the day before the birthday

 hello blog,

i woke up late today for work. haha. snoozed the alarm. woke up at 7.30am, the time that work starts. drove to work about an hour. well, it was a night of deep conversations, being woken up in the middle of it for my darling to break some news to me about her best friend.

today i listened to about three podcast along the common theme of the "brain"

The Next Big Idea: the Brain: A user's guide to the blob between your ears. where neuroscientist Lisa Feldman Barrett debunks the three stages of brain that has been commonly taught in schools. i.e primal lizard brain, ... uhh. ah says it's not for thinking but more for budgeting and how memory works.

https://open.spotify.com/episode/2b3C4dvUkYvTpOsuw0E0nH?si=cU2WaQ4RTqWaJbALe8TeUA 

and then there was erm another episode that just talked about the primal brain. lol

i think it was Your Undivided Attention. 

https://open.spotify.com/episode/7tTwo8aLwKzdVfUQaGFi12?si=LsR-MJEGQ1qwQXK21Po36Q

or maybe it was something else.

anyway... i noticed that the podcast that i listen to in a day. share common themes for that day. how cool is that?? coincidence . i think not. 

i remember one time it was a bout "Responsibility" or something like that.

to be responsible for our own actions,

i would like to be able to do that. like.... take up responsibility.. really.

I messed up life quite bad now and then.

i bought a 1TB Samsung SSD for NZD180 "accidentally" and was a little hesitant to tell Crystal about it. It's one of the very useful purchases i feel.

anyways. i should lie or hide anymore things if i'm to live togther with this woman for the rest of my life. (the song "honesty" is playing in the background now..... honesty is such a lonely world... its hardly ever heard.... its what i need from you.... its playing on my google nest mini speaker... 

i wish i took the google wifi hubs from Sylvia when she offered it. instead of trying to be nice and said that i talked to Chris about it the night before and found out he bought them expensive and would be unwilling to pass them to me. well i was honest then. haha . hope i can just pick up a second hand router and set up my own personal wifi.

i'm thinking of studying to be a newwork engineer btw.

should i?

IT...

python, linux, dockers, etc.....

seems intresting, but can i do it for the long run? coding and all

there's some CompTIA certifications on sale now 98% off... so tempting

70USD... offer on stacksocial on iColledge

so yeah....

tempting. but do i have the time? yeah heck i do.. one hour a day or something.. if i could partition my life that would be good.

i think i accidentally installed a virus from some bogus website to crack the Hard Disk sentinel on my crypo mining computer too.... haha too hasty. watened to run down to cook the potato pizza.

should be more chill...

i'm quite happy with the mining actually.

11.52pm... 8 more minutes till my 28th birthday.. yea!

going for chinese massage at newmarket tmr and a fancy dinner with my darling!

no WORK! (i hope i get to skip the planting of the small plants) i heard from Tim it's the worst thing taking the baby plants out of the truck... it's back breaking.

medium reads, good questions

this is good

https://medium.com/better-marketing/10-skills-to-becoming-a-millionaire-in-5-years-or-less-e16b8b20500c

asks questions that are similar to the Me+We book.

simple, straight forward. takes a lifetime to digest.
its not for the money, its for the purpose of living

https://medium.com/@Shesreallyfat/emotional-intelligence-wont-make-people-like-you-7ba105ceeed8

"Emotional Intelligence Won’t Make People Like You
This may be a tough pill to swallow."

lol

"Capgras syndrome is a psychological condition. It's also known as “imposter syndrome” or “Capgras delusion.” People who experience this syndrome will have an irrational belief that someone they know or recognize has been replaced by an imposter."

https://medium.com/the-mission/131-actionable-ideas-from-ten-books-i-wish-i-had-read-ages-ago-d751c17402de

oppose what needs to be, not otherwise

This would make for a good inter-religious dialog topic.
Being a malaysian, i dont wish to take on an side that would seem to make anyone look worst than they are nor any better than they should be taught off. I'm all against segregation for one. Living in Sabah, it is truely amazing how integrated and peace multiple faiths and believes can exist harmoniously together. A true model for what i hope my entire country to practice.

Some would say in this:
1. The people protesting, are in the wrong because they are not being tolerant to others and are advocating disunity.
2. The people displaying signs in public are inconsiderate as the people living around the area in that land feel disrespected/challenged.
3. Some dont even bother whats happening and just go on with their lives, now knowing the implications of showing a blind eye to these issues may have on the future.
4. Others, say forget all this and get out of the country.

everyone has their own personal opinion. made based on multiple reasons and they way they were brought up. so it is understandable that making the choice sometimes isn't really a choice as people are brought up in circumstances that 'force' one's thinking towards a particular point of view.

As for me, what is my view.. based on the point of love, which i was brought up in. It is this "we should love one another" and that means listening when someone decides to share their opinion, in any way that is shown.

I always wondered why people would oppose things that are foreign to them? i can imagine if some big black citadel of occult practices was being established in my friendly neighborhood. One that practices satanism, hate, violence and lewd acts. That i would surely (maybe not boldly) oppose. But if it was a community loving building that did social work, helped run recycling events, gotong-royongs, spread a gospel of love, peace and joy to those around.. giving hope for a life eternal in this darkening world. That i would defiantly (maybe not with all my heart) support .Think about it, has what been taught you acceptable make other's actions contrary to yours, unacceptable?


know the reason you opposed things. Don't blindly follow a leader, not the masses.

http://www.themalaysianinsider.com/malaysia/article/locals-protest-outside-church-building-say-cross-challenging-islam

http://www.thestar.com.my/News/Nation/2015/04/19/Protest-agaist-church/

if i was brought up learning that the NAzi symbol linked to massacre of Jews. whenever i see the swastika... my heart dislikes it.

if i was brought up a young german boy thinking my race is the mightiest and my leader is awesome.. i would see others as infidels.

if i knew both sides, then only i could make a choice. attacking me without teaching me only will make me hate you more.

i already hate, because that is the absence of love.

oppose what needs to be opposed, not what sounds trendy to do.

fight against miseducation. it is what causes misunderstandings.

Cornerstone of Ephesian church is Jesus (not elders)

in relation to the article "church-needs-stop-pandering-trends"
here's something from a messaged with dearly beloved ones

although i agree much with what Relevant writes, yet let us remember that they are also still written by man. One downside is that they dont really put Bible verses in (but of cause we could link verses in our memory to the contents of what they write). anyways that being said, i think all churches are unique in their own sense that each caters to the need of the community around. For example, as the Holy Spirit leads the leaders to start ministering to say... the university students around... of cause they have to run it in a way that is relevant to the younger generation... and as long as the word is preached (the whole counsel, not just parts of it) , there is repentance to God and faith in Jesus, the leader doesn't look for personal profit (important!).. and careful attention is given to the flock (and the elders themselves!) against wolfs like how Paul' last words to the ephesian elders encompasses it : Acts 20:28 - "Pay careful attention to yourselves and to all the flock, in which the Holy Spirit has made you overseers, to care for the church of God, which he obtained with his own blood." at the end of the day, no matter how it is run... those who still choose to leave a church after all this is done ... even Paul said "I am innocent of the blood of all" .. as we cant force someone to stay, its their choice and life anyway. take some time to to ponder on Paul's heavily weighted speech (made light by sharing the yoke with Christ) that starts from verse 17... which is to me the passage that all elders MUST read...
i wonder why sometimes we are so critical of how other people run their churches. didn't Paul write a letter to the Ephesians saying that "Built on the foundation of the apostles and prophets, Christ Jesus himself being the cornerstone, in whom the whole structure, being joined together, grows into a holy temple in the Lord. In him you also are being built together into a dwelling place for God by the Spirit."