nicely written

 https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/two-sides-quote-what-gets-measured-managed-dr-eng-esteban-marks-mfn3f/

good way to write post,

benefits on one hand,

pitfalls on the other..

four-four points

normally people always only write the good part,

but leave out the bad..

i like that this post highlights some shortcommings:
"

1. Not Everything That Counts Can Be Counted: While metrics are important, not everything valuable can be boiled down to a number. Aspects like company culture, employee morale, and brand perception are challenging to measure accurately but are essential.
2. Overemphasis on What's Measurable: If an organization only focuses on measurable aspects, it might overlook other crucial elements. There's a risk of becoming too myopic, missing out on the bigger picture.
3. False Sense of Control: Just because something is being measured doesn’t mean it's under control. Relying too heavily on metrics might give a misleading sense of mastery over a situation.
4. Potential for Manipulation: When performance is tied to specific metrics, it can incentivize behaviors aimed at improving those numbers, sometimes at the cost of genuine progress or ethical considerations."

well written

lost and found

I found my ring back...

Have not been wearing it for few weeks....

After I went to waiheke Island.

I thought I lost it.. but it was in my work bag. Phewh.

Lots of things been happening lately.

I kind of screwed up doing the ANZ SW reload at BP Greenlane... miss typed one number in the IP address... and didn't catch it when the ATM wasn't connecting... Leslie found it. Thank God.

And then there's the time we're I deliberately disobeyed the wife... when she said to stop spraying the anti mould on the kitchen sink...

But I still did.

Wonder why.

I think it's because I wanted to please the landlords. And the OCD part of my cleaning just kicked in....

I should be using it at work.. not home.

Brain fog. Can't think straight. 

Doing things that irritate others.

Not able to process current situation and gauge future consequences. 

Move to Dunedin? Or stay in Auckland.

It's so convenient here.

Daycare. Wife's work.. house.. friends.. flights.. events.... warmer...

All this will be sacrificed with the move down south.

Craig, Brett... give some clarity please.. don't be afraid to ask them questions.

Thanks Bilal for the comforting chat during the CE meeting.

Fix the TV, old plasma from shri. Have to pay to discard it otherwise.. use the airports to get a new one later on.

Logistics.. have to move the house.. sigh.

Van chair.. Two people want to buy.

First buyer hasn't come yet. 

Time to give chance to the second one?

is Jesus

More important than time,

Than money....

Than love

Is Jesus

Because only He can do things that

Time, money, love cannot

He can do miracles,

Time is endless for Him,

He can Raise the dead..

He can do what love can't 

He can change hearts,

Open and close doors

Seek Him first

no phones

No phones in the bedroom,

No phones at the dining table,

Leave the phone in the basket by the front door when walking into the house,

No phones in the mornings,

No phones in the toilet,

No phones when Infront of the kids,

When someone talks to you, put down the phone

autonomy SCARF

So there was a session at Resolution,

That talked about losing Autonomy.

It was part of a five acronym word guiding to what makes people .. sad? I can't remember everything. One of it was A for security. sCARF

Man It just came back to memory

The SCARF model involves five domains of human social experience: status, certainty, autonomy, relatedness, and fairness.

And one of it was loss of autonomy.

So... Have you ever felt like.. 

You can't make the deacons you would want to be making due to the current circumstances you're in?

Like.. there's a lack of freedom if you so will....

Freedom to do what you would want to do 

I'm not saying it's necessarily a bad thing 

It can be a good thing..

To be restricted.

A conservative is just a liberal whose been mugged.

Because of who I am, where am I, whom I'm with, what I've done...

There are certain choices we can make and certain some that we can't anymore 

But no regrets...

Just make the decisions

Learn from the mistakes...

And move. On

That's life.

Stuff happens

Things come and goes.

Nothing last forever

But will always be in our memories

such a good descriptions of KPIs and Metrics

From Blinkist point 3 on the book Capitalist Realism

The paradox of Market Stalinism

We now turn our attention to a phenomenon that epitomizes the paradoxical nature of contemporary economic systems: Market Stalinism. This term is a reflection of the intricate and often contradictory forces at play in our societies – forces that shape both the institutions we interact with and our very perceptions of efficiency and productivity.

Market Stalinism, which might seem oxymoronic at first glance, aptly describes a situation where the market's invisible hand is coupled with an iron fist of administrative control and surveillance. This combination results in an environment where the very forces that are supposed to liberate the market and enhance productivity end up creating new forms of bureaucracy that stifle innovation and creativity. This scenario is vividly portrayed in Mike Judge’s film Office Space, which humorously yet incisively depicts the suffocating nature of the modern corporate setting.

In this environment, workers find themselves inundated with redundant memos and trivial administrative tasks that serve more to demonstrate compliance with procedures than to contribute to any meaningful productivity. In an era often touted for its neoliberal policies – policies like deregulation, privatization, and the emphasis on free-market competition – the reality is a growing complexity and expansion of bureaucratic processes. The relentless push for ongoing evaluations, financial audits, and the measurement of performance through various metrics has given rise to a convoluted administrative maze. In seeking to streamline and optimize, these neoliberal approaches have ironically led to the very inefficiency they aimed to eliminate.

The impact of this phenomenon is not confined to the corporate world alone. It permeates various sectors, including education and public services, where teachers and other professionals are increasingly burdened by the need to satisfy an ever-growing array of performance indicators and targets. These measures, ostensibly designed to improve standards and accountability, often end up diverting resources and attention away from the core activities they’re meant to enhance. In educational settings, for instance, the focus shifts from the actual teaching and learning process to the production and management of data that satisfies bureaucratic requirements.

This scenario leads to what can be described as a culture of bureaucratic anti-production, where the primary output is not goods or services but an endless stream of data and documentation that serves to feed the bureaucratic machine. This culture not only stifles creativity and innovation but also demoralizes those caught in its web, leading to a sense of futility and disengagement. It represents a significant departure from the ideals of efficiency and effectiveness that are often touted as the hallmarks of market economies.

As we ponder this scenario, we should ask ourselves: How can we navigate and reshape these structures to create environments that truly enhance human potential and societal well-being? What new paradigms and approaches are needed to break free from the constraints of bureaucratic anti-production and realize the promise of a more dynamic, responsive, and human-centered system?

theta state. slipping in the sleepiness

Long sermons in church was good.

People got sleepy..and when your tripping in between the states of consciousness and sleep.. man.. that's the sweet spot..

That's why sleeping in class is good...

That's why Silva talks about it..

That's why the second universal law is about it..

It's not a mystery or unknown..

Sleepy is good..

themes for the year

So the recurring word or intention that has constantly been popping up is...

Authenticity.

What would you do,

If it was really just you?

Our thoughts and actions are so determined and influenced by our surroundings. We constantly think about what others would think about us if we did a certain thing, or not.. 

Resulting in us becoming very passive beings.. it's so much safer than being an active person.

There's no potential for rejection, no room for error. But that's a bad thing. Because humans grow when we make mistakes, that's how we learn. That's how babies learnt to crawl and talk and eat. Just try, if we fail, learn from it, what went wrong, and try again, keep trying until we get it right.

That is the spirit of resilience.

It's okay to fail,

Just... Don't keep doing the same thing and failing over and over again...

Take time to reflect.

When something has gone wrong.

What happened?

Why?

And what can we do better next time,

Especially if a similar situation pops up again.

Secondly,

Value

What do we count hlas being previous to us? This will determine our priorities in life.

The things we place the most value in, is the things that our mind will think about.

It's the things that we'll thinking into the future about. it'll determine the plans we make, the goals we'll achieve. The direction, the compass that points north.

Been watching made in Abyss season 2. And this been popping up.

Value... To each his own he determines what is precious. Something's might be more valuable to others than it would to a stranger. This is because of the intrinsic interaction that one has had with that object or person.

I value time.

I value truth.

I value my family

My wife, my son..

I value... Learning

Growing.

New things,

Presence

Growth.

Love.

Faith

Faithfulness

Grace

Forgiveness

Mercy

Generosity

Purity

Holiness

Life

Happiness

Grief

Pain

There is so much to value.

Too many things in this world,

It would be endless

We just have to choose what we value

In the moment,

In the season

In the time

is not about speaking less, but listening more beforehand.

" i dont want to be a whiny CE"

but the truth is, we should rasie up more questions..

i did my performance review today with the manager.

it was good..

however i wished i composed myself a little better

not as some one desperate.

but someone calm and level headed.

not about asking questions or raising issues/concerns that have nothing to do with the benefit of the company..

but.. what does the manager want to hear that will be of use to higher ups?

what others are saying doesn't matter, dont need to jump in the same boat as others

saying the same things that have already been said...

say the things that matter

SPEAK LESS,

\but SPEAK WELL

like the bible says: be a man of less words 

Therefore, intentionally talk less and be wise. “My dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry” (James 1:19)

“Even a fool is thought wise if he keeps silent, and discerning if he holds his tongue” (Proverbs 17:28).

When words are many, sin is not absent, but he who holds his tongue is wise. Proverbs 10:19  

be a light, be an encouragement,

bring joy

that is what you're here on this earth for

not about being gurmpy and all

simplicity, minimalism,

don't be grumpy

put the phone down

Fluvial, an unspoken rule in the house

When someone speaks to you,

If your on the phone, put it down.

And listen to them

At the dinner table, no phones

After a certain hour, no work stuff

seasons

Andrew at the kart control tower,

The young races can only get to where they are because of the support they recieve from the club..

He goes around the corners knowing what to expect ahead because of the signal lights..

Wittout them, we won't be as good as we are.

The young ones need the guidance of older ones...

It's a different seasons of life

real. risk

REAL... What ia real, what is perceived.

What is the RiSK you're willing to take.. 

After weighing the consequences and incentives.. 

Today's sacifice, tomorrows gain

stages of smartphone recovery

"why would someone want to sacrifice convince willingly" - Anthony Horn 4:40

"convince comes at a cost. Its up to you to decide what cost are you willing to pay" 11.06

Key is moderation

goving up the smartphone

Stage 1

Designing the environment

Increasing the physical resistance towards smartphone usage. 

I placed my phone outside the room on the computer table to charge everynight. It was great, when i came into the bedroom it was either to read books, talk or sleep. No phone distraction what so ever. Didn't even have the itch for it.

Started to build a daily habit of reading. 1 chapter of a book and a few pages of another book. 

Just needed a nice bed side lamp to illuminate the pages.

Stage 2

Have the phone by the bedside. But use it with intentions. Temptation will be there. But no point running away from the inevitable. We will have to live with technological advances one way or another. Its about being a good master of it so that we dont become its slave (just like money). 

fail

Learn to fail, or fail to learn. 

Failing is a privilege. 

plan execute

Prepare for the next day

Execute the plan.

Pack luggage for the trip the day before

Rehearse what to say before the event

Visualise mentally the route. 

growth can only come when one is truely rested

Or restless...

Paratos esse, be ready. 

I think its time to change to "be present" 

To clear a foggy mind. 

Sleep. Excercise helps. Dont over sleep. 

This weekend was good. 

Abit the turmoil of not being able to sleep due to anxiety about the passports.. 

Rested much over the Friday and Saturday nights. Having not to wake up on the weekend mornings is such an amazing blessing. Please please never take it for granted. The time for a nap, owh how beautiful it is the rest... 

For when we rest. 

Than can we truely have the energy... 

To think, to learn, to grow. 

Rest is the start of things, 

Not the end. 

solitude is healthy, fertile solitude

“The best things in life happen to you when you’re alone,” artist Agnes Martin reflected in her final years. “Oh comforting solitude, how favorable thou art to original thought!” wrote the founding father of neuroscience in his advice to young scientists. The poet Elizabeth Bishop believed that everyone should experience at least one prolonged period of solitude in life. For in true solitude, as Wendell Berry so memorably observed, “one’s inner voices become audible [and] in consequence, one responds more clearly to other lives” — an intuitive understanding of what psychologists have since found: that “fertile solitude” is the basic unit of a full and contented life.

Excerpt from The Art of Being Alone: May Sarton’s Stunning 1938 Ode to Solitude

by Maria Popova, themarginalian.org

December 1, 2017 07:35 AM through Pocket.

I always thought that really hapiness is to be found when we are together with other people that significantly matter to us in our lives.

Maybe that was shaped by Alexander Supertramp's words: "Happiness only real when shared". Ans being an extrovert, yes. I feel happy hormones kick in when i am with others. The joy the laughter, the connection in interactions and friendships and relationships... 

But really.. At the end of the day. 

When i sit alone, by myself.. Talking to the moooooon~

Hmm okay sorry got a little carried away.. 

At the end of the day. 

Solitude 

Was something Jesus practiced as well.

Early in the mornings, late in the evenings. 

He always went to spend time with Himself, with God. 

Solitude is healthy.

Find that fertile solitude

pocket 2022 dump v1

 persistence > perfection

failing > not trying

discipline > motivation

active reading > passive consumption 

single task > multi task

one deep read > many shallow reads

handwriting > typing

speak > silence

4. Authenticity: work/life balance

"I know from habit research that the lure of technology, that really quick dopamine hit you get when you have a new notification, is one of the hardest to overcome. It depletes willpower the fastest.”  -Urban “Dopamine is really about the anticipation of an event. It’s about seeking, not enjoying. So when that notification pops up – whether it’s the best news in the world, or the most annoying – all your brain knows is there’s something new you can divert your attention to. And when you’re feeling stressed or disconnected, you’re especially susceptible to this.”

“The curious paradox,” wrote the psychologist Carl Rogers, “is that when I accept myself just as I am – then I can change.”

And is there one simple limit you can set during this part of your day? For example, I have a boundary in the morning that I don’t check my phone before my routine is done. So I have a cold shower, work out, do a little meditation, and make myself breakfast. Then I start my day. I think those are the kinds of self-boundaries that can be helpful with working from home.”

So, it would be nice to have a morning habit.

I wake up, I dont touch my phone. Go make breakfast, work out, do devotion, meditate.. work starts at 8am. check the phone then. Work ends at 5pm, stop checking after that. if they wanted something done the next day, they should have planned it ahead.

A war is coming

brain doesn't do well with too much new information (the flaw as per Pantheon series).

improve brain: Dance, Instrument, foreign language, chess, read more of less, hand write

learning: say out loud,  test yourself, space out learning, handwrite, change the way, exercise, interleaving (learn different things in succession) , teach others, associative learning (build upon what you already know),

sleep in blocks of  1 and a half hours. either 1.5, 3, 6 hours... dont sleep 7 you'll wake up in the middle of a cycle. 7.5 is good.

focus on changing your mindset. Try counting your blessings before you fall asleep. It sounds cheesy, but research shows that the simple act of writing down three to five things you’re grateful for each day can significantly boost your wellbeing in as little as two weeks. Another positive mindset shift involves becoming more present. Research by Harvard psychologist Dan Gilbert and colleagues shows that no matter what we’re doing, we’re usually happier when we’re paying attention. So why not commit to boosting your presence with a few minutes of meditation every morning? Finally, consider switching from a selfish me-me-me mindset to one that’s a bit more focused on others. Study after study shows that people are happier when they’re helping people in need.

people who are self-compassionate eat better, exercise more and are happier with their bodies. They also procrastinate less and bounce back more resiliently after failures.

ON MAKING CHOICES

1. Zero in on what really matters

2. Don't dwell on the small choices

3. Decide as much as you can in advance

4. Get a second (and third, 4th) opinion for the big stuff

5. Be mindful of your emotions, timing of making choies

6. Be thoughtful about how you use pros and cons lists

7. Think of decisions as opportunities

.8 choose your regrets, we can't do everything

Kindness > fairness

 you can be kind to the one you love.

Matthew 20:1-16

Kindness > Fairness

be kind, just like Halsey sang so

when you think it matters

"doesn't matter" - jima