misjudge because of bias news

least we misjudge something based on what other people teach us only without knowing learning the truth ourselves. news like to be biased. and subconciously, it does shape the way we tend to think in.. very serious ways. especially if we only recieve things from a small bubble. hence it is important to be open minded to listen to others, what they will say first. but always know when enough is. when listening more can do no more good. it is an evident need to stand your ground, least one becomes... relativistic.

if the speaker has spoken so much as to think that you are convinced aboutthe truth that he holds. you do him no more good than if you halted him and told your side of the standing. thats what constructive communication is.

dont accept everything, yet learn to listen. dont jump to conclusions from assumptions, yet be diligent in making choices based on all that you have built thus far

Houses vs homes

Some have many houses, but few homes.

sacred geometry

so, drawing circles over each other...
and lines... and being a lil obsessed with triangles

stumbbled upon something called kabbalah
its a cult btw. well explained here:

http://www.jesus-is-savior.com/False%20Religions/Kabbalah/kabbalah_exposed.htm


but what makes it interesting is that, people could come up with this by themselves without having to learn about it. how would i know? i used to draw hexagons in high school when playing with the compass set. now i dont use one anymore. but i would sure like to get my hands on it and try again.

its fun for art. but things like merkaba, flower of life, tree of life, seed of life, i really dont think there's a spiritual element to it, even if there was, it wouldn't be one from God.

(some chirstians are crazy about the ratio dimensions of the cross.. really?)

this website sorta explains in brief what people belief in the geometrical shapes: http://www.ka-gold-jewelry.com/

but yeah, take it with a pinch of salt, i dont think its wise to go into if you're not grounded with God's Word.

btw, the golden ratio, i.e. fibonacci's number is pretty cool. especially how elements in nature resemble it, such as snail shells, pine cones and sunflowers.

flower bombs

what is a violent attack or a defensive retaliation?

people say you shouldn't bomb syria, but what is the alternative solution then?
send them.... flowers?

Prepared food

I miss you mom

I miss how you always prepare food for me before I come back home. When I reach home I can just sit down and eat food and then rush off for my next activity.

dilettante

i am dilettante.

i like to jump into things that catch my interest, even if its just a small bit of it.
without having a deep knowledge or commitment to continue in it.

i just want to understand how things works

Morning sun

The sun helps you to wake up.
The sunlight does. Take time to.. "Photo synthesis" absorb in the light.

Into the eyes. And the hormones released will naturally wake up the body. Ofcause, you need to sleep early, preferably as close to as when the sun goes down. I try to sleep at 9 nowadays.

Take deep breaths with your eyes close. I can feel the top of my nose, the forefront of my forehead.. Aching.

God, this body needs to serious renewal.

I really want to get rid of eyebags.

Staying away from coffee as much as possible.

No wifi and slow computers

Problem: If your wifi shows there are signals you can connect to. But always when you try it says connection limited.

Solution: turn off the Bluetooth.

Problem: if your OS is starting up slowly, and you can enter windows, but everything is crazy slow. And reformatting doesn't work.

Solution: it may be the hard disk dying.

Feeling of trees

Take into consideration the feeling of trees. Just because you cannot communicate with them, doesn't mean they are varlase. Maybe they are ramen?

Christians love God, and people.

was reading about sacred geometry, atheist, 4th, 5th dimensions,
planes of existence.. gee.. so many people out there really hate religion.

i do to actually, the tradition that has been fabricated by society,
i wonder why they don't teach children in school, something that the teacher doesn't agree on personally.

like, we tend to tell others and want their approval for the ideas that we believe in to be true,
but no one in the right mid would start sharing something they believe as a lie to a kid, and ask them to think if it was true or false for them selves.

get this right Christians don't condemn atheist to go to hell.
(nor anything else that could have been derived from that, i.e abortion, homosexuality)

rather, i think that our job is just to, point you to God.
in love. and conviction that the Holy Spirit brings, you will know that the judge is.. well.. not man,
but God himself at the end of the day.

free will? well He did say in the Bible that we can do anything we want, just that we would have to be accountable to all that we do. and we ARE stewards of what God has given to us, time, money, the families and situations that we were born in.

so then, i sit take a step back.. and wonder where my choices in life has led me..
am i still listening to the living God? or am i living life in a .. Hellenistic way?

God please speak, here i am

Wild tigers vs puppets

Like the difference of
a Tiger in wild,
And a puppet in the zoo.

So too think about your life,
Are you living it for the original purpose,
Or have you conformed to the world's circus play?

recall, create

i think the mind is split into two types.
one that makes up new ideas, and one that recalls old memories.

 i think now, i just watch so much online stuff.. and wish to learn new things, inputs.
that my brain has ceased to practice remembering new information.

zzz

The country

Was just learning about how countries manage their own areas. And Singapore popped up because.. Well they are small, they have limited resources and have high technology.

If they wanted to increase land mass they could collect a little bit of soil in the middle and slowly pile it up in the middle to make a mound and later on a mountain.

Increasing the circumference would come naturally as erosion pushes things down, and.. Maybe growing mangroves at the side would help reclaim land.

Then I wonder what if you made tunnels in the hill. Or maybe a really huge shopping complex that incorporated everything. From water treatment functions, energy generation, food, all other life supporting services, transport, communications.

With dystopian ideas in mind. I think this could be utopia. That they are so self contained they don't need to rely on others outside the pyramid for anything.

They start building the core, then slowly grow outwards. The different tires for different levels of hierarchy. Not nessesary the capstone would be the management. It needs to be nuclear bomb proof. And have its on energy reactor, which would provided its own fresh water. Pumping air would be a really important factor, people would suffocate, something like the systems in a human body. The brain sends signals, cables send messages. The blood gives oxygen and nutrients, and also takes away waste.
Waste and sewage management should be one of the most efficient, to ensure sanitation and healthy well being. Artificial light should be provided inside for vitamin D. All waste should be recycled, organics into compost, and metal into the smelting furnace.

Yeah. That would be an ideal country. With not just an abstract pyramid but also the physical one.

AVC FTW

today i wanted to burn a .mp4 into a dvd.
was so blur about what a DVD video is and why it's format is Video_ts and blablabla

downloaded so so many programs trying to figure out which one can burn em nicely.
and what in the world is encoding??

at the end of the day, i think the best is: Any Video Converter
its interface is clean and simple and does whatever needs to be done.

and nero is confusing now with so many options.
sigh.

also decided to get back onto the portable apps platform,
as so not to install too many programs on this tiny SSD

Armour of God.

"It isn't true because it works, it works because it is true."

The belt of truth. Gird your loins.

Studded sandels.. Stand firm.

Breastplate - protect your heart, how you feel

Faith. I wonder if we can determine how big it is. Jesus did say to his disciples "you of little faith".

The helmet will protect your thoughts, your doubts.

The sword of the spirit: defend and attack.

No one goes to battle just to defend.

Everywhere you go, carry it.

Architect

God is the architect and the Bible is His blueprints.

Read it and learn how to live life,

i was talking to a friend in the car today,

he shared about how sometimes in life we are too bust trying to help strangers,

until sometimes we forget to help those whom are close to us, who care for us.

he believes in helping those around him whom he can,

more realistic and achievable. He used to live it the other way around.

It brought me insight, am i doing what i want to do, or what i think is cool because others are doing it.

do i really know what i want to do, or how i should live my life, just like my friend has evaluated.

he said to take a gap year, to travel and explore.

Lord, would you build my life as you will it to be

Windows 8 wifi and bluetooth

Why can't windows 8 connect to a network?

I opened the device manager alongside the connection options... And then it blinks.

Figured it was the broadcom chip sharing the load for WiFi and Bluetooth.

Turned off Bluetooth.

Works like a charm.

After all the headache of dealing with IP settings and the stuff... Zzz

Ephesians 6:10

"Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his might power"

Is it possible to not rely on my own strength? ... At all

To put ALL hope in Christ.

Just try to imagine how powerful God is. How mighty... Bringing the real meaning to that word.

Christ the king:

Well.. But it depends on our relationship in God. Be strong in the Lord, not strong in knowledge. Knowledge without power.

None of us are righteous in the sight of God. If Satan wanted to stand against us, who can challenge him? (Without Christ)

V11 taking a stand against the devils schemes.

'We are not fighting to/for victory, we are fight from victory'

Satan works 24/7 to take away from us: our ministry, our gifts. Our family, our testimony.

The first place of spiritual warfare is in the mind.

We are not fighting against flesh and blood. Hence, our enemy is NOT other humans. However, Satan can use people.

by His strength

just did alpha on "prayer"

the stop animation story where the boy was playing in the sandbox really struck a heart cord.

father: Why didn't you use your strength?

son: but i did! i used all of it

father: You didn't ask me to help.

woahh... profoundness... like, before the father even replied, it was guessable for a long time christian. yet it brings so much truth, many christians rely on our own strength to do things (especially carrying out "God's Will") .. rather than realizing that it is from the Father that our strenght comes from.

Matthew 6:6 "But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you."

what struck me was verse 7
"And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words."

have i... become like one of the hypocrites? babbling nonsense, instead of talking to God? sigh..

introverts

i taught i was an extrovert last time, saying things without caring much about how other's felt.
now i begin to assume too much, to take things in a very negative light... like.. the worst possible senario a person could respond to something i said...

sigh..

how do intoverts go thorugh interviews?
isn't it not fair that one has to go through something the is set so much for extroverts?

maybe i'm just cowardly.

Zebra ts-3 400

I first saw it in e-books PJ. Bought the pen version. 3 years ago.

Then I found it so convenient fitting into my small survival box. I just had to get the mechanic version too.

Hence, I looked back for it.. In over 5+ book shops.

Finally found it today in popular imago. Thank God

I'm happy.

Purpose

What can a person want more in life than a purpose to live for.

My body?

 Thank you God for the soul that you've palaces in my body that grants life to all the cells.

You hold all the atoms together, the life support systems, organs... My mind.

You gave them to me, to be used for your glory,

This able body.

What have I done with it?

fruits are good?

today after dinner i decided to cut one of the three oranges left in the fridge since ages ago.
then a taught popped up in my head,

who ever said fruits were good for health?
like, how did i even know i should eat em.. how did humans know in the first place..
well for me, i guess i grew up in a family that ate em regularly.
(yes being a university student i eat much less healthier compared to home sweet home where mom makes sure we get one or two servings a day)

then a fond memory also came back,
i would sit behind the motorcycle... my dad drove me to the pasar malam in SS2,
and he would buy fruits. without fail, each week.

boy that must have been some schedule to stick to, buying fruits for the family once every week.
i wonder if i would become a dad like that some day, i wish i would.

to provide for my family, the kids and wife with health.

(p.s. yes fruits are good for you if you didnt know, think about scurvies that sailors suffered from... and eat yo vegetables too)

Passport

I dreamt that i was flying to thailand,
a ticket that was booked very abruptly.

and i forgot to take my passport to the airport with me.
I seem to do that quite often, living in Malaysia.
just flying from PJ to KK doesnt require one.

sigh.

Do you know me?

It seems like i have gotten off on the wrong foot.
I came here with a purposeful heart, a life set right and in line with God's will.

now i find myself so far away from the path i started on.
I seems like i have prostituted myself to the desires and pleasures of this world.

Living away from family is really something different.
No more parent to watch over me, to cook to bring me to church.

I have strayed so far away.
I want to come back Lord.

I want to come back to you,
to feel your presence and joy in my heart once again.
To be sensitive to your calling, your emotions, your word.

Lord, change me to be more like You each and everyday
i want to know You, and i want You to know me.

Thief

I dreamt that I was taking thumdrives from a computer lab. And also a phone, which kept ringing.

Sigh... So I have really have a thief in me. Why do I keep on thinking of larceny. Opening up computers and ripping out parts... Taking things which aren't mine.

God save me.

why listen to others?

sometimes its better to go ahead and do what you feel like doing.

not because it feels good, but because it is the right thing to do.

missing out the opportunity of a small time frame window can cause consequences that cannot be fixed in the future, unless you have the power to turn back time.

so make sure you know what you are doing in life, dont waste it.

dont waste other people's life.

Ephesians 5:15-17: "Therefore be careful how you walk, not as unwise men but as wise, making the most of your time, because the days are evil. So then do not be foolish, but understand what the will of the Lord is.…"

dont sleep things off,

go water the plants when you have to

especially if it is a hot day.. two hot days in a row

dont rely on others to water the plants for you just because they verbally said they would do it

remind them to do it, or what does trust mean? that you can abdicate responsibility and put the death of others on the hands of others?

no, do not fall into the sin of omission

when you are entrusted with something by someone, carried it out yourself.

because really.... it is your reputation with you are carrying

"He who is faithful in a very little thing is faithful also in much; and he who is unrighteous in a very little thing is unrighteous also in much." - Luke 16:10

dear God, i hope the plants from kinabalu survives.

and it didn't rain =(

sigh

Where are the letters of Timothy?

Where are the letters written by the rest of the apostles? Or Timothy or those who continued after Christ?

Why aren't they also included in the collection of the Bible?

Are we just regurgitating what we've learnt from our forefathers?
Is what we preach and talk about just traditions passed down from one single book?

Imagine if ALL the writings of man are written down. The Bible would just keep growing and growing in size.

The Bible says: if we were to write down all the works of Jesus, it would take up a whole lotta room.

Hence the Bible we have right now is one what has the essentials: the history that leads to the coming of the messiah, and his work, the Good news, the Gospel, the redemption of mankind.

And the rest of it, we are the ones who continue the story.

Christ continues to live on, not just in heaven on His throne, but in our hearts and lives that we daily go about.

Jesus freak

You gotta be crazy for Christ.
Like really, being a Christian is not normal.

Distractions

Why did I even join PM Fssa. I gave to do work once I'm inside it. (Can't just sit around not doing anything). It takes up time from what I really should be focusing on in life.

Sigh, I taught I had time. I taught I could go in to make fssa a better place. I taught I could make a change. I was wrong.

I guess I won't go where God doesn't call me to go then. Because really, its all just distractions.

Fearing God

Reading proverbs. It says so much about "fearing the Lord" and the good things that come out of it, gaining wisdom, avoiding evil, etc

I don't fear God anymore.
I've become desensitise to guilt after dwelling so long in sin.

Lord save me

How we think about the world

"It's not what we know about the world, more importantly... It's how we choose to think about it."

Sometimes the world doesn't really seem like a nice place to be in. But with the Father telling us the purpose of creating it, Chirst giving a good example of living in it and the Spirit guiding us through it...

I'm sure it is possible to have a positive outlook in the sorry state we're in.

For eternity, for His everlasting Kingdom

fruitful

started off the day with God's word,
makes a whole lotta difference in life
was really tired and ... without zeal for the past few.. weeks?

it is nice to exercise, the body feels much more energized.

met two peeps while walking back at night
Lee from Britain
Horun from America

they want to teach at the Global English center in KF.
and couldnt find the way to the house they were renting.

good thing map reading skills come in handy

also met sew when i was fetching din back from frisbee (it was a really fun game) gotta get quicker feet. and finally got my fenix E25 =D well with only three modes it is quite dull, but boy... does it pack a punch. didnt know had to hold the button for 0.5 secs. taught it was broken initially =P

hmm. life. i should get more involved with it.

Ssd

I can't take it anymore. My computer's HD is dying. Time to revive it.

Humans + ecosystem

Humans are an integral part of ecosystems.

We should destroy ourselves by thinking we can survive apart from nature.

Let's protect the sustainability of what keeps us alive.

God's truth, not man's

"In A Social History of Truth (1994), for example, Steven Shapin makes the largely sociological argument that, in 17th-century England, the mode of sociability known as civility became the primary discourse of truth; for a statement to have the potential to be considered true, it had to be expressed according to the rules of civil society."

For me, truth is what God's word says it is. Not what man sets

Problems

"A well-defined problem is half solved"

Jabra play

Got these for rm99 at the digi store. Retail sells for RM 200 plus. They were supposed to only be purchasable with a digi plan upgrade. Owh well :)

Nice thing I like about them is they can plug any headphone in to the receiver. So means at least I still get to choose the drivers.

The first set broke when the staff tried to show me how it works. But the immediately changed it to a brand new set. Love the customer service.

Black gorilla tape

Got myself some duct tape on dope from home-fix. Finally something off my mind :)

Wrong age

We have already gone past the age of enlightenment. Inspired students used to flock with much passion and desire to the University of Edinburgh to apprentice under James Black.

However, just like how we don't study about James Watt in automotive anymore, so too should we move on from studying chemistry that isn't the interest of our age nowadays.

Children get things too easily. The chemicals and concoctions in the lab are memorised forcefully without any curiosity or awe.

And people from the outskirts whim can't even string proper sentences together are also forced to go through the same centralised system for easier, lazier evaluation.

Of cause the people in the cities would do better. If there isn't an alternative form of education available to personally cater to the surroundings and environment of how a child grows up.

A wise man once told me "you can see the quality if life a child will grow up with just by one road: the road from his house, to the hospital he gets born in" .. If it passes by schools and modern infrastructure, the good for him. If I passes by shacks and plantations.....

Never the less.. With the advent of technology, anyone can study whatever they want to trough open source online courses. Anyone can form a personalised education system that fits them.

But curiosity is killed at the early stages where it is most active and also most vulnerable to being snipped at the bud.

Kids growing up nowadays don't need to learn how smartphone come about by studying basic electronic engineering in school/university... It's like.. Learning the building blocks all over again...

The foundations have already been set. Young minds should be focused to build on these foundations.

A child should learn how to develop apps that run off the platforms already available. Hence, code school and data source.

If the future of the country is to be a better place, the formal education needs to be revamped and catered to what the current generation of creative students are most potentially interested in.

Leave the past behind, embrace.. Change

Virtue

In Thomas Hobbes utilarian and consequentialist principal virtue is that which provides "the greatest happiness for the greatest numbers"

I see how it can work, sacrificing the minority for the sake of the majority (or the greater good). It is impossible to please everyone and make all happy least we end up like Romantically Apocalyptic .. Where everyone gets what they want though a Neural Interface. Or a movie "the congress".

However I don't think that giving people what they want all the time is the best thing to do. Long term effects show themselves slowly. So sometimes we have to with hold back from pleasing people all the time, for the sake of a better future.

Doesn't mean because the majority agrees to it, makes it good and acceptable in God's eyes.

Sbc ps amos

"You show me your friends, and I show you your future."

Proverbs 17:17 "a friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity"

Poverty: material, spiritual, relational.

They have nothing, yet I'm jealous of something they have.  They depend in each other, they have community.

Why people have less close friends? Increasing working hours. Technology: people used to hag out outside of their house. But when air conditioning was introduced .. People spend time inside. Smartphone. Create a wall. Explosion of social media.

Does moving forward have to come at expense at losing the past?

We all need a friend whom:
David: Samuel: a friend who makes you better.

"Your problem is that you look at what people look at. But God looks at the heart. "

1 Samuel 16:12 - "this is the one"

Jonathan: A friend whom gives us spiritual strength.
Nathan: A friend whom tells us the truth.

Rest

"The more comfortable we are with mystery in our journey, the more rest we will know along the way" - John Eldredge

statistics

"Statistical worldview: a way of seeing the world that permits understanding in the face of uncertainty, and simplicity in the face of complexity." - Garrett Grolemund

i wonder why people can be bored.

next thing on the list to learn: R

Empath - Only one Way to solve it to have Life, this is the Truth

something about jumping from relationship to relationship

"I've always known it in the back of my head, but I'm only now understanding myself that I am addicted to the beginnings of relationships. In the past few months, following the end of a short but intense relationship, I've really enjoyed being a single lady. At the same time, I've also enjoyed dating. Dating multiple people. But the thing is, once I get to know them comfortably, once the relationship arrives at the point of sex (however long that takes), I'm not as interested. And I think it's because I'm addicted to getting to know people, not knowing them. I'm usually disappointed once I do. So instead of looking for that impossible long-term. yes, I'm allowing myself to have fun with the Maybes.
And I'm having fun. I'm just not sure how long it can last." - an exhibition in Singapore Art Museum

came across it reading a friend's blog. whom elaborated she wanted to try out that lifestyle.




ah, dear heart, are you tempted too?
least you find another hidden desire, polygamy
dont act on it, least you sin
present all to the Father, whom heals us in our fallen nature
transforming and sanctifying us day by day

i only know of one person that can surprise you each and everyday of your life.
on whose love is never ending, never ceasing, and which has been there even before we exsisted.
He is the answer to that searching heart.

"There is none like you,
No one else can touch my heart like You do
I could search for all eternity long
and find, there is non like You"

Q: Can a sinner serve in the worship team?

1 Corinthians 4:2-5
"Now it is required that those who have been given a trust must prove faithful. I care very little if I am judged by you or by any human court; indeed, I do not even judge myself. My conscience is clear, but that does not make me innocent. It is the Lord who judges me. Therefore judge nothing before the appointed time; wait until the Lord comes. He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and will expose the motives of the heart. At that time each will receive their praise from God."

Q: Can a sinner serve in the worship team?
A: Remember that a place in ministry is something entrusted to us, and not achieved by our own efforts

Q: Should we judge other sinners?
A: We often sometimes do, but as a Christian its not so much on US judging THEM. but more of, if someone else judges me then what do i do? as a Christian, we should know that what matters is God's judgement on us. So if the sinner thinks he is being judged by the church (human courts) than he really needs to take a look inside himself and the relationship between him and the Judge.
*btw, we shouldn't even judge ourselves (least we judge wrongly), we should seek God and see what He thinks of us

Q: Just because i think it is right, does it make it right?
A: even if you had passionate, genuine, all-out faith/belief in something that isn't true doesn't make it true. Even if you think you are not doing wrong, doesn't make you innocent.

Q: what is "innocent" in refference to?
A: To the law set by the One who will judge at the end of the day. Remember: He demands obedience, not sacrifice (1 Sam 15:22)

Q: what if i still really wanted to serve without any bad intentions?
A: then as a fellow loving child of God, by all means go ahead, when the Lord comes He will know the motives of your heart in all that you've said and acted out. And to each who listens to Him, they shall receive something only a God of love can do.

Sabbath

If Sabbath is a problem,
It means our relationship with God has a problem too.

Don't follow the west in enlightenment. There are something's we cannot redefine.

We ourselves cannot bless ourselves.

Encouragement

"We need encouragement, but we do not depend on it" - dean chak

complainer

Philippians 2:14: "Do everything without grumbling or arguing,"

yup. this is going to be tagged with rant.
because really... everything?

everything seems to be crumbling around me now,
all that i have built and attained, on sand

only what's left on the rocks shall stand
Philippians 3:10: "Only let us live up to what we have already attained."

what i have attained in Christ,
is what shall last form now onward

judgmental

seriously, i have no idea why this particular word is cropping up so much nowadays.
seems like globalization is taking its tol in "educating" and "empowering" people.. youngesters.. into thinking they can do anything they want, irregardless of what other people feel.

its like, any advice we give seems to be a judgment.
what we share out of love and care is taken as a harsh rebuke and hate message.

its like, people say "dont tell me what do do, unless you're already perfect yourself"
seriously?

opinions are a good thing to share, and if your friend even did care a tiny little bit about you, they would say something! even if it wasn't nice. because love hurts sometimes.. the truth hurts.

and if you cant take being hurt by other peoples "judgmental" words..
don't lash back at the and call them a hypocrite.

instead ask this:
"Thank you for telling me, how can you help me become a better person?"

Because of Christ light in our lives,
we see so much more clearly the changes that we can make in our lives.
a New life, forgetting the past, and striving on for what is ahead.

study hobby

"do not let what you are forced to study,

prevent you from doing your hobby"

Marrying for the sake of it.

What if...

A guy and a girl falls in love.
But they do not decided to commit to each other in marriage before sleeping together.

And in all their joy, pleasure and happiness... They conceive a child unintentionally..

Yes even accidents have their grave consequences.

Should they both get married even though they come from vastly different backgrounds.. Hold different principals and policies in life.. Different source of guidance.. One divinely and the other humanely.

Wouldn't they be better off unmarried. Why does one mistake have to lead to another? Why can't the unhealthy chain just stop...

Marrying the wrong person is one of the greatest mistakes. As some might say. I don't think there is a perfect person anyway. I just think that no h sides of the couple constantly puts effort into making the relationship work. This is life together without God.

In a Christian marriage. God is there. God is the one whom pulls both together. Find God first, find our ministry and calling.. Then lastly find our mate there who has the same view on life, same dreams and goals, same path to walk on.

Less strive. Less effort. Less conflicts. No.. I believe all relationships still need effort on our part, its something like.. Working out our salvation. Just that God does have a special person in mind for us to marry. I believe He had a plan.. To prosper us.. And to give us life abundantly.

Then what? Should the girl carry the baby inside her to full term? Should she abort it.. Should the kid live a bastard life all because the father choose to 'follow god'.. A missionaries child.. A pastor's kid. Those are different stories.

I want to be a dad. To have kids.. At the right time. In the right place. With the right person. But God.. It is so so hard. The temptations of this world. The sin.. The openness to adultery.

I want to stand on being pro-life. I don't know how I could live on knowing I supported pro-choice.. Aborting my very own son. I used to say that academics went everything when I was scoring all A's. I said it to people who were complaining.. no.. Who were sorrowful for what the education system made them feel like... For labeling them as failures...

I uses to say it wasn't everything, until I found myself in their shoes..

And now I say that no one should support abortion.. If I was a married man with kids and a happy family, I can see why.. It would be so easy to say so. But  a teenager.. A whole world crumbles by this event. Life plans take a big detour.. No.. A big completely different path..

I wouldn't.. I think I wouldn't be okay if I killed someone. A murderer.. I'm not sure about the girl.. I wonder if she would think anything about it. That's the fear I have, that I leave a person broken. That I leave and never come back to help. I keep thinking that they won't have it good after me... That she would be incapable of taking care of herself after all this...

Sometimes I'm wrong.. Sometimes I worry.. I have ni peace. I should believe that everyone can handle themselves perfectly fine. That their blood is ni longer on my hands. That the actions they choose to do are theirs alone and whatever burden is to be carried on their shoulders.. Without me willing to help.

I am selfish. I want only the best for me. I hate this part in me as soon as I relaised it. Why did it stay hidden for so long.

Or did it just pop up suddenly. Was I never selfish to begin with. But changing to be more evil the more I strayed away from Christ. No.. I always had this innate sin in me. In my flesh. Because I've never submitted it to death on the cross before.. To Christ to deal with it.

Keep forgetting to carry the cross daily. It's taking its toll on me. Life isn't lighter not holding up the burden of Christ (which he helps us carry) ... Life gets worse without the cross on our shoulders.

We pick up ridiculous things from the world. We marry for the sake of marrying.

criticize me please

i think its good that people offer 'criticism' to help an author review his initial idea and improve it. we all work together =) asking questions can be a positive and constrictive.

Thorns

Navigation test. Didn't prepare.. Didn't walk on the ridge. Didn't have coordinates.. Focused planning in what didn't matter. Went through 3 valleys.

Life. Like the sower scattering seed on the 4 lands. We had to go through so many thorns. Got stung by wasp.. Something that made me run for my life from something dangerous..

God, why don't I run from the temptations that are dangerous to my soul?

I want to be like the fertile land, producing harvest... Not getting choked by the weeds of this world. By the gifts and nicely wrapped presents that require me to lay down my cross to pick them up.

I want to carry the cross

When I look into Your Holiness. All in

"When I look into Your Holiness,
When I gaze into Your loveliness,
When all things that surround,
Become shadows in the light of You.

When I've found the joy of reaching Your heart,
When my will becomes enthralled in Your love,
When all things that surround
Become shadows in the light of You.

I worship You, I worship You,
The reason I live, is to worship You."

Lord, i dont want to see the world in the wrong light that comes from it,
i want you to be bright in my life that even the most lustrous thing on this earth seems dull.

attract my soul to you Lord, and let me realise that all that's around me are just shadows.
let my choices and decisions i make be entwined with Your will and purpose.

You speak, I listen.
You call, I come
You send, I go
You command, I obey.

If i were not to do these things, than why remain a Christian,
I'm either all in, or not in at all.

Lvl 6 in miri library

Fun game. I've reached level 6 as an #Ingress agent.

Feelings.

Are nerves the only way to feel?
Humans search for scientific reasons,
And sometimes forget that there's more to life,
Than just what we know.

oppose what needs to be, not otherwise

This would make for a good inter-religious dialog topic.
Being a malaysian, i dont wish to take on an side that would seem to make anyone look worst than they are nor any better than they should be taught off. I'm all against segregation for one. Living in Sabah, it is truely amazing how integrated and peace multiple faiths and believes can exist harmoniously together. A true model for what i hope my entire country to practice.

Some would say in this:
1. The people protesting, are in the wrong because they are not being tolerant to others and are advocating disunity.
2. The people displaying signs in public are inconsiderate as the people living around the area in that land feel disrespected/challenged.
3. Some dont even bother whats happening and just go on with their lives, now knowing the implications of showing a blind eye to these issues may have on the future.
4. Others, say forget all this and get out of the country.

everyone has their own personal opinion. made based on multiple reasons and they way they were brought up. so it is understandable that making the choice sometimes isn't really a choice as people are brought up in circumstances that 'force' one's thinking towards a particular point of view.

As for me, what is my view.. based on the point of love, which i was brought up in. It is this "we should love one another" and that means listening when someone decides to share their opinion, in any way that is shown.

I always wondered why people would oppose things that are foreign to them? i can imagine if some big black citadel of occult practices was being established in my friendly neighborhood. One that practices satanism, hate, violence and lewd acts. That i would surely (maybe not boldly) oppose. But if it was a community loving building that did social work, helped run recycling events, gotong-royongs, spread a gospel of love, peace and joy to those around.. giving hope for a life eternal in this darkening world. That i would defiantly (maybe not with all my heart) support .Think about it, has what been taught you acceptable make other's actions contrary to yours, unacceptable?


know the reason you opposed things. Don't blindly follow a leader, not the masses.

http://www.themalaysianinsider.com/malaysia/article/locals-protest-outside-church-building-say-cross-challenging-islam

http://www.thestar.com.my/News/Nation/2015/04/19/Protest-agaist-church/

if i was brought up learning that the NAzi symbol linked to massacre of Jews. whenever i see the swastika... my heart dislikes it.

if i was brought up a young german boy thinking my race is the mightiest and my leader is awesome.. i would see others as infidels.

if i knew both sides, then only i could make a choice. attacking me without teaching me only will make me hate you more.

i already hate, because that is the absence of love.

oppose what needs to be opposed, not what sounds trendy to do.

fight against miseducation. it is what causes misunderstandings.

i should, i could

my friend once told me "life is not about should and should nots, do's and don'ts, can and cannot's"

i almost.. i wanted to adopt this into my life..
but then after some pondering, i realized that.. it is

no matter how much i try to make it relative or case-by-case.
somethings in life never change. Christ the rock, a solid foundation on which we built our house on..

is something that a family "should do"... as much as how a child "should not" stick a scissors into an electric socket.

my "life is about should's and do's and can's" .. and i'm fine with it

Cornerstone of Ephesian church is Jesus (not elders)

in relation to the article "church-needs-stop-pandering-trends"
here's something from a messaged with dearly beloved ones

although i agree much with what Relevant writes, yet let us remember that they are also still written by man. One downside is that they dont really put Bible verses in (but of cause we could link verses in our memory to the contents of what they write). anyways that being said, i think all churches are unique in their own sense that each caters to the need of the community around. For example, as the Holy Spirit leads the leaders to start ministering to say... the university students around... of cause they have to run it in a way that is relevant to the younger generation... and as long as the word is preached (the whole counsel, not just parts of it) , there is repentance to God and faith in Jesus, the leader doesn't look for personal profit (important!).. and careful attention is given to the flock (and the elders themselves!) against wolfs like how Paul' last words to the ephesian elders encompasses it : Acts 20:28 - "Pay careful attention to yourselves and to all the flock, in which the Holy Spirit has made you overseers, to care for the church of God, which he obtained with his own blood." at the end of the day, no matter how it is run... those who still choose to leave a church after all this is done ... even Paul said "I am innocent of the blood of all" .. as we cant force someone to stay, its their choice and life anyway. take some time to to ponder on Paul's heavily weighted speech (made light by sharing the yoke with Christ) that starts from verse 17... which is to me the passage that all elders MUST read...
i wonder why sometimes we are so critical of how other people run their churches. didn't Paul write a letter to the Ephesians saying that "Built on the foundation of the apostles and prophets, Christ Jesus himself being the cornerstone, in whom the whole structure, being joined together, grows into a holy temple in the Lord. In him you also are being built together into a dwelling place for God by the Spirit."

powerful words

what if we were just living our on lives by ourselves.
that all we see around us is just an imagination.
that we could actually determine what happens,
just by saying things...

i find that my words... when i type stuff out, come to pass..
especially complains. gosh, help me to complain less and speak words of love more.

to know that all things are possible in Christ.

Proverbs 18:21 The tongue can bring death or life; those who love to talk will reap the consequences.

The Bible doesnt say aything by accident or for fun. whatever is written carries truth. and this is the truth:

 James 3:3-5 "When we put bits into the mouths of horses to make them obey us, we can turn the whole animal.  Or take ships as an example. Although they are so large and are driven by strong winds, they are steered by a very small rudder wherever the pilot wants to go.  Likewise, the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark."

that is how powerful our words are

blank pages

i dream that i... didnt finish the last two questions of an exam.
and left them blank. because there was just not enough time... i took my own sweet time doing the questions in front. and when we were passing up the homework i took a glance to my right and saw the person sitting beside me had manage to fill up all the paper with written words.

lesson learnt: study!

then the second dream was quite creepy.
it was continuous over a few days. cant really remember what it was about now,
but it was something to do with.. the world ending. haha and how various super heroes were called to save it, time travelling and stuff. just in between the end of the line and the event that was occurring. i know there was a lesson to be learnt, just that .. i cant remember =P ha

so much from being warned about the future in a dream if i cant remember it

anyways an interesting thing about the second dream was that "i  was thinking about something before i slept and i think i just went stright into sleep sill thinking about that thing which later on became a dream" .... like.. skipping all the phases and going straight to REM from being awake.. is that even possible... to be thinking something so much that.. the body is asleep but the mind is still awake?

drones

why would anybody want to built something that has the same limitations of a human.
making a robot that walks requires so much effort, balancing the body weight on ankles is something biological bones, muscles, tendons and ligaments do awesomely compared to steel and plastics.

flying however, is a whole different thing altogether.

drones are the future of man.

the fly for one thing, they can access places man cant,
they're small, they're cheap, and having 4-8 rotors/blades make them much easier to make compared to legs. almost anyone can fly them and the uses are unlimited.

its so light, its much cheaper to get something (i.e camera, supplies, sensors) up in the sky compared to a helicopter that might be 2000 bucks per hour.. fuel and pilot included.

they can bring lidar, infrared, HD cameras... heck even weapons up into the air.

aerial combat .. against loggers, poachers and wildfires.

i remember when watching the movie "tree idiots" and there was a dude in MIT who committed suicide for his drone project being turned down. wow... india was doing the in thing even before it was cool.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XdlmoLAbbiQ

failing fast

failing fast = learning fast
move on, dont keep making the same mistakes.
learn abandonment.
live a minimalist life style.
we dont need to hold on to so man things,
just the few things that matter.

learn to let go,
freed by Christ to do His work.

save a soul save a life

"There is no point saving a person's physical life, if his soul remains dead"

with all that is going on in the world, global warming, wars..
or to come, epidemics, natural disasters...

protecting the forest, or building a house..
what is really worth doing?

will it all last for eternity?
isn't everything that we do under the sun just a chasing of the wind...

technology.. the future is gonna be an interesting place,
for now, just tell me what i need to do in this present age

To be or not to be

Its not just about following.
Its about becoming like Him.

"Be holy, for I am holy" -1peter1:16

Restored.
To be more like the original
To go through what he did
To Carey out His will.

"Thy will be done"
There is hope

take me as i am

We abandon the most important journey of our lives when we abandon desire, We leave our hearts by the side of the road and head off in the direction of fitting in, getting by, being productive, what have you. Whatever we might gain-money, position, the approval of others, or just absence of the discontent itself-it's not worth it. "what good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul?" (Matt. 16:26)

- excerpt from Desire, Chpt 1: Our heart's deepest secret. John Eldredge.

Ah Dear God,
How fa i've come, away from you. how far i've been traveeling without You by my side. How wrong was i to think that i could live this life my way. TO do the things that pleases me instead of You. To be alone and independent from the divine source of life itself.

i've tried. life suddenly seems so meaningless in all this pleasure and achievements.
Dear God, please captivate my heart once again. IN your grace and mercies, let me keep what i have obtained, yet be given wholly to You. the Sacrifice to be made seems to great a burden to bear by myself.

Yes i know it all in my head, to abandon and leave behind, to have it all. Like Abraham and Issac. You let him keep his son, cause you are faithful to your promise.

THat i dont have to ber the burden by myself, cause its with you i share the yoke with.

Gahh... why God why.. why has life gotten so busy, so messy. so fragmented. did i try to do too many things. did i ask for too much? more than i could have handled?

GOd... i need you. i Need you.. i belong to You.

Lent

You came riding on a donkey.
You did not desire the glory of the world.
Your humility puts me to shame...
My King.
Yet it is because of your choice
Your works, your grace..

That I can enter into your Kingdom.
An everlasting one

Loved

I love because I am loved.

The future

One port Usb-c
Outernet
Terraced battries

Gosh.. How is humanity going to keep up with the advancement?

Caterpillars

Caterpillars look disgusting,
And they destroy leaves too,
But one they they'll be butterflies,
Beautiful and pollinating you.

Conversations with a crush

Have you ever gotten tired of replying the message of the one you love? Maybe its just a crush..maybe its flirting..

Gosh those messages and conversations could just go on and on

Into the late nights. Into days of no end that makes months feel just like weeks.

That's how a relationship is build,
That's how we get to know one another
And desires of each other's hearts.

If only I could love you like how I love her.

Wifi

"WiFi disconnects us when we are together."

Don't bother asking for the WiFi password when going to meet a friend in his house.

Silence. Sacrifice

I came to meet Him,
Yet I desire to look at a performance.

I came to see Him only,
Yet I mingle with others whom I'd see outside.

I came to raise up my hands to Him,
Yet I'm so self conscious.. About the people around me.

I came to rest in Him,
Yet I fall asleep on the pews.

Silence.
I .. Don't feel this "tangible presence",
Its like there is an umbrella that blocks the Rain falling down.

This all suddenly seems so ritualistic,
Passion, energy, zeal, dreams, favour,
All seems super. .. Sigh..

The masses around me,
Speaking in strange tongues that I do not understand... Nor does anyone else...

God, you understand.
You know how I few,
When I don't feel you.

You know .. How dry I feel.
There is no song that can be sung in this desert..

Yet your Word, shall always be a light onto my feet, and a lamp onto my path.

Guide me Lord, when i am blind.

I feel like dying, i know i am..
only you can give me life.
A meaningful one.

You died for me,
Yet I can't seem to surrender to you.

Sacrifice.
Where should I go?

Wait no... Before that...
What do I need to give up...?

Careful

They say "you can never be too careful"

How does one define the minimal line of safety.. To distinguish it from the one end being carefree carelessness from the other being a psycho skeptimist..

Where should on err on the side of safety due to uncertainties... Or take the leap of faith, plunging into the risky depths...

Why should one give up the dream of finding Atlantis just because of the fear of the unknown?

Anyways, as much as we are advice by sages and those of old, I.e. parents how claim to have eaten more salt than their children rice.. Heed their words. But also realise that times are changing. Yes culture and tradition is one thing, the current fashion fad or happening "in-thing" is another...

Would you follow the masses at the expense of your soul? Of give up the desires of the flesh and save it?

Make no mistake what I'm saying here. Man never had salvation in his own hands... Jesus paid the suffering price of loving us. He chose the cross. And so too, the option to follow him is a choice.

Be prepared, in season and out of season. Fear not the future, for Christ is already there.

Instinct

"Love instinctively detects what is needed" - P. Yancy

In Vain

Vanity is creeping in,
Pride is taking over,
Altruism is dying,
Living for others is...

Temporary

Our life here is only temporary,
We're not afflicted nor persecuted,
Don't wait for death to start eternity,
Leave the world bright and salted.

He knows all

Jesus knows what i did.. everything.. what i am currently doing/facing.... what actions and choices i'll make in the future... and yet.. He loves me.

a God who knows everything.. how nice it is to know Him. to be able to converse with Him. makes life.. all the more so much meaningful.

sat down in the park this afternoon. reading "Where is God when it hurts?" .. and there were some flies buzzing around my leg..

i wonder what conditioned the mind to think that a fly landing on my leg is a bad thing. is it really because they are dirty? why cant insects crawl on my feet and i have no problem with it.. or a mosqiutoe bitting me.. or a leech D= .. sucking out bad blood? haha mosquito bites give an itch.

anyways.. an ant stung me just as i had the thought of enjoying the flies buzzing around me..

so much for being one with nature >:(

Sack n towel

Wohoo.. Got a "no fear" sack and a Glert (it was csrrimore last time!!) Micro towel... :D

evolution or creation

evolution...
so.. Neanderthal and monkeys have the same ancestors?
and.. whales... and ... birds.. and worms..
and they have the same ancestor as.. bacteria.. and viruses..

and..

gosh.. who were the ancestors of those ancestors?
as much as we believe that "life" happened by chance...
that DNA came about by random atoms colliding together...

science doesn't disagree with God.
as a matter of fact, it just shows us more of Him.

life is a wonder.
if you ever wonder why u are alive..
seek out the reason why you were created.
than life will be worth living.

no matter how advance man can get,
we will never be able to repeat what God did,
that is to give life.


we cannot remove death.
we cannot run away from it.
it is inevitable.

hmm.. AI on the other hand.. =P

Haven and hell

If haven is to know you. It is to love and be loved in a relationship.

Then hell must be to be separated. To be isolate, unable to feel your presence.

Loneliness is hell.

food and cloths

not eating food means no more life,

no cloths and you'll still survive,

what is it for your heart wants to strive,

the pain lets you know you are alive.

Humility

Is when we gave the right to say or do something. But we choose not to.

Instead of taking the credit we give glory to God from whom all good things come.

Do not let your left hand know what your right is doing.

Footwear

Got myself some hiking boots and slippers.

Dakota Wp by hi-tect for Rm120 (original price at 479) and teva mush ii for RM 30.

Well.. Technically dad got them from me :D imma happy boy

walking round the park

I like how we walk around the field at night, not saying a word to each other and then say:

"That was a nice conversation to have"

i'll read your mind one day and you too mine, we'll know each other's thoughts and desires as if it was our own, but until that day comes, lets keep having verbal dialogues

Escape to Brinchang

okay better type it all out before it gets lost somewhere in my head.

this camping trip was, sorta a success?

we planed one day before it =P what to eat, who to bring what gear, etc..
it was a a two day one night camp at the radio tower on the peak of Brinchang, Cameron Highlands,

no water supply up there, not really any place to pitch a tent.

so when we were driving up there we hit a pothole and the front left tire punctured,
Sam's new axia car.. owh boy...

we hiked up to the peak it.. gosh.. my brain... i cant really know how to write stuff anymore.

it was cold, freaking cold. down feather jackets do wonders.
the mist, cleared up and we had a nice view of the stars. so nice how justin and hoong ern could talk about the pleiades star cluster and torus ect.. they even knew which was venus.. crazy..

jusin and sam shared photography in common, both Canon users.. so funny how Sam said "We could be friends" after knowing which brand Justin uses.. haha

i really want to get myself one of those hennessy hammocks .. they really do wonders, all wrapped up in the snake skin is a dual layer sleeping base, mosquito netting and flysheet..

we could start up any fire there.. no wood.
and we had to redo the "Modern" dome tent like 3 times... learnt the saying

"Fast is slow, slow is smooth, smooth is fast" from sam. cool.. next time i should do things properly all the way from the start instead of trying to rush things through.

carried 4 X 1.5L bottles up btw! =D along with the tent.. and extra junk. gosh... thank you God that my knees didn't pop or give way..

Flipper flip flops do the trick too.

also brought up an inflatable pillow, i think it was some thing nice to use. "Manasalu" brand.. some cheap china rip off i guess. i didn't sleep on it.

because of the mist at night we also played making stupid zombie videos..
man... this is what happens when there are spot lights.

the stars were sooo beautiful!

we also played monopoly deal in the tent after dinner of pasta and mushroom soup chicken. gosh, so much so so so much to eat. also celebrated Sam's birthday up there with a swiss roll that looked like panda.

i forgot where i placed my socks in the car, so i didnt bring it up, but the green sleeping bag did save my life lah..

we camped so near the radio tower.. we had.. full signal..

anways, woke up in the middle of the night to take a piss, gosh.. so cold..
the mist came back.. i prayed that it wouldn't rain..

the sunrise the next day was.. something nice to look at... climbed up the watch tower.. so... freaking cold because of wind chill i was shivering..

we packed up, hammocks go down so fast. the modern tent took longer, cleared up the area... finally dont have to carry down so much water anymore..

took the road down, 11KM walk back to the car..

i have no pictures from GPS maps as i rarely used the garmine =( gosh, i dont really know how to use it..

the trip back down.. we... talked .. just like how friends would =)

friends stick together. learnt alot from this camp... cant remember much.. but yeah. want to experience more things in life, but so little time. want to write down more taught but .. lazy

Replacement blades

Are wrapped in "vapour phase inhibitor" paper....

Japanese...

Zephaniah, bird songs and Panda the bunny

why doesn't the church preach from the book of Zephaniah? .. its all gloom?
ppl in church dont want to hear things that aren't encouraging.. sigh..

so what if the bird shits on my car windscreen...
at least i get to hear them sing when i sit in my garden

have you ever had a butterfly land on your shoulder?
that is the weirdest feeling... i always taught animals were scared of humans..

apparently not, Panda (yew kong's bunny) actually runs to you once it likes you..
it just to run away at first when it was scared.

the righteousness of God is revealed

Romans 1:17 For in the gospel the righteousness of God is revealed - a righteousness that is by faith from first to last, just as it is written: "The righteous will live by faith."

this verse follows just after the well known Rom 1:16. being not ashamed, it being the power, the one that brings salvation, to everyone...

"the righteousness of God is revealed"..

"righteousness... revealed"

if anyone were to ask me:
Hey.. show me God's holiness.. where can i find that He is good?
i'd know where to point to

Our God is not a mystery, He is not hidden...
He can be found, only if one will just look .. into the gospel.
the one that reveals Him..

it isn't an "It reveals him", as if the gospel were a book, or writings or .. a thing..
the gospel, as a very matter of fact.. is Christ, a person

~For in Christ is the power, which i am not ashamed off. He reveals God~

faith? owh... now thats another story..

i hear a whistle in the wind

haha reminds me of a time i wrote a letter to an official hoping to remain anonymous...
it contained inside information of an event i so happened to be able to witness..

the next day, i was called out of class abruptly,
to face the person i spoke about...

i was punished with him, we ran 3 rounds around the field..

from that day on, i gave up trying to tell tale on my own comrades to higher ups,
i'd rather gain the favor of my peers and cause an uprising against the 'adults' that govern us..

with their ridiculous laws and whims
dividing us.. deceiving us.. restricting us

i refuse to be a dog to them

http://www.themalaysianinsider.com/malaysia/article/found-guilty-indelible-ink-whistleblower-says-see-you-in-allahs-court

Beach over Survey

Man.. i had the weirdest.. most relevant nightmare.

it goes something like this,
i agreed to go on a trip to the beach (tanjung Aru) with some friends, ex-scouts.
as i was there i had to deal with a problem of fitting 6 people into two rooms at a price of RM53 each with a budget of RM106. (yes i remember the amount... silly). the hing was that some people didn't want to sleep with others while others wanted to sleep with others... ?

the next thing i knew is that we were staying over night,
and that i had my Survey Paper final tomorrow at 9am in the morning.
i slept, woke up, couldn't even have the chance to take a hot shower, as everyone was pack ad ready to go, leaving me scrambling to get my stuff.

we were in the bus back now, and we reached taman Megah (my old primary school) for a gathering of friends. met some familiar faces, talked.. put on a smile... but all the while at the back of my mind was "crap i'm late for my  Survey paper, i'm so screwed" ... the i prayed.. ernestly, God please turn back the time.

then i noticed a good friend who came along with us to the beach, he drove... and i ask him for a lift back to the place where my exam was.. it was already around 11.30am. i thought i could still go in, answer a few questions, not get marked for being absent... screw the calculations just focus on the theories..

as we walked out, i realize that i was so close to the examination place, which was taman SEA (my old secondary school) . so i told my friend i'll reach there faster if i ran. and he said okay. as i was going, i stopped by my house which was in the middle. owh btw, it was so hard to run in black loafer shoes compared to sports runners. so i wanted to change, then i saw a motorcycle out there, my bros.. but it was blue in colour (i've never had a blue motorbike) .. then i asked my mom inside the house where yi kor was, and she said ?? .. i saw the key stuck to the ignition on the bike.. just one key without any key chain.. so i decided to ride it to school, thinking that if i ran it would be quite a distance actually...

as i was trying to put my sweaty shirt on, which i took off before i entered the house ... the buttons were not fully undone, and it was so hard to put on like a t-shirt...

and in that moment of struggling.. i woke up.

which ends my dream, it was still dark.. thank God i haven't missed my exam.. which starts in... around 3 more hours.

so my thinks in my life linked to this dream.

sigh... but at the bottom line,
do i give up my academic future,
for just a temporary fling/pleasure the night before at the beach?

Was reading a Time magazine Dec 15 issue.. "Data is addictive. So you make the first taste free. Mark Z. Wants to put the whole world online. Through an app. Get local telcos to offer basic service for free.. indefinitely. Connectivity... Internet dot org. FB z..e..r..o. Techno-colonialism.. Psychologically empower on as if you are on par with the rest of the world. Free? Were paying with attention and personal information not cash."

Bo Jio

Bo jio?

Hmmm... If a person knows about an event and still chooses not to go because he wasn't apparently personally invited by anybody in particular to attend it...

Doesn't mean Bo jio... It just means.. Zzzz

Bo jio is when a person knows nothing of an event, where he should be invited, because of his closely kit group of friends, and only found out about it after the event happened.. And then says it as a brother joke to the rest to laugh off.

If people misuse it ... As a reason not to take initiative to ASK to join something... It would lead to a solitary .. Sad life... Grow some b@lls ...

Peace out.

2015

Snap shot taken from Time. Dec 29/ jan 5 issue.

What if you knew.. That the end was coming. What would you do with your life right now? With the time that you have left.

Everything is permissible, not everything is beneficial. Store up your treasures in heaven. Live for eternity. It starts now.

"Deserts will become flourishing forest,
Tropical greens brown dry sands.
Live as if you days were in its last,
For only a house built on rock stands."

inevitable, machines that learn. lets embody them

i unsubscribed from cnet.. although interested, but i dont want to watch videos on what the latest phone model will be anymore..

instead
watched this.. cause it was TED.. and about technology.. still

Deep Learning

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t4kyRyKyOpo

which went to 

Quantum computing's theory

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T2DXrs0OpHU

which... already exist?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CMdHDHEuOUE

my current play list

Erik Brynjolfsson: The key to growth? Race with the machines TED

11:57 More 

  The Internet is on fire | Mikko Hypponen | TEDxBrussels TEDx Talks

19:17 More 

  Deep Learning: Intelligence from Big Data vlabvideos

1:24:17 More 

  TED Talks - What FACEBOOK And GOOGLE Are Hiding From The World - The Filter Bubble

sigh... welcome inevitable creation