (11pm-7am) 8hrs

then Saturday afternoon manage to take a break? ( i can't remember if i played on that day)

and sunday morning ( 9am-1.30pm) 4 hrs

but yeah thats like... 12 hours plus of gamming time..why?

why do i give in to my cravings

how can i get right with the Spirit and not keep on my desires of the flesh?

 put this computer outside infront of the TV with the gaming rig...

it's the environment.. if i play it in side the room, i am less likely to play right?

we are shaped by our environment

dreamt i found a black iphone

 I had a dream last night

I have been having many dreams

ONe on shoes, and a racetrak... we gave our shoes up before going in for the event (like a concert),

but at the end, instead of what we expected to get our shoes back, it was a free for all. and everyone just grabs whatever they want.

that dream was a few days ago.

last night i dreamt that I found an iphone with the credit cards and stuff of a guy.

and i was in a delimma to keep the phone for myself or return it.

a free phone! sweet, but you know when a guy loses their phone,

they really want to find it back. for example if how i lost the phone i really wish the person whom found it would return the phone to me,

so yeah that's what i did in the end. i gave the phone back the the person,

but after a long while. it's something that i should have done straight away,

it's inside of me,

it reveals my nature.

i like to take other people's things and make them mine.

i covert my neighbours belongings..

unlike Pilosh.

we found a phone in the ONe tree hill park while playing villeyball

and he has zero hesistation returning the phone.

real man.

caues i guess, money is nothing to him

two batches not one

Just take two batches in one go.

Dont worry about space in the warehouse.

Look after your own department and what yoy need to do first before thinking about others.

Now I'm just sitting here waiting for the warehouse guys.

Sigh. Cooperate life. 

clothes and armor

 Something about wearing different materials and clothes on that gives a sense of 'wonder' to a person

In games, like MMORPGs you can equip the character with different articles, normally the head, body, legs, etc.

In real life we wear, shoes, leather belts, fancy watches on our wrist, jewelry

In scouts we had uniforms with badges showing ranks and positions

So yeah, in life we tend to judge people based on what they wear: a suit or tie.

Or a factory overall, HI-Vis vest..

so yeah...

what attributes are added to you when you wear something particular

what is a person naked?

without anything on, what is the body?

 

Spore with AI, and the whole human body

Spore was such a fun game to play, seeing the way to evolve an all.

OpenAI or someone with neural machine learning should do a run with the game,

see what kind of creatures they make for the best outcome. haha

also, making a full digital body with all organs and systems such as skeletal bones, lymphatic, blood circulation, lungs, stomach, guts, etc..... they can put that virtual body through Ai too right?

What made me think of this was the boxing game that they did with AI

somewhere between a boy and a man

 so i decided to join an online bible study

from faith gateway.. it's by John Eldredge, the Wild at heart one..

cause of the catchy line:

Somewhere between a boy growing up to be a man... 

he sorta gets lost in the middle

i feel somewhat like that

like even though i am 28 years old,

yet i still feel like a kid..

sigh, when will i ever "grow up"

blistered fingers, to earn wages

Hands were blistering due to screwing on caps...

"earning money is not easy" - Lito

... 

"hows your hand? Is it pain? "

"you'll get used to it"

.... 

First hour we still have strength, 

Then the glove starts to fill up with sweat

The skin gets soft... and sore

Just at one spot, 

The same spot that keeps on getting rubbed... Over and over again... 

Life is like that ain't it. 

When something is droned about repetitively.. It digs in, makes fresh raw, tender.... Pain... 

Until you no longer feel it.. 

And just keep going on with the motion.. 

The lady comes and helps, 

She has many things to look after, 

But once in a while shr drops by to relief us of the containers flying past the convery belt... 

So much difference how one extra person on the assembly line makes. 

3 is really better than 2.

Its synergistic

Well... All we look forward to now is, 

The break time

Ah, rest

Respite 

Relief

If only for a ashort while, 

My blisering hands get to rest

wifi and routers

 So i set up the 3 wifi devices, legacy devices a 5th gen Apple airport extreme (2011) and two Apple airport express devices. they don't use a mesh system and wifi signals pop up and down around the house.

been looking at wifi routers lately, quite addictive. the asus ones look good with what services they provide with their routers, especially gaming. haha the lag can be real. but then again, i don't game that much to justify it.

so anyways, after setting it up.. i had this evil desire to just keep the wifi to myself and crystal.

but that would just be meannnn

i mean... we should share it with the rest of the household right?

after all.... it's what everyone is paying for.. 

good stable fast internet...

sigh

i think i should have delayed it.

maybe just try it out for a week or two to make sure it works.. haha

but then again... nova energy has gotta be better then vodafone right

hmm

anyways.. decided to put it into the house chat group,

so that everyone can just benefit.

wifi signals are shared now.

so is the bandwidth

i dont have everything

but its okay

i have.. friends

which i want to share things with

big blunder at work

 i told someone my salary offer.

because i don't know how to lie,

and i don't feel comfortable keeping secrets.

but yeah..

learning to say "it's confidential" is so counter culture to what i was brought up in.

the world should be more transparent.

sucks....

now i will have to deal with aunties that are getting paid less at work 

dear God save me

and give me wisdom on how to fix this S#!+ i messed up at

and ... please give grace and mercy to the HR....

its a blessing

Actually the current government is bearing a heavy weight. If PH was still in power, they would be in the same position and have to deal with the same 'failures' and mockeries of the people

God is an unchanging god

 So there's this idea that  God never changes right?

but if we read the Bible, multiple times people have been able to 'change' God's mind when they pleaded with Him. Think of Moses, Abraham and many other old testament prophets.

God was like, "I'm not gonna let the Isrealites into the promise land because they keep complaning and don't trust me, even after all I've brought them through" 

and Moses: "aww common, You did so much for us already! what would people say if you left us to die? They'll say You weren't powerful enough to defeat the Amalakites and deliver on Your promise. That'll make You look bad aye?"

God: "Yeah okay you know what, only the kids get to go into the land, and the two guys that saw what was good instead of the bad..."

If God was an all knowing god, already knowing what's going to happen in the future (predestined),

why does He still want to create anything in the first place? especially if it's gonna turn on Him or hurt Him? i.e Adam and Eve was gonna disobey Him, why put the tree of knowledge and give them a command that they could disobey? Humanity was going to sin, He would have to sacrifice His Son Jesus to save us, why make humans at all?

See, I think certain aspects of God is unchanging. His reason for doing things. His promises, His character, His personality. Those things don't change.  

but humans.. humans do change

see, slavery used to be bad aye?

blacks used to be lower class that whites...

actually almost everything in the past repeats a cycle over and over again.

from good, to bad to good again

and then bad

will God accept homosexuals? hmm well in the bible He did smite Sodom and Gomorrah, but was it because of their deviant behaviours? or was it because they were just wicked

God is love right? what is the most loving thing to do?

what would love do?

Progressive Christianity accepts gays and lesbians into their church

well, some churches still dont accept electric guitars and drums

hmm, its really really hard to put a finger on whom is right and whom is wrong

but i think its not so much about saying that the other is bad or not acceptable or not

gee...

how do we all live peacefully

hedgehog's dilemma

 heh the post on upgrading to win10 was actually my 1000th post.

what a way for it to have taken the spot eh...

to think that it would have been something mind blowing or substantial to be written out for such an 'iconic' post number. i guess not everything is glitters

today is 23rd August, Crystal's brithday btw, i didn't plan anything much.

we wanted to go to rainbows end, but i guess that cant happen now with the lockdowns

sigh NZ went back into lockdowns, COvid manage to sneak in from australia

watcching Neon Genesis Evangelion EP4

Shinji reminds me so much of myself.... "doing something" just for the thought of others.

so that other's wont need to 'suffer' or hurt themselves,

i'll be the one to sacrifice myself for the 'greater good'

heh, this messiah complex,

i wonder why i've still no gotten over it

he just.. ran away

just resigned

just... went on with being his own self

do the things that he wanted to do,

not because other people wanted it of him

the Hedgehog's Dilemma

he speaks out like that (in a un nice way)

because he doesn't know how else to express himself

finally upgraded to windows 10

     So it's about time eh

finally made the jump from windows 7 to windows 10

why?

because windows 7 couldn't run blizzards Diablo 2 

and i wanted to play with Wythe

but even after installing it,

i can't play it because the graphics of this Acer Aspire v3-471G laptop is only a Geforce GT 630M 2GB

talk about ancient tech eh. i still love this laptop so much

owh well

life is quite good without being able to play games anyway. haha

self knowledge

 i dont really know myself nowadays

i wish i did.

i think my life is being too fragmented by all the things that are going on in the world.

do i really need to know?

do i really need to care?

God's wisdom

All wisdom is God's, 

Whether written in His Word or not. 

linkedin dump for my info..... so cringy

 "Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters"​ - Colossians 3:23

I like to ask questions if I'm unsure of something. I believe that consistent communication is vital to prevent simple misunderstandings which may lead to bigger consequences. Hence, we should avoid assumptions as much as possible by getting as clear a picture obtainable. More important than money, interest and desire to learn are the main components of taking up a task. However if the need arises, servant hood is chosen above leadership.

Sabbath is a day of rest.

podcast n thoughts

Podcast

Are good

Makes me think

Wish i had time to pause and 

Wrote down thoughts to look back at later

habits

Habits and loops,

Ques, Rutines and Rewards

The small little wins, 

The freed mental space. 

Discipline and will power, 

Mental conditions and states of mind,

The brain physically changes, 

Biology is based on chemistry. 

Dopamine, cortisol and hormones, 

Feelings of euphoria in rewards, 

Cravings.... 

Get into a safe environment, 

Have people around.

Not in a room by yourself, 

With the door held open with a stopper

loss of contentment

You dont need to know everything

lost and found

Monday morning so foggy,

Tuesday wind blew strong, 

Lost my redmi casing, 

Found on a Wednesday morning.

law breaker

As an unclean woman she should have stayed away from people.
Her faith resulted in disobedience to the rules and norms of Jewish society.

Her faith may have resulted in disobedience, but more importantly her faith led her to Jesus.
Faith leads people to Jesus.

temperature (DHT11) with LCD (via i2c)

# Drive 16x2 LCD with i2c LCD

import smbus

import time

# get drives for dht11

import dht11

import RPi.GPIO as GPIO

# define device parameters

I2C_ADDR = 0x27 #address for GPIO pin to LCD

LCD_WIDTH = 16 #Max characters per line

# define GPIO to LCD mapping

Temp_sensor = 14

# Define some device constants

LCD_CHR = 1 # Mode - Sending data

LCD_CMD = 0 # Mode - Sending command

LCD_LINE_1 = 0x80 # LCD RAM address for the 1st line

LCD_LINE_2 = 0xC0 # LCD RAM address for the 2nd line

LCD_LINE_3 = 0x94 # LCD RAM address for the 3rd line

LCD_LINE_4 = 0xD4 # LCD RAM address for the 4th line

LCD_BACKLIGHT  = 0x08  # On

#LCD_BACKLIGHT = 0x00  # Off

ENABLE = 0b00000100 # Enable bit

# Timing constants

E_PULSE = 0.0005

E_DELAY = 0.0005

#Open I2C interface

#bus = smbus.SMBus(0)  # Rev 1 Pi uses 0

bus = smbus.SMBus(1) # Rev 2 Pi uses 1

def main():

  # Main program block

  GPIO.setwarnings(False)

  GPIO.setmode(GPIO.BCM)       # Use BCM GPIO numbers

  instance = dht11.DHT11(pin = Temp_sensor)

  # Initialise display

  lcd_init()

  while True:

        #get DHT11 sensor value

        result = instance.read()

    # Send some test

        if result.is_valid():

                lcd_string("temp:"+str(result.temperature)+" C",LCD_LINE_1)

                lcd_string("humid:"+str(result.humidity)+"%",LCD_LINE_2)

                time.sleep(3) # 3 second delay

                lcd_string("wohooo ",LCD_LINE_1)

                lcd_string("now to get it online",LCD_LINE_2)

                time.sleep(3)

def lcd_init():

  # Initialise display

  lcd_byte(0x33,LCD_CMD) # 110011 Initialise

  lcd_byte(0x32,LCD_CMD) # 110010 Initialise

  lcd_byte(0x06,LCD_CMD) # 000110 Cursor move direction

  lcd_byte(0x0C,LCD_CMD) # 001100 Display On,Cursor Off, Blink Off 

  lcd_byte(0x28,LCD_CMD) # 101000 Data length, number of lines, font size

  lcd_byte(0x01,LCD_CMD) # 000001 Clear display

  time.sleep(E_DELAY)

def lcd_byte(bits, mode):

  # Send byte to data pins

  # bits = data

  # mode = True  for character

  #        False for command

  bits_high = mode | (bits & 0xF0) | LCD_BACKLIGHT

  bits_low = mode | ((bits<<4) & 0xF0) | LCD_BACKLIGHT

  # High bits

  bus.write_byte(I2C_ADDR, bits_high)

  lcd_toggle_enable(bits_high)

  # Low bits

  bus.write_byte(I2C_ADDR, bits_low)

  lcd_toggle_enable(bits_low)

  # Toggle 'Enable' pin

 # lcd_toggle_enable()

def lcd_toggle_enable(bits):

  # Toggle enable

  time.sleep(E_DELAY)

  bus.write_byte(I2C_ADDR, (bits | ENABLE))

  time.sleep(E_PULSE)

  bus.write_byte(I2C_ADDR,(bits & ~ENABLE))

def lcd_string(message,line):

  # Send string to display

  message = message.ljust(LCD_WIDTH," ")

  lcd_byte(line, LCD_CMD)

  for i in range(LCD_WIDTH):

    lcd_byte(ord(message[i]),LCD_CHR)

if __name__ == '__main__':

  try:

    main()

  except KeyboardInterrupt:

    pass

  finally:

    lcd_byte(0x01, LCD_CMD)

    lcd_string("Goodbye!",LCD_LINE_1)

    GPIO.cleanup()

did trees die before the fall of man?

 i wonder if trees ever died before the fall of man.

was death caused by 'sin'. adam and eve's disobedience to God's command not to eat the fruit from the Tree of Knowledge?

heaven, what if it really is like a place with no suffering,

where everyone just accepts their lot in life,

i dont want to have 'responsibilities' after i die, (yeah i'm kinda lazy, and the word kinda makes me think of 'work')

however, if it was do something i'd love to do for eternity i wouldn't mind...

what if heaven is like that, being able to do what we were intended to do from the start

what did God intent for me to do? what was His plan?

hmm...

in nature, everything plays its part,

every organism has its role,

no one is bad nor good,

things grow, reproduce seeds, die

bacteria decomposes the dead into nutrients

for the next generation to use,

it's all a cycle really,

a circle of life,

death and rebirth,

and endless cycle

(i guess that's why the Buddhist keeps trying to escape it)

hmmm..

heaven

where everything is in perfect harmony with each other

no more suffering, no more pain,

no more wars, only peace....

will there still be freedom?

will there still be individuality?

how could a place be conflict free if everyone was still able to keep their own mind,

transformation,

the process of sanctification here on earth 

that's why its so important,

this Christianity thing,

it's preparing each of us for eternity in a way no other process would

heaven isn't a goal, it isn't a destination

it's a process, it's a place where we come to at the end,

it's what's beyond the journey,.. after we've walked it

and it's in this journey,

that we face the struggles, obstacles and challenges in life

that would give us the opportunity to make choices,

that would mould our character

yes...

this is why we're still on earth,

we're not ready for heaven yet

keep on living

there will be joy

purposely intention (刻意 Kèyì) vs special intention (特意 Tèyì)

 刻意 -Kèyì

so apparently, there's this saying in chinese called Ke(4) Yi(4) which means "deliberately" when translated into english. But see in english the word deliberately can be used for both good and bad actions/intentions.

Ke yi is doing something on purpose KNOWING that it is bad.

like, i know it its wrong to do this at my work place,
but i still choose to do it.

mind blowing eh,

if you have a word in language that actually describes this malice (恶意, Èyì)

... hmmm... well maybe the english language also has it haha.

but anyways..

the oppposite of Keyi is Tèyì (特意)

Which is like.. doing something good, (but translates to "specially" on google translate)

i think it's like.. benovelent? (仁慈 Réncí)

anyways... i just asked my GF whom speaks chinese.

so yeah the 意 Yi means intention

刻 Ke is purposely

特 Te is specially 

so the examples she gaves was

use keyi for not throwing out the rubbish (even though you know you should do it)

and teyi for preparing a present for someone (something good you'd wanna do)

tadaaa! some chinese lessons for today,

feel free to correct me in the comments or give your opinions about it

owhhh and there's another: 故意 Gùyì

its used when you're accusing someone of doing something bad.. lol

male vs man

"A male seeks to be served; a Man seeks to be of service." - Dondré Whitfield

loss of contentment

You dont need to know everything

universal theme: wisdom

Elim church: a little bit of wisdom

A book on wisdom by tim keller

Book of proverbs chapter 1

wellbeing

Wellbeing 10/10

Omly possible with Christ

hi God

"hi God,

How are you feeling today?" 

Ia a conversation I'd like to have in the morning

authentic salvation

Salvation is

Fully Becoming who we are supposed to be

the earth will stop going round the sun one day

The ability of someone to accept the possibility of aliens is a good gauge of a person's comprehension of logic and physics

The earth was not without a beginning, 

Nor will it orbit the sun everlasting, 

Stars go out once they burn out

And so too will humanity eventually 

pineal gland third eye

Was listening to some "new age pineal gland activation music"... Gosh it sounds like the synthesiser in church during those moments of silence and prayer times

Its an endocrine gland that secrets homones. That can make ppl feel 'good'

Its linked to the 'third eye' concept 

Probably linked to the central nervous system, which is called different things in different cultures: vagus nerve, 7 chakra points, kindalini snake...

Yup the back bone

With all those nerves stuffed inside it

And the different glands that affect it

Coffee, 

Tea

Alcohol 

And other substances

Nerve synapses

Man this body is quite lit

But alot of this 'wellness' hokey pokey is a lil far out, like... Alot of things are actually quite scientific, and medically explainable

Like whim hoff breathing techniques, 

I was holding my breath as a kid

Mhmm

But sports, 

Sleep

Food

Mindfulness, 

Self awareness, 

Awakening 

Hah... I guess some Christian lingo uses stuff from the new age movement too, or is it the other way around

We were never thought to question, 

Or to try different cultures and experiences 

I think the key to unlocking is... 

Try something new

almost crashed

Almost crashed on the highway

Blue hyuandai with number plate LCW something..

Road raged and stopped infront of a pick up

Almost caused a pile up.. 

Gee... 

explanations

LIfe is about explaining

because everyone has their own stories.

and everyone's story is quite legit,

well.... legit to them,

in the sense that they genuinely belief that the way their living is 

the truth, the right way

stories

i have my own story

so do you

i dont think that your story is fake,

maybe i used to when i was younger

but i no longer,

i dont want you to think that my story is fake

 

the end will come one day

the sun will stop shining one day,

the earth will cease to follow it's orbit...

that is the fate of the universe we live in,

it will not last forever

all worlds in me

 Mr Nobody,

Is one of the best movies i've watched..

that i think life is like...

there's just so many choices that we could have taken in life, in the past, in the future

there's an infinite amount of parallel universes,

one i didn't do this,

one i did that..

one i stayed,

one i went

but now... this is the present

this is the universe that i currently live in

you are here,

with me.

i'll love you till the end 

do rest

Do the right things,

And you will find rest

daydreamer

My hobby is to daydream

Hope for the best, 

And the universe will do the rest.. 

Or God

tongariro

Hiked tongariro.

Super unprepared

Gear

Plans.. 

Rush

Cut cost

Whatever.. Did part of the Te Araroa

Next time Mangatepopo entrace...

Whakapapa village was nice but.. Too far trekking in

Need to get, 

Headlamp, jacket and proper shoes

pump your petrol

Fuel bar was 1/4 to E.

Tongariro g.a.s. Was expensive. 

Didnt pump. 

Drove for abt 1 1/2 hours and then the needle dropped till the light came on.

Survived to Te Kuiti BP

Pumped 80bucks 37L

Thank you Lord the car didn't die at the side of the road

egg big ego

Don't say another person's ego is big,

That'll be one's own ego talking 

driving vtnz

Went for a driving test with Crystal today.

At Highlands. 

We got a strict testing officer

But.. Yah she was nice. 

Just talk

Thank you Lord

competition

Ego is good,

To a certain point. 

Such too is competition. 

As long as its not comparison 

That undermines one's

Self image. 

His own personal view on himself. 

When we compare ourselves to others

We just get miserable. 

However there's a need for self confidence, 

But not manufactured. 

It has to come naturally... 

As if a by product of something innate

Just.. Do what needs to be done. 

At that moment. 

Absorbed. 

Stop thinking about other things. 

Stop the mind wondering

However... Dont meditate until the mind is totally empty of everything. Thats bad. 

reiki

Had my first reiki session,

10 minutes at lunch break

in tune with nature's rythm

You'd know,

When someone's in tune

With nature's rythm 

His words and actions, 

Will be so pleasent. 

The conversations

So natural and convinient 

the size of the universe

Is absolute in value at any single moment in temporal space,

However, our perceptions of it differ from person to person in the sense that its relative to how much we know about it. 

In essence, the universe is only as big as we experience it to be, varying from person to person...

Mind blown d@.. Mind blownn

Always enjoyed this coversations

cell groups and liberation theology

"Cell groups" is a term that my childhood church used. I was so used to it growing up for twenty over years.

Just found out that it is from the South American Liberation theology. They had a strategy that if the Red Wave from communist China swept southwards, the big churches could break up and still be meeting in smaller groups. 

Mind blown..

But yeah its so funny why churches nowadays have so many different terms for the same things

Sunday service = celebration

Worship practice = creative get together

Cell groups = life/small groups etc

Leaders are told to use this 'lingo' to create a more exclusive feeling.

Wow..

adult childhood

You either fix your childhood problems and become an adult,

Or you will spend your adult life fixing yoir childhood problems

a pattern

12 months

12 signs

Why are there different personalities? 

That seem to repeat over and over. 

Just like the 4 seasons

Human nature is determined, 

By the tides and phases. 

No, we have freedom to choose, 

Free will of choice. 

We make our future whatever we want it to be.. no? 

Funny how we incline to certain things, 

While we are replelled by some.. 

lessons in mistakes

There are no regrets in mistakes,

They are lessons for the future. 

growth track 1

Sit in circles, not lines.

No one will ask questions

Show up in person, not a recorded video.

please piss

Can't please everyone, 

But don't pass off everyone. 

humor

Why do we stop making jokes when we become adults?

We think too much about others response

fishing

When you're all ready to go for fishing,

All the tackle in the car, 

The day's agenda clear for the pond... 

And then the skies grow gloomy, 

Dark grey clouds blown in overhead

Be it subang jaya or kelana jaya,

Or taman aman... 

That feeling... 

That no one can stop the rain, 

Unless a prayer, 

That blows the clouds away

Is heard by a God above... 

The rain drops when on is fishing, 

The splashes in the pool

The smell of the damp air

As we hide under a gazebo...

Rolling up the mat, 

Widing up the tackle

Cleaning the worms of the hooks, 

The smell of dirt in the nails, 

The dried worm juice on the fingers, 

Caked mud, hardend skin... 

A patient mind, 

A solaced soul, 

A quietened heart, 

A rested body

Tranquillity 

Father and son, 

Peace 

Love

bleh

Core basics

Nutrition: eat well

Exercise: sweat atleast 30 minutes 3 times a week

Sleep: whenever you're tired, naps on the weekends, 8 hours per night. Wake up at 5am? Sleep at 9pm the night before

Life improvement 

Read

Write

Draw

Count

Create 

Dance

Game? 

sin is bad habits

Sinning

A bad habit

Is whatever one constantly does

That keeps him off the right track

Sinning

Is not doing what one should be doing

Sin

How bad is it? 

It destroys one's life

Sin

What a word

What things are defined as it

When i was young it was

"when you disobey God's commandments" 

Sin.... 

So tempting

Sin.. 

So enticing

Yet sin.. Leads to death

Sinful 

Sinfulness 

I'm full of sin, 

Such horrible life

Such horrible choices

Such a way 

Such a horrid life

A horrid way to live life 

God save me 

denial of desire

Just because you feel like doing something, 

Doesn't mean you should go and do it.

I.e. I felt like playing AoE2 with Hsiang, Darcy, Wythe, Julissa and Sky. But its a Friday night and i needed to work the next day on a Saturday morning for half the day. I'm tired.

Sleep, nutrition, exercise. 

Discipline and determination 

Purpose and motivation 

Action and reaction 

the earth is flat

"Jesus is not coming again"

Unless one can maturely entertain that quote... How can one expect others to entertain that "Jesus is coming again"

do do doo

You don't really know what you're doing,

Unless your doing what you want to do, 

Because any otherwise, 

You'll be doing whatever someone else wants you to do... 

coding philosophy

 so code is basically like maths right,

you'll have functions, variables, arguments,

plus minuses multiplications...

what if one could program out philosophy?

using the names of philosophers, their main/core ideas, worldviews, questions and plans...

hmm sounds like a giant mind map actually.. eh.. isn't that what coding is! a mindmap 

i.e

Plato = socrates + aristotle

kant = ...?

the empiricist and logics, the romantics and aesthetics,

the communist and democrats, economy and religion,

all mash them up into a code.... how cool would that be!

maybe... one would see what worldview really encompasses all when it's all been laid out in relation to one another.. like.... woah..

is there really a final general equation to all this with ... and answer?

or is the answer just a function, and the results are actually just relative to what inputs we place into the variables..

no somethings dont change do they...

some things just dont

the law against suicide

Why do governments have laws that prevent one from taking their own lives?

I'm not suicidal or for euthanasia or pro-choice or anything like that. 

But it's just a random thought. 

Yes when i was younnger I'd argue that suicide is a sin. God forbades murder, even murdering yourself. And that good people make laws that are meant to protect society from becoming dysfunctional, even when they (the common people) dont understand fully why. 

Well, take for an extreme example if everyone killes themselves, there would be people lwft to govern.

Going slightly down the scale, if people could kill themselves when they felt emotionally down, which is temporary... There will be no law to prevent them from doing so and staying alive to the next day.. Which could be better.

And people, especially if they were thought "owh, feel free to kill yourself". What wouls young immature teens think about that? Especially when their self-worth and identity is so shaped by social media and the likes of 'friends' 

Well maybe make a law akin to drinking or smoking... Above 18 or 21, as if every person's brain matures according to a physically set chronology...

You can take your own life when you are an adult and have reach the 'age of consent'. Haha... Better not be any stressful jons out there... Bosses might need to be more humane and ethical and really caring.... Or they'll lose alot of employees 

Well.. Think about that... A world where nothing would want to make you commit suicide... Not because you're prevent from doing it legally... But because... 

Life is.. good

That's what lifs would be without a law to prevent suicides 

Maybe 

two types of knowledge

There is useful knowledge,

And there is useless knowledge. 

bits 0 1

Everything is bytes,

Its just what format

land

How did you find me? 

I was on a hunt, otw there was smoke. Like any cabin would have. Otw back there wasn't. 

Edee: "why are you helping me?"

Miguel: "you were in my path"

empathy game

Goal: to raise empathy among children playing it.

Basically its like charades 

Person A gets a paper with an emotion on it. I.e happiness, sadness, anger, etc

And perosn B has to guess what the emotion is. 

Its like reading body language 

unbridled freedom is chaos

Freedom is chaos,

When there's no boundaries... its insanity 

reflection life

Self reflection is the key to self awareness,

To live a contemplative life, present in every moment. 

chaos

 creation

is bringing order to reality: chaos

every morning i wake up at 5

 okay my alarm goes off at 5,

but i dont get out of bed straight away

i lay in it,

reach out my hand, groping in the dark to where i roughly remember placing the phone the night before to charge...

hit the snooze. 10 minutes... another ten... and another...

sometimes i turn it off and go to bed for another hour.

it's hard to get out of bed..

there's nothing to look forward to in the day,

the work..... is mundane.. and just for the money

saving up... 

it's not going to be forever...

just need to get through this time....

it's just temporary...

everyday its hard to get up.

i'm... tired.

i just want to.... rest

i pull the sheets back up over my aching body,

coving my cold feet so they can warm up under the duvet

i cherish my sleep

just before i have to go work

and come home,

and get ready for bed,

and repeat..

everyday

is

exactly

the same...

every morning i wake up.... audiobooks

 Brave New World

wow... really, makes me think of what this life is all about.

racism, sexism, cast systems.. contioning, society

am i a Beta or Gamma? 

dont think i'm an alpha or epsilon

plus minus?

my mind doesn't seem to be as sharp as what it used to be when i was younger

I'm beginning to think that everything is .... acceptable when viewed form the perspective of the other.

it's okay to be, contentended and.. stupid. ignorant

its okay to be a seeker of knowledge, but with more knowingness of things, ignorance is harder

discontentment

What's more important in life is not standing firm on one's fascists beliefs that one grew up with,

but making a choice to choose one's worldview when one has come of age.

listening to God is a real thing.

God is real.

how can we help others to experience God?

love.

some say love is silly.

some say that it is everything.

caring for others.

not caring.

i think i dont care so much nowadays.

just too... caught up with my own world.

not a nice new world.

i liked the old world where i grew up in.

i felt that it was the most relevant and real thing.

people were real. authentic...

people aren't real nowadays.

everyone's faking it...

i'm faking it.

i feel like a fraud.

God.

life isn't perfect.

i wish it was,

then again, where would the opportunity for growth be? 

I work in a cucumber glass house now.

every morning i wake up.....

Cold mornings

 The night air in the morning is cold,

yet i wake up to brace it everyday

twice in a different river

You never step into the same river twice

The river's name is always the same

the day before the birthday

 hello blog,

i woke up late today for work. haha. snoozed the alarm. woke up at 7.30am, the time that work starts. drove to work about an hour. well, it was a night of deep conversations, being woken up in the middle of it for my darling to break some news to me about her best friend.

today i listened to about three podcast along the common theme of the "brain"

The Next Big Idea: the Brain: A user's guide to the blob between your ears. where neuroscientist Lisa Feldman Barrett debunks the three stages of brain that has been commonly taught in schools. i.e primal lizard brain, ... uhh. ah says it's not for thinking but more for budgeting and how memory works.

https://open.spotify.com/episode/2b3C4dvUkYvTpOsuw0E0nH?si=cU2WaQ4RTqWaJbALe8TeUA 

and then there was erm another episode that just talked about the primal brain. lol

i think it was Your Undivided Attention. 

https://open.spotify.com/episode/7tTwo8aLwKzdVfUQaGFi12?si=LsR-MJEGQ1qwQXK21Po36Q

or maybe it was something else.

anyway... i noticed that the podcast that i listen to in a day. share common themes for that day. how cool is that?? coincidence . i think not. 

i remember one time it was a bout "Responsibility" or something like that.

to be responsible for our own actions,

i would like to be able to do that. like.... take up responsibility.. really.

I messed up life quite bad now and then.

i bought a 1TB Samsung SSD for NZD180 "accidentally" and was a little hesitant to tell Crystal about it. It's one of the very useful purchases i feel.

anyways. i should lie or hide anymore things if i'm to live togther with this woman for the rest of my life. (the song "honesty" is playing in the background now..... honesty is such a lonely world... its hardly ever heard.... its what i need from you.... its playing on my google nest mini speaker... 

i wish i took the google wifi hubs from Sylvia when she offered it. instead of trying to be nice and said that i talked to Chris about it the night before and found out he bought them expensive and would be unwilling to pass them to me. well i was honest then. haha . hope i can just pick up a second hand router and set up my own personal wifi.

i'm thinking of studying to be a newwork engineer btw.

should i?

IT...

python, linux, dockers, etc.....

seems intresting, but can i do it for the long run? coding and all

there's some CompTIA certifications on sale now 98% off... so tempting

70USD... offer on stacksocial on iColledge

so yeah....

tempting. but do i have the time? yeah heck i do.. one hour a day or something.. if i could partition my life that would be good.

i think i accidentally installed a virus from some bogus website to crack the Hard Disk sentinel on my crypo mining computer too.... haha too hasty. watened to run down to cook the potato pizza.

should be more chill...

i'm quite happy with the mining actually.

11.52pm... 8 more minutes till my 28th birthday.. yea!

going for chinese massage at newmarket tmr and a fancy dinner with my darling!

no WORK! (i hope i get to skip the planting of the small plants) i heard from Tim it's the worst thing taking the baby plants out of the truck... it's back breaking.

relative Universalist

Relative Universalist 

What is my philosophy in life?

The only thing that is absolute, 

Is everything is relative. 

The only constant, 

Is change (or growth) 

Doubt is an uncomfortable position, 

But certainty is absurd. - Voltaire 

I wish i could accept everyone's point of view in life without being judgmental or bringing my own biases into my thoughts about that person. But its hard considering how we've all be brought up in a certain way of thinking. 

To be empathetic, showing care and kindness. To try to understand the person's feelings and condition before making an assumption. 

To juat be true and accept that not everyone will like me. Its impossible to be liked by two opposing sides. We either love one and hate the other or love neither. That was what i was thought. 

We cannot love both. 

Can we not? 

Is it really not possible. 

Maybe. 

We have to choose our own path in life. 

Of casue if we had a partner we have to take their views into consideration too. For that is the responsibility and commitment when we made the choice to belong to another. 

Be true to yourself, 

No matter what. 

Travel is good, 

It opens up the mind to different cultures. 

Culture shock. 

Because we never really crawled out of the the rock we hid under all our lives. Our nice little comfort space. Our eco chamber where all views, ideas and opinions are unified in a synchronised consolidation 

Go out into the open. 

Listen to the left and right. 

Be a centralist, neutral at first. 

And then pick the side to stand on. 

It'll be an informed decision. 

And be consistent with it. 

I accept that i might be wrong. 

I acknowledge that i dont have complete knowledge of everything. 

I'm open

Yet i respect, 

First myself

And then others. 

God. 

There comes a choice when we are no longer infants. No longer living under the shelter of of parents, the house and community we were born into. Our lot in life. Our nature and nurture. 

To mature. 

What is growing up, 

What is coming of age? 

Its about making choices. 

Tough hard choices. 

Decisiveness. 

Decisions that will make or break the future. About looking long term. 

Defining who we are in the current moment. By whom we've been in the past

Our decisions along life's journey, 

Will be the test of our character. 

Did we show resilience when tempted to do wrong? Cause harm. Hurt people we love and care about? 

Or did we fight back against the tide. 

Ride it

Flow with it 

Or drown

Fight it. Resist it. But surf it. 

Dont be crushed by it.

Stand on the firm foundation, 

A solid rock. 

God. 

Makes

All things.... Good

Yet life is imperfect. 

Its full of bad stuff. 

God is good

He always is. 

Its not a contradiction. 

Its whom He is, 

And He gave us a choice. 

The freedom to choose. 

A better life

A life for Him and His values. 

Or a free life, free from slavery. 

No. 

Freedom is only truely found in Him.

When we forsake all others. 

For the singular choice we make. 

We cannot have our cake and eat it. 

We cant have everything in this world. 

Or cease ro be anything at all. 

Cease to come to be anything of significance. 

Life. 

Why did God give it to me. 

And you. 

Why did i meet you

Why are you reading this

Why did our paths cross, 

The unseen strings of this infinite web. 

Mingling and intertwining 

Into a beautiful array of... 

Nothingness 

Somethingness

God

We are all one. 

In Him

We are all seperate individuals 

Yet choose 

United by choices

Not against our free will. 

Self control 

The last and hardest part of the fruit of the Spirit. 

Yet with the wise Counsellor, 

The Holy Ghost,

It is obtainable. 

Love, 

Joy.. 

Peace

Patience 

Kindness

Goodness

Faithfulness 

Gentleness 

and

Self control 

dont know everything, cant know everything

Its okay to not know stuff,

Ask

Just don't make up things

And end up a liar 

I want to give an answer to a question 

Something, anything rather than "i dont know". 

Just to seem or be perceived to be intelligent. I'm not fooling anyone but myself. 

I cant control it sometimes, its a reflex. 

But all things can be tamed, rhe tongue is especially hard to. But nothing is impossible.. with Christ.

Just put away the pride and ego. 

Ask, not assume

It makes an "ass" of "u" and "me" 

tattoos and pure skins

The people in religion try to keep themselves holy. They are like the pure breed. White skins, no tattoos. Faultless.

And those that dare to tatto themselves, their faces their bodies. They are rebellious. They fight the system that they grow up surrounded by.

Yet we still choose to love them. Is it a superiority complex? That we are greater because we can love another? 

No i think we are just fooling ourselves. 

The better person is the one that can choose to do what he wants despite of what outside pressures are. If we are to make choices that require us to take into consideration too many factors, the final decision will not be of our own making. 

We will cease to live truely to ourselves. 

Friend of friends

freedom and limits

Freedom is not being able to do whatever you'd want, but its choosing the things that are in line with your core value.

Limiting choices, setting boundaries, and turning down offers to whatever is not in line. 

To chase after what really matters

making choices

Travelling makes one grow up,

Because choices have to be made

right and wrong

If everyone is right

Then everyone is wrong 

the war is fabricated

https://youtu.be/1lr8_OUa58c

I feel like the war is fabricated

Something to.. Keep people distracted 

What if they were all actors, 

Why would they follow such a script

Or a way of life?

unequal fairness

All humans are equal,

But life is not fair

chinese wisdom

You live today,

Today counts

过一天算一天

suicide and christ

(Only) when one has contemplated suicide seriously.....

Can they follow Christ wholeheartedly 

cloud atlas

Warched the movie again..

Reminds me of sembulan

What.. People think is okay

Is not okay

And someone whom knows the true true

Has to.. Do something.. 

Speak out.. Act. 

moon and sun

Everyone goes to sleep under the same moon,

Everyone wakes up to the same sun

the solution to poverty

Being poor is generally associated with a particular economic state. Of cause we can define it to include other aspects such as metal, emotional, relational and other abstract values. For this particular statement however let set the boundary as regards to being poor financially.

So what is the solution to this age old question? How did peasants in the feudal eras overcome their lords, how did workers unionised to demand rights from capitalist, how did slaves walk out freed men? 

I thought over it, while picking cumcumbers... And I've come up with a theoretical soultion

For there to be no poor, there has to be no rich. 

Now i know that sounds crazy. But listen before you label me a socialistic communist..

There will be no poor when people stop exploiting other people. When humans cease to see each other as mear objects. When humanity can realise we're all in this together.

As one part of the body cares for another, so too should those privileged ones care for the less fortunate. 

To embodie this theory. One has to be able to come to apoint where he will never make a claim that he is rich. Or well, never self proclaim it. If he has the ability to be rich, and there are still the poor amongst him, then he isn't truly rich.. yet. He is only considered rich if he's been able to eradicate poverty. In other words there are no more poor people.

However this might be impossible, because human nature by default is lazy and we tend to the path of least resistance. Someone whom is just begging and waiting for handouts without lifting a finger surely doesnt deserve help does he?

Or does he nevertheless? 

The undeserving, 

The unlovable, 

The hated

The ridiculed

The scorned and shamed... 

Ah... Surely they dont deserve unmerited favours. 

The solution to poverty is there must be no richness. 

One man gets richer at the expense of another. Thats just the natural law of nature. A plant that extends more roots can get water supplies and essential nutritions better than another plant whom cant compete. Completion for sunlight, minerals and space makes nature progress in a.... sustainable manner. 

Old plants will never live forever, nor seeds remain in the ground. Young plants will not be shaded forever, and with the full sunlight after a treefall, they have the time and potential to mature to their best. Growing high and proving shade for the next generation, continuing the cycle. 

Its all a cycle. 

The rich, the poor 

The lazy the hardworking

The exploited the opportunist 

There will be no more poor when the rich willingly give up their riches

Yes so that sounds impossible. No human in the right frame of mind will give up their hard earn savings to some random beggar on the street that didn't work hard for it. 

No God would give up his life, his throne in heaven for a mankind so full of hate towards him. 

But anyways.. 

Nature.. 

If they don't, nature will just happen. 

People will die. It cant be taken along. Money will be passed on. It'll be squandered by the next generation. And... 

The poor will be the one whom was once rich. And the currently poor will find riches.

Or will they? 

The solution to poverty. 

There must be no hypercapitalism, 

No advertising or marketing. 

No broadcasting, social media or expositions... 

Will that make it go away? 

Maybe not.. Thats just living in denial, ignorance. 

The solution to poverty is when there is no money... That can be concentrated.. 

Hmm block chain? Crypto currency might just overthrow the current economic market.. Maybe leaving old traditional cash obsolete and invalid.. Then what? What about this new world order.. 

Are you ready or prepared for it? 

The answer to the big question.. 

The poor you will always have among you, 

It is what you choose to do when interacting with them that will determine the outcome of the chain of events about to occur in time. 

Till next time, 

Thanks for wsnting to be better today than you were yesterday. 

dont lose your life winning it

"Ne perds pas ta vie en la gagnant" - Alex

respect nature

Humans didn't respect nature,

Now nature hits back hard. 

selfish selflessness

There are two kinds of people.

One that help others without expecting anything in return. 

And one that helps for selfish reasons. 

Some people have a worldview that every person in the world is actually selfish, that theres alwaysba hidden intention to any help offered, big or small. I don't disagree completely with them if they hold this view so strongly. I belive everyone is born selfish, as evident in a baby or child. They only think sbout themseves and self preservation. Milk, toys. Leaening to 'share' is probably one of the hardest lessons

Coming to selflessness and true kindness. Gratitude, generosity, and just a heart that blesses. 

Can a person like that exist? One that gives without expecting anything in return. Genuinely. 

A person that helps for the sake of helping and nothing else. Because thats in his character to do so. Its who he is. 

There is no hesitancy or feeling of obligation. No hint of resistance or pause.

Yes i believe there is only one person that truely has that, Jesus. 

And the only way we could be that charitable is by His power. The Father has to give and grant it to us to do so. 

I'm not rich enough...

I used to say money isn't the most important thing in this world (dont worry, it still isn't the number one)

But with that saying came a mindset that money wasn't really important in any sense (which is obviously not true)

Not like i never appreciated or been grateful for what is, but maybe i took for granted the providence

Like isn't it normal for a child to ask of a father, and the father lovingly gives what he knows to be good to his beloved child?

And wouldn't a father want to give if he could, wouldn't it be abnormal if a son refuses to ask or accept the good gifts a father wants to give, especially out of proud arrogance?

(just to make things clear I'm perfectly okay with my dad, haha.. Its just a thought experiment I'm getting to)

So many people i meet here in NZ on the working holiday dont have that same mindset..

I mean, i dont blame them least i be condescending. But like... money is such a big deal, as if life revolves around the dollar sign..

Maybe they were not so blessed, childhood gorwing up in certain family conditions and such.. But don't we get to choose how our relationship and feelings towards money would be when we are adults?

I've met people whom are contented, whom dont say "I'm poor and need to work more" (so so so many people say that when they're not!). I've also met others that keep saying that...

Jesus....

Well God really talked alot abt money in the Bible didn't He.. I guess without Jesus... Really the only other god to live for would probably be that..

Gee, dont know why i feel so frustrated, so.. judgy...

Anyways.. Yeap..

Like you said contentment is key