Monday, November 17, 2014

a text book of academics in english

there are things where we can find balance as an individual
and there are things that can only be balanced when there are two or more people

imagine trying to write your university assignments in the foreign language you took.
that is what is like to be trying to express your views in something now your mother tongue.

i struggle with learning new languages. and by God's grace, i grew up speaking.. mainly.. only english. well.. bahasa kicks in once in a while, but rarely.. apart from that, i'm practically a mute if i were to convey whats in my mind.

(okay, so i shouldn't blame God that i'm too lazy to learn chinese)

anyways, going back to the point.
they say that education is the key to break the cycle of poverty.
i wonder how many of my course mates that i sit alongside in my classroom are actually interested at all in being there. its as if, they dont really care about the degree...

i'm torn
should i just not bother about everyone else around me, and just focus on myself as an individual, study hard, get good grades, work, get money, buy a big house and a nice car.... maybe have a lovely happy family

what about others around me. should i ever care. if they aren't wiling to help themselves, then why should i?

well thats not true, i'm pretty sure that there are some people who care very much about their studies, its just that they struggle with it. language

but they've been given 9 years to study for it in primary and highschool.. shouldn't we already be on the same level of grasping it? how different a level in proficientcy and command of the language get

you cant even spell proficiency right, anyways... well it really depends who your teach was in highschool. you were blessed. coming from a town. good teachers. who actually spoke english well.

yeah my room mates laugh and chuckle when they say just two or three lines... erm.. words of english. it... amuses me to see they're jovial smiles. yet it pains my heart. to wonder if they can be helped.

didn't you ever have that dream: to just go into a kampung and sit down by the wooden stairs. and the children will rush to gather around you... sitting down, staring up in awe... as you pass down what you have.

"Silver or gold I do not have, but what I do have I give you. In the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, walk." - peter to the lame beggar

sim and naruto

something about
the sims game that teaches kids about adultery
and... owning the best of everything in this world.

and people still complain about the younger generation being too materialistic

they should go read Naruto 668.
and find out what it is to have an Attitude like Guy-sensei

haha.. okay that last part was totally random,
anyways... glad Naruto ended. very nice how it puts things from the past being reincarnated in the next generation. something that many other religions have built its self on.

when you meet someone who is oddly similar to another person you've met before in your past,
as if that doppelganger was ... a clone
of play the specific role and character of another friend you had in that old circle of friends.

something about, personalities being cyclic

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

In news


A greedy politician in the government will cause the destruction of a nations future.

Buying votes by bribing its citizens. A false image if wealth


Finally some one on their own side of the fence has spoken out against his own people. Well not finally lah, he's been at it for some time now.

Don't just follow the bureaucracy blindly. Don't be a mute stone following the kicking tradition and laws set by men.


What doesn't concern God,
Doesn't concern me

Saturday, November 08, 2014

Humans question believes

"This is how humans are: we question all our beliefs, except for the ones we really believe, and those we never think to question". - Speaker of the Dead talking to Human the piggie.

Friday, November 07, 2014

Pickup trucks

I love sitting at the back of pickup trucks. Feeling the cool breeze across face

Thursday, November 06, 2014

I am bankrupt

What does it mean to be that? Totally devoid of funds? Unable to work my lecturer says..  In dept... Someone else says...

Well it made me think about love and grace.

Am I bankrupt and devoid of love and grace? No. But I would be apart from Christ.. The one true unending source of it.

Yes people might be able yo provide it... But not all the time, not in all circumstances, not in all co conditions..

Richness ( not in terms of money) is given in the fullness of it all.. Found by the one who brought everything into being. The Creator.

And because He is my Father.. Just like how our earthly father provides for us, so I know He will provide for me

Tuesday, November 04, 2014

God demands sacrifice

Why do gods in all religions desire.. Or demand a sacrifice to be made to them. Be it abaddon from the wicker man.

But they all demand blood to be spilled and things to die...

Our God however... Paid the price himself... Died and shed his blood on the cross.. And rose again on the third day.

No other God resurrected like that, others reincarnate or get reborn.. Not Jesus

He is a living god. One whose not defeated by death nor bound to the grave

Hence, as a living God... He demands a living sacrifice...

He calls us to give our all to him... As a sacrifice for following Him. It pleases Him. Carry your cross daily... Keep focus on Christ. Eyes fixed on that which matters.

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

Mucus Charging Sweating Tehory

okay so nope its not a single thing, its three

Mucus Theory
- When one has a soar throat and there is constantly phlegm (hard to spell!) being made, thne one wants to spit it out as much as he can right? (no i'm not gonna ask you to swallow it).

- what i think is this, after spitting out the yellow-greenish phlegm, prevent yourself from spitting in 1 or 2 hours. Why? because the theory is this, that phlegm contains anti-bacterial properties and kills the germs. if you spit it out too often, then the germs dont die and the mucus is always white/transparent.

-its like.. dont waste your body making goo. keep it inside you longer for a better result in healing...

Charging Theory
on phones and other devices. since now they have 500mA and 2.1Amps. or the general 1Amp.. all devices plug into microUSB which is conviniet. however, i believe that the slower you charge the phone's batteries the longer they will last (not just long term, but the moment you unplug it). why so? i duno. but i find that if i charge my moto G with a 2.1Amp output.. it dies faster than when i use a slower 750mAmp

Sweating Theory
active boys who exercise regularly sweat more easily than people who live sedentary lifestyles. its like.. if you usually go running, the momment your body start doing walking movements, it triggers the sweat glands to go crazy and start preparing for a workout. or well atlesat thats what your body is condition to think your doing to do.

and people who sit all day long at home, can walk miles without breaking a sweat, because: one, either thier pores are stuck/mulfuntioning due to the lack of use of it... or two, they sweat galnds just dont anticipate the owner to do sports. which... he isnt going to do.. becaseu he's just walking to the bus...

well this three theories are totally unsound. they have no scitific backing. and they are just written for fun.

our lil field trip

In KKWC, the boarder is shared with a housing area that seems to be put up without much concern of its effects on the mangrove ecosystem nearby. Due to the lack of education and awareness, we actually witness first-hand the young children trespassing into the KKWC boundaries to collect shell fish as a source of food. Even though the management (SWCS) as placed warning signs multiple times, it always goes missing. Same with the metal fences they erect to keep out trespassers. Police reports cannot do anything as they have no legal right to convict the trespassers without a warning sign board nearby as prove of efforts to inform them not to do so.
Our guide was greatly distressed as she called out loudly multiple times to ask them to go away but all she was answered with was a rude and arrogant remark. The young village boys just did not bother about her and continued collecting their produce. One of the children even was carrying a parang (machete).
Although personally I don’t think they are causing much harm as they were just 4 little children. The greater destruction comes from big conglomerate companies who barge into wetlands with heavy machinery costing millions of Ringgit. They are the ones who destroy nature’s wetlands in the name of development. Those who support the development of shopping malls and concrete buildings are non-other than us locals. However it is the administrative bodies that have to certify and clarify the development plans giving them the green light to go ahead with their destruction.
So rather than blaming the kids for mangrove degradation, the bigger bully to me would be the rich and greedy developers who bribe environmental consultants without integrity. Why do we willingly take “gifts and fruit baskets” which are meant to show sincerity in our joy to work with each other? It is because of the system that we’ve grown up in. Bribery is ingrained into our culture.
Which will go on to the next point of the Anti-Bribery commission not really doing its job, which would lead to a whole other discussion about their ‘contribution’ to wetland degradations.

If I were a conservation officer, the first thing on my mind on how to conserve and protect the remaining wetland areas is this: social forestry. I believe in the community to protect what benefits them. Apart from policies and law enforcement by the government. I believe that the local community around the wet land areas can do much more help. Especially in looking out for illegal loggers or poachers. Yes they may come in once in a while to collect shell fish, but this only rightfully due to them as they reap the harvest for protecting what feeds them.
                The real destroyers are development companies, and the ones that can effectively fight against them are the petitions of the local communities who base their livelihood off the mangrove areas. Take for example the little children we saw in KKWC. They do less harm than and money greedy developer would do at the minimal scale. The children are the ones who are brave and tread through the waters knowing the mangrove area as their home. Developers come in knowing nothing about the species richness and how precious the land they are trotting underfoot.

                Thus if I were an officer, I would get the locals to be involved with conservation efforts by educating them and bringing awareness. I would marco-manage wetlands and leave the micro-managing to the local communities. its not all about writing reports and paperwork, its about knowing how to live and love the forest that brings us life.