Monday, October 20, 2014

The calling

This is really quite a good read.

In our life we pass by so many people who mentor, encourage and guide us. Always being reminded at the right time about the path that we choose to walk. Yet what is it really to belief in God. What's the point of keeping pure and claiming to be a Christian. Is this a label that we strive to achieve by our own means.

The sceptic and disobedient will always be running around in circles. The same cycle. But in Christ, if one were really to give his life as a living sacrifice... That is how we'll break out of the cycle.

What I'm trying to get at is this, there is more to the life that you are currently living now by your own means by your own standards. There is more.

So much more.

You'll know who created the stars

Thursday, October 16, 2014

Missing you

"Hey darling

How was your day?"

You know after watching two movies 'the awkward moment' and wolf of Wall Street.
Gosh I should have listened to my sister not to watch that second movie. Horrible.

Why did the girls have to say 'I don't love you anymore'
And btw, they're married. It's like... Movies are advocating divorce now.

It's NOT okay.

Thursday, October 09, 2014

Lost phone

but not lost identity.

in Christ, even if i was to be put to death, satan shall have no hold over me
yes indeed i couldn't sleep last night, woke up 2 or 3 times.
kept on thinking of the possibilities and senarios and life after that,
what if i found it, what if i didn't
what if its somewhere and .. gosh, my brain.. over processed

but you know what brings peace?
God... his Word to us...

i was just sharing about seeking things for eternity not that which is material.
sigh.. walk the talk? learn the hard way? nah its just my careless foolishness


but yeah, God ..

God is sovereign (He is in control)
God is love (He cares)
God is wise (Everything happens for a reason)

Jesus.. you know where exactly it is.. your omipotence, omipresence, ominscience..


i realized i only seek God when in need.
when i want some thing.

as if... when all is good and comfortable God takes the passenger seat.

 "Do what you need to do to me Lord,
as gold and silver is tested in the crucible,
so you test my heart"

my heart, i could finally feel it last night

this.. is.... a turning point in life

Wednesday, October 01, 2014

love's shortcomings

love is not just looking beyond someone's shortcomings and accepting them as who they are.

love is taking the responsibility of helping the other person change for the better.

yes it isn't going to be easy, its not a breeze, it might get in the way of the current care-free life.

thats commitment

"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love." - 1 John 4:18

i fear, that i am wasting my time.
i fear that after all this it will be in vain.
i fear that what i do will not be reciprocated.
i fear that my efforts...

sigh. GOd in you. i do not fear.

Monday, September 29, 2014

self efficacy

Topic 1. Activity 2.
Self efficacy
Is what people label others with when they see them achieving something amazing. Its a character we use to explain why others get to do such things that look like fun or success, be it climbing a mountain or owning an expensive car. Its a very materialistic worldly point of view, to believe so strongly in oneself. Dangerous too, because if "fail" to achieve the goal we set for ourselves, we tend to think it was our fault for not having enough "faith" and "trust" in ourselves.
I believe that a greater sense of efficacy is when we trust in something transcendent. Something that can never fail us, the source of our strength doesn't come from withing, for it will eventually run out if it does. It comes from without, from a source that will never run dry.

Stop trusting in mankind so much, we are not the center of the universe. know what the greater plan for your life is. There is a will for each and every individual. You will know it, just as He did. Live to love others.

If one thinks he can only run a marathon, start a successful business, win competitions by repeating the words "i am a winner" to himself countless times, look in the mirror and see himself as something he is not, walk into enemy territory, purposely set ourselves in difficult situations. seriously?

okay so thats what i wanted to write.. but i cant... or shouldn't.. because marking schemes are dogmatic

"It is to believe in oneself when the odds are stacked against him. It is usually a term used when the goal is hard to achieve. The person has to persevere and try hard to overcome the problems and obstacles in front of him. From all the examples, the pictures show things that are downright impossible for a normal person in the right mind to do. Like stunts on a motorbike, climbing an icy glacial, a cat walking in front of a row of dogs. The person has to have a lot of bravery, or is just very dull to do. Although i do believe that one can run a marathon despite whatever they physiological state of himself might be in. It is a mind game."

that was the closes i could get before ranting.

Week 2. Video 2.1 Tesco in South Korea.

1. What is the goal of Tesco?

To become the number one stall without fighting the same way as what the other competitors were doing.

2. What ideas did Tesco propose?  

To go against the flow, instead of people coming to them they bring the stall to the people. They also incorporate new up to date technology like smartphones and bar code scanning.

3. What was important to ensure that the ideas were feasible? 

The idea was possible and easy to do as it was a convenient thing that everyone had access to. People walk pass the subway, so they put their banners where there's high traffic. People commute and wait for public transports, so they have that extra time to virtually shop. Most people already have smartphones, so they do not nee to purchase a special device just to participate in this.

4. What benefits did Tesco enjoy after imposing the creative ideas?

Increase in sales, membership and revenue. Most importantly, they helped improve the lives of shoppers.

Monday, September 22, 2014

deeper- Ed. Chan cpt 3

so picked up a few lines:

a theology that cannot stand the onslaught of anguish is worthless.

we live in an age of unmitigated anthropocentric narcissism. facebook.
malcolm muggeridge: "what will finally destroy us is not communism of fascism, but man acting like God"

"beware of placing the emphasis on what prayer cost us: it cost God everything to make it possible for us to pray." - oswald chambers

that which informs the mind must also inspire the heart
-thelogical content vs contemplation

pathetic- to see God as irrelevant to life except when we are in trouble.

lebih indah dari pelangi

ku bukan melilih Tuhan tetapi Ia yang memilih ku.
Being precedes doing.

i didn't choose to come to Ums as my first choice in forestry.
God chose me to come here. and there is a purpose.
least i forget my objective.

Chirst be the center and lead me.

you know the song, indah Yesus ku Indah?
it has these lines: lebih indah dari pelangi, bintang di langit dan bunga di taman...

i study forestry. do you know how beautiful flowers are?
and to think, if i came from a kampung, heck.. from the city.. the rainbow is one of the most beautiful things i've ever beheld with my eyes.... and gosh, have you seen the stars in the night sky without light pollution? its freaking.. beautiful..

and for a Chirstian to sing.. "my God is more beautiful than all these"

God are you more beautiful than all i have in my life?
the achievements, the past, the freindships, the love, the money, the things i own, the time i have..
God... you are.. the most beautiful

Thursday, September 18, 2014

Is Gender a qualitative or quantitative

value... (if not the title would just have been terribly grammatically wrong, as if my spelling was any better)
so at our first biometric tutorial we had to figure out which statements were nominal, ordinal, interval, ratio scales. then we had to figure if statements were qualitative or quantitative

there was one which went like this

"Gender of student* in a conference"
Answer: ???

so there's a big difference on
"How many Genders of students in a conference?"


"How many boy and girl students in a conference"

the first would be qualitative if you ask me,
the second two quantitative,

why so?
lets take an example using colored pens. blue and red.
there are 100 blue pens and 30 red pens.

if i ask:
"Color of pens in a box"
the answer would be: blue and red. qualitative (cause, colors are the best example of quality, even if they can now be counted quantitatively through scales and numerals of hue, gamma and contrast)

"Number of colors of pens in the box"
answer: 2 colors. blue and red. quantitative

"Number of blue and red pens in the box"
answer: 100 blue pens and 30 red pens.

so.. see the similarity?
if i were to ask.
gender of students, you cant answer me with a numerical value. its just gonna be male or female. not even in percentage. if i ask how many genders, then you can add in the word "two". but no more explanation than that. only if i asked how many male and female students are there, then it would be a certified genuine quantitative question/statement,

its like. menilai dan mengira.
to define a student if he was a boy or girl, one has to discern. which is a qualitative choice.
you cannot "count" a student if he is a boy or girl. cause.. there ain't such thing as 60% boy and 40% girl.

its like, jim and alee are saying that this statement is qualitative,
i) gender of students saying it is qualitative
ii) what is the gender saying this statement is qualitative
iii) how many students in the gender (male) are saying this statement is qualitative.

if it was nominal like,

1 + 2 = 3.
there is no three.
although nominal can be a quantitative scale. yet....
you cannot calculate gender

same goes with brands.
"brands of hand phones bought by consumers"
it is a qualitative statement if you ask me.
yes some might say you can count how many samsung phones are bought by people, how many sony phones, and how many nokia phones. but see the question is not

"how many hand phones in certain brands bought by consumers"
"hand phone brand's bought by consumers"

a consumer cannot "buy" the brand.
he buys a phone made by the brand.

you dont buy 60%.. err.. 0.00001% of samsung everytime your purchase a phone.

you cant calculate the brand of phones bought
you only can calculate the number of phones of certain brands bought.

If I buy one sumsung phone. And Another guy buys one more sumsung phone.
There are two sumsung phones. Yes they can be counted.

But we didn't buy the brands. We both have cumulatively sumsung phones.
There is still only one brand, sumsung. It is an entity that cannot be valued numerically.

well the one we won was
"type of car driven by students in ums"
answer: qualitative
why? because there is no proper definition for the amount of cars out there. yes one can try to classify them into SUVs, 4X4, sedan, racers, hatchbacks, muscle, etc.. but the sheer amount of variety there is just makes it.. un-quantifiable. hence, why we do not classify cars into Toyota's, Honda's or Mercs.

on a side note, remember how we used to say "more water" as in, "there is more water in this bucket than the other" because, theoretically, without a standard scale we wouldn't be able to know what liters or paints are.. it would just be "alot of water" and "a little water". something like "big" and "small" .. who ever gave the right to anyone to define what is "big" and "how big must something be to be considered big" (something like the "how much good is good enough)

but because the general population agrees that 1 cubic meter or water equals to 1 liter. so thus... the fluid has become, quantifiable by weighing, err.. wait no.. but.. measuring in a cylinder.

so it should be "how many more liters of water is there in this bucket than the other"
like.. how many people are in a room. how much more people are there in this room than the next.

worse, how much hues is this chili red differing from that magenta. or is it supposed to be 'many'. i'm confused.

much= uncountable
many= countable

heck. everything can and should be quantifiable.
even thoughts. science wants to do that. science wants to put a value and number to everything around us. even.. thoughts.

back then in the past, our emotions, feelings, imaginations were qualitative.
but now which academicians doing research and surveys into everything they can lay their hands on.. statistics appear everywhere.

they say numbers dont lie. they are facts that speak the truth.
but ... they can be manipulated. and they can be honestly miscalculated.

so, what say you?
* i take it as an honest mistake, it should be, and we all know. it is a typo for "students"