there is no reason for excuse

 life is a choice.

stop passing the buck,

there is no one else to blame.

take up the responsibility,

and do what needs to be done.

Discipline eat motivation for breakfast

truth is absolute

 So the NEXLeaders course on SUMO has this quote:

"Each person sees the world in a different way.

There is not a single, unifying, objective truth.

We're all limited by our perspective" - Siri Hustvedt

but i still stand that truth is absolute and not relative.

a ball is a ball, no matter if you see whatever colour it is.. or whatever side

there is not two balls ... according to the SUMO guy Paul

but i get what he's trying to see... people has different prespective on things.

and its good to be empathetic 

wallow hippo wallow

 i was sitting down,

when felt down.

nothing i can do,

but do what hippos do.

wallowing

wallowing

half a day went by,

my mind couldn't come by,

nothing else could be done,

couldn't blame someone

wallow wallow

move on, move on,

life goes on.

i lost my seed phrase

 judging the judgmental

today. i woke up... and saw a coinbase notification.

clicked on it... hmm.. about eth... tried to sign into Coinbase wallet.. haven't done so for quite some time. ah... it's a new lay out, they must have updated the app.... use fingerprint to authenticate... failed..

hmm.. i remember i almost got locked out once from coinbase wallet before... it's okay i'll just sign out and restore it from the google drive backup..

sign out... confirm sign out....

try to sign back in..... restore from google drive.....

no back ups found

what the....

hmmmm i'm pretty sure i wrote my 12 seed phrase somewhere..

look through 5-6 books.... my gosh..... it was arbout the timing of april 2021..

checked through screenshots, etc...

god....

its .. not here...

owh well..

lesson learnt

there was about 5 transections to that wallet..... nzd56 of AMP and about nzd85 of eth....

gosh... well..... whatever.......... life goes on

Lucy Kusanagi

 Lucy in Cyberpunk is like Motoko Kusanagi from Ghost in a Shell.

the similarities that reminds me of the character

guess the both are imba peeps that can connect to the net

Kindness > fairness

 you can be kind to the one you love.

Matthew 20:1-16

Kindness > Fairness

be kind, just like Halsey sang so

26/10/2022

7.30 wake up, breakfast

8-5pm work

5-6 gym, cook dinner

7-8 eat, watch Disney

9-10 YT, FB

10.23 now

rinse, repeat

excess golgi apparatus - mucus

 so here's another dumb theory.... as dumb as why people get pimples if they don't release their pent up juices. 

the organelle (almost forgot what it was called in biology) Golgi apparatus is responsible for creating mucus. if we use up all the resources by shooting too frequently, the body has a deficit of mineals and nutrients and mitochondria energy to supply to other parts of the body.

signs include not having mucus in the nasal and throat areas (although i think this is also caused by damaged mucus linings from trying to hold kerosene in the mouth for fire breathing), 

so after being able to have a break for a few weeks... almost a month.. the longest it's ever been actually! there is a build up of resources once again... 

and i've got the flue, nose keeps running. but its been running so much better than it was previously.

odd eh...

weird stupid theories of the body and mucus

bee oil

There is a bee colony on the water.

That had the queen in stasis for a long time cause the owner nicholas left it for an adventure. When he came back he brought her back to life by melting honey with a blowtorch and calling her name Emelda.

I pushed a trolley and it hit a stack of extrs virgin olive oil in green bottles. Three fell down and broke.

health: habits and routines.

"Healthy habits are key to leading a healthy life, but it's nothing without self-discipline and routine. Start on your health journey." - Huawei health app

opinion nazi

3. You are entitled to your opinions, but the line is drawn when you try to impose it on others.

4. Dont be a Nazi, if you were born in Germany that time and everyone was doing it... So you think that its okay to do..

Thats like saying its okay to kill a certain people group... Just because they were born in a differrnt ethnic or belief. 

rush slowly..

1. What if the earth doesnt have a finate amount of resources? As we now think it does...

I mean.. What if the sun light brings in more mass (does light carry more than just energy wave lengths? Is a photon something that can contribute to atoms? And smaller atoms just keep combining to form bigger ones? Eventually all the elements on the periodic table are fabricated

2. What if wind and wave energy is actually detrimental?

Whobsaysbthat capturing the currents and velocity of the skies bring about no ill effect to the earth as a whole? Maybe becasue we slow down the movement of undercurrents, the global metrological patterns go out of whack and droughts and monsoons and typhoons happen in a seemongly erractic way.. But they are all part of the same earth's equation.

Theres no such thing as gaining someyhing without a sacrifice. Every action has a equal and oppoaite reaction. Every benefit has a price to be paid.

3.... 

dont worry, doesnt matter

You gotta play,

While you enjoy your stay. 

Sydney

why people warch movies

"People watch videos (mindlessly),

Because they dont like to think.... " - jamie

missed the ferry to waiheke. blunders, blunders everywhere

Just missed the 12.00 ferry by a few minutes.

What happened?

Morning 8am CE meeting

9am drop emergency off girl stuff

9.30 OT helpdesk call for bitlocker issue. Rebooted and its fine....

10-11.30 at south shed. More jobs came into ES for waiheke. 

Got to the ferry at 11.57

Sigh.

Next ferry at 2pm. Takes about 45 mins for the trip over. I'd arrive at 3pm. Thought I'd just bundle all the jobs together tmr since I'm taking the car over. But nope. They want P1 jobs addressed today.

Blunder in booking jobs for mainland. Had to cancle them. Such a mess. 

Sitting in an ultra packed ferry now. Hoping it'll sink

Gotta get back for wife's birthday today too. 

time 1

On going out to eat dinner in sydney CBD,  as compared to having only 1 hour lunch breaks

"We're  not rushing for time,

We can go how far we want, 

And come back how late we want."

1 dollar pho noodles at westfield

"In their heart, People actually dont want cheap things."

shisha st Sydney

Its friday night,

Me and the boys went down to CBD for dinner.  We all got our own food,  i went to an indonesian restaurant that had like..  Wan tan mee..

Then took an uber to some road like dominion.  Had punjab food,  ice cream Moo&Moon and then Shisha Expresso..

The kick after three puffs was nice.  But at the 4 or 5th set..  The body started rejecting it like beer.  Went to puke..  That was it.

The after feeling is hhhoooorrrible. 

Took the train back.. 

Sitting in the room just trying to recover.

I hate shisha. Wont do it again.

100 gong

 1. music, keyboard on Yousican (30 mins a day)

2.  language, Chinese on Chinese Skill app (~15 mins/d)

3. exercise: kneesovertoes Nordic bench, Feldenkrais Awareness through Movement

4. learning: percipio COMPTIA Network+

5..

keystone habits to build:

S-Tier: Reading, exercise, meditation, bullet journaling

 feldenkrais...

reiki..

contact care....

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well... what i know about the body, is not as much as what is possible i guess.

all i know is that... we gotta feel our body more.. like.. listen to it.. move it. and try to be in tune with that it's trying to say to us.... i dont know why but when i think of "finding our own north star", i think of paying attention to what the body is telling us about

hand me that cup

What does it mean for our old bodies to be swallowed up by life?

Scientifically, When our body dies, we bury/burn it and it returns back to its constituent molecules of carbon, hydrogen, oxygen and all other trace elements. Just like any other vegetable or animal when they die and get decomposed.

But what is it that is different for a Christian's body for our point of view when we die? Jesus didn't die on the cross and have His body buried in the tomb and left to rot... While His spirit floated away and got another new heavenly shining angelic body...

No, by the power of the Holy Spirit, Jesus was raised back to life in the same body that was in thag tomb, wounds in the hand and feet and side and all. But this resurrected body was different from the old. This new body could seemingly teleport and phase through walls (John 20:26-27).

Jesus had achived a higher state of being. A 'new' body. And he offers us this 'new' life too. Do we need to die (physically) before we inherit an eternal body? Or hasn't always the gospel preached the eternal life is this: to know You, the one true God-and Jesus Christ the one He sent to earth (john 17:3).

That was Jesus prayer. That we would come into communion with the God if the universe. To be unseperated from Him. This physical body has the mind, body and spirit; id, ego, superego; insitncts, reality, morality; logical rational, primal intuition,...

Jesus was sent from another place beyond this earth. Sent by another from beyond our realm. We call that place heaven. Jesus was sent here to guide us. To save us. To show us the way, the truth and the light. Onto salvation. Onto the path of being one with esch other just as Jesus was one with God (john17:21-26).

Now hand me that sacrament. The Holy Communion. That bread and wine. In remembrance of Christ. But be weary, we were not instructed to indulge in taking it alone and in an unworthy manner (1 Cor 11:21)

minute 42: textbook

Alright got back my train of thought. Trigfered by the word at that minute.

Textbooks

So... 

Here's the post about it. 

A child doesnt like to be forced to read something that is of no onterest to them. I.e i did badly in Sejarah (history) in highschool. Why? Because i didn't like the subject, or well... The spark was never ignited in me for it (by my educator?)

As an adult.. I love history, (not doing it any justice though)... Not spending my time reading up on it either.

But yeah... 

As long as a child can read words. And can understand, comprehend and formulate the ideas that others have placed into writing... Thats the key skill..

The next is to guide them, but not force them... To read with interest.

See i think the brain only makes good neurons grow and remembers, recalls 'facts' better when our consciousness is attentively interested in a particular topic.

Theres where focus and flow state can be found. (as adults we seek for that state that so naturally comes to kids, mpre on this next time maybe...  Tldr: adults are to preoccupied with other matters, kids dont have a care in the world, especially on household responsibilities)

^ p.s I've put 'facts' in quotation because really.. As a kid everything i read was from 'legitimate' sources, so my brain consumes literally anything without bothering to spend extra energy and effort to filter if it is true or not. It is easily guaged: what doesnt sit well with what i already know in my currently accumulated knowledge database is rubbish and wrong.

What can be grafted onto ths tree of my knowledge is... Good. And expands more or what i know. Maybe certain information at too early a time wont fit anywhere, but will do so later on when there are more branches. However, nowadays with fb and yt short videos... The tonnes of info are just being dumped around without having any anchor to latch onto... Its a mess in my head. 

Ans hence, its not so much the case now whwre right is so easily distinguishable from wrong. I used to be suuuuper absolute in truth, and would be apologetic towards relativism. As im 29 years old now.. Uhh....  I'm more kinder and gentler. 

Not accepting or tolerant, but loving and empathetic. I wanna be like Dr Tan GJ. Wise. 

So anyways.. Yeah. That's that. On textbooks. And my weird random thought that spouted from listening to minute 42.

How we should change education for noy juat children. But people even as they become adults.

(but who would learn accounting then? If no one was ever willing to force themselves to read all those textbooks and sit for CAP exams??... Haha maybe there'll be a portion in our 8 billion population that fill find their place of belonging there)

As confusious said. 'A kingdom prospers when everyone is in place where they belong.' or something like that

evangelical Christian 'testimony'

Lisenting to ben and kami's podcast "everyone belongs" epdisode 1. So relatable. Haha. But aslo thats their point of view.

I think the beanbag and tickling each other part is actually a sign of self control (lol the 9th fruit of the spirit (i almost said 10th fruit)). Something like the marshmellow test for kids, those that didn't eat it showed greater mental resolve.

I think i have a weakened mental capacity, i failed morally.. Many times..

Growing up, life was goood. Grown up, life is kinda... Erm... Sub-prime.

Not the best. But still good.

Having a secial someone and having to adhered to their expectations can be... Uhh.. Draining.

But thats love aint it. 

As a kid , my parents were littt.. They let me cycle out into the mid night and come home at whatever time i wanted to with the house key.

But yeah anyways what I'm getting at is.. 

You'd know when you know. 

Main point: i forgot what i wanted to write. It was gonna be huge... Will get back to it

the right kind of right

Would you rather be right,

Or be kind? 

when you think it matters

"doesn't matter" - jima

purging preconceptions

The secret country of yourself by Jenya T. BEACHY.

Pg14. Write on these places:

Santuary

A holy place. Scantum. Brings to mind the Christian song. "Take me past the outer courts, into the Holy place, past the brazen alter, Lord I want to see Your face... ". Growing up in church we use this word quite a bit. I guess it's used to refer to where God dwells. Where He can be found.

Shadow House

Sounds dark. Like a place where ghost hide. Like a haunted place. The house in Stranger Things season 4. Its gloomy. Theres spider cobwebbs.. Nobody had gone there for a long time. Shadow brings to mind the Swtichfoot lyric "the shadow proves the Sun shines". Shadows are there, no doubt. But we dont pay much attention to them. Because its stuff that we think are negstive, taboo or not nice to show to the public. However, it is there. In us. I've heard of Shadow Work. Of the Dark Night of the Soul. Computer games make use of the "shadow" term in units, skills or characters..

Temple

The church. Where Christians in other traditions call a place of gathering. A religious place for whatever religion people belive in. It has many different names. But often associated sith Buddhist. A place with statues and idols. Smoke from joss sticks. When i was young i would say "I'll never never go into a chinese temple, thats where Satan is". But when i grew up, i realise that it is not what is on the outside, but on the inside of us that either keeps us 'holy' or defiles us. Visiting other people's places of worship 

One of the things dad wanted to do after retirement is water painting. But he never get started.

Thats living the authentic life right there! We always have so many choices in life and things that interest us... But sometimes we have to put aside stuff so we can do other things of more value..

Like playing with the grand kids.. 

Imagine if dad decided to spend all this time just sitting and painting. He might end up like uncle kwen peng! Haha not that theres anything wrong with how a person chooses to live the life with the freedom of choice we've all been blessed with by God.

To every man, their own art. 

crab by the lake side

 there was a hugggge crab at the side of the lake.

and the lake had hugee frogs too

we went for a walk in it.

and came out to wash our feet at a phone booth that had a shower

such a heavy burden upon the shoulders

i dreamt..

i was walking.. with such a heavy backpack...

so heavy that my legs started to give way..

and i could no longer even stand at all

transcendence and facticity

 have a close relation with each other.

they give each other meaning and purpose..

just like yin and yang,

opposites giving definitions to the other.

for if there was no evil, how would we know what good is?

A photo frame that shows inspirational quotes daily

 I would like to invent that.

Make a small digital board that I could place on my desk.

That shows inspirational quotes for the day.

It could run on a respberry Pi or something,

with a small screen attached.

Freedom

 Freedom is not freedom from responsibility, it is freedom to make choices,

and therefore having to take responsibility.

a paradox of work

'doing more gives you more energy to doing more'

authenticity is the way to learn better

 "What we need to know gets lost in what we are told we should know"

Real learning is the process of remembering what is important to you,

and becoming a leader is therefore the act of becoming more and more your true self.

- Tom Butler-Bowden on Warren Bennis' On Becoming a Leader 1989

man.. Tom has read and summarised soooo many books

begger of time

Remuera

Sat on a bench. 

Begger came to sit beside. 

I sat a while with him.

Ask hows the day, 

Hows the place. 

Whats his story?

He said he didn't want to talk about it. 

No one listens. Theres no time.

Time is a funny thing eh. 

A begger not having enough time.

Hmm

work is creation

 we are made to make things.

bring order to chaos.

entropy happens naturally. all things move towards this state.

hence, energy has to be inputted to mitigate it.

everything we do, is part of creation.

like writing this blog post.

the fingers typing on the keyboard to make legible information from my illegible thoughts in the mind.

the ink in a pen forming out a pattern recognized as words by another reader..

ink in a pen, is potential.

the casing held in the hand,

the nib on a sheet of paper,

the ink flows out..

it makes... something

something is created

i fix machines.

that is my work.

i bring order to chaos.

fix the broken

so that it works again

God, Jesus... fix me

what i got from YLDP with Prof. neo BS on distruption

 

-"If it's aligned, say yes and fit it into the schedule. If it's not aligned, even with free time, say no"...…

-a fundamental skill: learn how to solve problems in a computational manner

-dealing with burnout: set limits.

 

-its not about learning everything, its about keeping it going.

Get involved in solving a problem, then it's easier to learn something

 

-super long term view (we might not see in our own lifetime): eventually old things die out, but new congregations are born that cater to the needs of future generations.

big picture view: Kingdom of God is everlasting

 

-be driven by time rather then scope.

instead of waiting for a comprehensive solution at the end of 24 months, I rather have partial solutions every 1 month.

 

-without a foundation, agility doesn't work.

it leads to instability because there is no center.

smarthponeee

 How do you think mobile phones have changed not just the realm of communication? It literally has changed everything about life. It's the TV, Radio, Photobook, Camera, Newspaper. Actually I think the smartphone is just the key to a door. Like a window. The real allure or attractiveness or distraction is what is behind the screen. Whether it be the endless recommended mindlessly entertaining short videos from YouTube, FB, TikTok, Instagram.. or really knowledge improving wisdom growing content from wholesome sources on the exact same platforms. Mobile phones are a double edge sword, both a blessing and a threat. It just depends on how the wielder swings it. Hold a smartphone without intention or purpose, and it will consume it's consumer.

quittt

Strategic quitting:

Endless scrolling of

Facebook and Youtube. 

They really are like a slot machine.

Just anticipating that the next recommend vedio will be something novel, exciting and dopamine triggering.

But time flies away, tricking bit by bit till precious hours are gone. 

Such a waste, such a... let down

Such a lack of willpower. 

Or is it? Is it the environment? With the phone always so avialable by the side.

"you can do anything, once you stop trying to do everything" 

the price

"the price of anything is the amount of life you exchange for it"- Henry David Thoreau

Jesus and the Holy Spirit

 Jesus cleans out the gunk from the heart,

the Holy Spirit comes in and fills that void so other bad stuff can't come in to fill it back up.

20th.... it's a wednesday

had a nice holiday to New Plymouth for friday saturday sunday and monday...

i didn't work on the thursday before

i didn't work on tuesday and wednesday...

gee...

is this how a break feels like

week 2 tuesday

 so doing the core upgrades alone now.

made so many blunders in telling the armourguard guys what is needed.

i.e coin side cars needing to be open or not.. haha oops.

went to the house to talk.. lots of talk..

sigh, 

studied while exercising is good time made.

cleared up emails.

ah... i need to do my time sheets and expense claims.. zz

overall.. sorta productive day.. better than last week...

without plans and all..

listened to how to have  healthy liver on blinklist...

two protein shakes and a meal at night... keep the liver functioning well throughout the day.

should leave the house earlier.. so.. jam along the way.

got to eat pnsonby's my fried chicken... walk.. and use the Lime scooter.. yea

friday

7.09am wake up. breakfast

blink list: crazy faith. stretch

shower

 8.44am virus scan. 3 threrats found D:/$Recycle.bin.. so dodgy

off to work to pick up Cores and stuff

1.30 cleaned the house

its 3.30pm now.. discovered twitch streamers..

6.00 left early to go dinner at Nandos.. had such a good chat with David, Steph, Esther and Crystal

thought i should have jogged here and taken a shower at the gym

11.36pm.. time to sleep

going coromandel tmr

thursday

 7.30 am wake up to the sound of showers after all my alarm clocks went off earlier on.... 

8am breakfast, she wants bread.

10am.... still at home.. 2 hours

 12.23pm.... at home... sc2

stukov

4.50pm..... tor

zz

time to go cook that fried fish

7.18 finished dinner

i should have gone staging today

wednesday

 7.30am wake up

8.30 had breakfast

pray as you go - be ye wise,

what is truth? - truth is... what Jesus says. what God declares as truth

what is freedom? living in His ways

my understanding is limited,, to reconcile it to the words of Jesus, I have to accept that it will never be perfect until the day I meet Him in heaven

if God were your Father, the you would love me.

Truth and freedom lead to love, the heart of John's gosple

God you've sent me here.

God in you i am free

God, I am not alone.

what do i need to live in Your love?

a sound mind, focus, freedom from the distractions of this world.

self control. a daily routines of good habits.

 9.10am quite time with the Lord. slight numbness in the left side of the face, felt it in the corner of the forehead, going to the left ear and cheeks.

10 push uos, 10 squats, 1 min plank, 10 dips, 30 sit ups, 10 superman, 

9.18am Shri called. Head off to NCR office to collect CE keys.

...

went to the office,

went into a church

came home at about 12.30

game

5pm

zzz

 

decisiveness

so an offer came up.... but i needed to leave the current company hanging when i've already been assigned a job for the next month...

i asked the recruiter if i could have time, so that i can finish some planned work and then move on.

instead of being a jerk and just running off after my contract finishes.

well... i just don't want to step on peoples toes.

i want everyone to be happy

i want to exit gracefully

hence,

my request if i could have the time.

and if needed i'll give my two weeks notice.

but i wonder if the opportunity to get 30nzd/hr will pass..

i'm only getting 25 now... sigh...

growing.. old

 i personally use an acer laptop, not that i have anything agaisnt Dell or Lenovo, I hope this wont affect the outcome of my interview. I've ripped.. uhh.. taken apart servers with 128GB of RAM and dual Xeon cores. I've put laptops and desktops together, swapping out the RAM and HDD for SSDs. I also know about M.2 NVMes and try to stay up to date with the latest tech.

show the courageous part of what strengths you have.

I like the laptops that are serviceable, such as the older and bigger ones, because they are so easy to take apart with a screw driver. not like the modern ones that are so slim and all glued together. Changing screens? i've done it for my friends one.... firends? lol... how about your own? how about in work experience?

the interview was with the technical guy  from unisys. he's job, the purpose of the interview is not about agent/hiring stuff.. it's about gauging your skill capabilities.  

so yeah..

owh.. and happy birthday =P

it was fun having them friends around for dinner

wythe, julissa, jy, angela, kyra, icy

one day before the birthday

 so it's one more day until my 29th birthday.

well not exactly one day.. just 2 and half more hours.

gee..

getting old.

10 am went to meet the NCR guys.

1pm went to the library. hungy...

tried to find books about "growing up"

barking up the wrong tree?

how to adult

sigh.... what am i doing with my life..

seriously...

where my sense of purpose or direction

God...

happy birthday. thank you for bringing me into this world to live and enjoy it.. what should i do with my life?

alignment

Answer accordingly.

What the listener expects to hear.

bla bla.. brain messed up....

 made a blunder.

Met up with Sri and Jim and the Avi and Goundar at McD's Stoddard.
10 minutes early but still later than the rest.

was the given the first opportunity to 'introduce myself'.

didn't think it through and i just blurted out what came first to my mind when ask:
"tell us your background"..

"i studied forestry in malaysia and came to NZ on a working holiday visa........"

"what kind of visa are you on and how long more?"

"an open work visa... for about two more years"

"oh... if this was an interview i wouldn't take you on, because the company invests in the employees for the long term, with trainings and certifications, we don't want to lose workers after a few years...."

geee.... i shouldn't mention too much details, too far into my background. and just say the information that is relevant and what the person listening wants.... owh well... live and learn.

i hope NCR retains me.. haha. contract is coming to an end in March.. hopefully it'll get renewed so i can do the atm stuff and other jobs that are to come.... i like travelling around compared to sitting in an office 9-5

Rotorura: summer holiday home

 So we spend three days and two nights in this amazing house at Rotorura with Wyth, Julissa, Philosh and Phaliant, Sky & YuChi, Amber & Hsiang.

We left home early but not too early on Friday. we even got there 1 hour too early (because check in was 2pm). So we had to go off to do something, i.e. eat BurgerFuel. When we came back to the house, Philosh and Phaliant were there. We had hotpot that night.

The place had so many rooms, a pool table, a hot spa, a trampoline, gas BBQ grill, a bookshelf, two aquariums: one with guppies one with turtles, a bar, disco lights, BT sound system that rocks the house, well-stocked functional kitchen, a bookshelf, card games, fun games, a door to the playground, TV with chromecast, and heaters... it's suuuuper comfy.

the first night yuchi set up here mini projector and we watched "Light the night". a crime series about a Taiwanese night club that serves japanese patrons. the murder of Sue, her best friend rose. and a guy we keep calling Gabriel because of his resemblance to one of their housemates.

went fishing with Wythe on saturday morning too. 5am we left, arrived too early, it was cold and slightly windy. But tide was coming in, full moon, and tonnes of huge fishes that gave a goooood fight. i gave one of the kids a home made weight that Wythe welded himself. we got home about 10am. in time for the McD breakfast with the rest. Julissa was scolding him for not killing the fish iki style and saying the meat was all hard and all. lol. i should get a spike for him one day.

we fired up the BBQ grill and had the fish bones for lunch, with chicken nibbles, sausages and lamb wrapped veggies. they were good. I sat in the hot tub too. for about 20 mins at 3pm ish.

we watched more light the night episodes. tried to go the Luge at 5pm but they were closed.

tried to take a nap but failed.

called my parents to show them around the house

went to the red woods at night about 8.15pm. the line was soooo long. but the lights were beautiful

into the night we had the left overs and prawn noodles. gosh i was so sleepy i hit the sack at about 10pm. woke up to brush my teeth later and saw philosh still up with his albion game set up for a guild war.... 2 hours later.

sunday morning. so sad this was our last day. wyhte didn't go fishing in the early morning as planned previously because the rest just couldn't wake up. oh Rumi is sooooo cute, she keeps jumping on just in the bed at night. we went back to the Luge to find out they dont do the extreme road cause its under maintenance and we also couldn't catch any more fish like the previous day because the wind was soo strong, big waves and tide was going out. that was about 10am ish.

and yeah, we just drove home 3 hours. had thai food for lunch and dropped over to see yuchi and sky to pass them back their icebox.. sadly empty.

thaws a good trip, i wish i could have been more interactive. but my chinese sucks sooo bad.

sigh what am i going to do with my life. birthday is coming up in three days

sleep: getting it right. its important

Come up with a sleep plan.

Build this habit. 

Wake up the same time everyday.

Have a cue exercise? 

Sleep after reading a book. 

Sleep is when the brain gets rid of toxic material: amyloid beta

Find my individualised cicardiam rythm.

The zeitgerbers. Cues, daily meal times, routines after dinner. 

Get the good rest feeling every morning. Dont feel fatigue. 

Do the sleep restriction exercise to find my optimal amount of sleep to get.

I want to wake up at 4am everday. 

5 and a half hours back is 10.30pm.

Sleep 15 minute increments back... 

Okay.. Lets do this

rush

1. Late for the flight check in

2. Left things behind in palmerston north

3. 

anxiety, need a purpose

So i guess, mental health is a... first world problem? Like when people have something to work and look forward to, they have no time to over think things.

Its the idle mind, the extra time, the freedom and restlessness that comes from an affluent life that brings about a downfall

Too much isn't good. 

What is this life for? 

war truth

In a peaceful world, truth is rarely told.

When truth is told, than wars will start.

Attention.

Focus. 

Determination. 

Discipline. 

So hard to come by

creator

This world rewards creators,

At the expense of consumers.

what is right

What is good is not always right.

What is alot is not necessarily good. 

What is right now, might not be later on. 

What is right later on, might not be further on. 

a new visa

Thabk you Jesus,

2 more years. 

The first day. A start of a 'new' chapter. 

Work for NCR is nice.

CompTIA A+

TAB - jim's 300

Pizza

Mount Te Aroha

The Domain, 

Regret - should have gone the mineral spa  pools over watching Greenland

No brining the Surface to study for Lab and TestPrep? 

Got called from Holly form  Learning People

is this the new year, or just another day

so its four days into the new year!

31/12/21

spent the eve of it at Bay of Isle's holiday park with Wythe, Julissa and Ah Peng, Ke Xin.

slept into the new year with fireworks and dancing outside.

went to Cape Reinga all the way in the north. something to check off the NZ travel bucket list!

and visited the Sand Dunes, but didn't rent a body board for 15 bucks, so we couldn't really slide down on our yoga mats or skateboard. hence no real photos of the event. But... it was one heck of a workout to be climbing up the dunes! only could manage 3 runs up, i dont think my legs would have carried me up the fourth time.

2/1/22

Then there was a nice motel. we went to Waipu beach to catch crabs, but there was too much seaweed, so they were all full and didn't want to eat our chicken necks.

made our way to Cove cafe for shower and lunch and headed back

3/1/22

just chilled at home, went shopping for fishing gear

4/1/22

fishing at Omaha. cought a Trevally and Snapper. but all too small. saw a japanese dude sashimi the fish like a professional.

should listen to the wife more. holidays.