goodbye my love

this morning i woke up at 9 plus.
it was a good sleep. i dreamt that i was running away with you
and we got caught because i wanted to wash my sandels.

haha. owh that reminds me i need to go and glue my sandals, they are coming out.
okay so i just put the rubber glue instead of the superglue. Astart brang not bad.
its 10.12pm now

we went to eat seng yi, love the kolo mee big and asing.
it was so much it became my brunch.

got the notice that leads came in for supa hands.
went over to school and started it.
POI religious sites. haha so intresting to work in a culture of different people.
careful not to step on the toes of anyone.

missed lunch, not really lah, i was still quite full.

then tried my hands at learning two new skills
call center and lead something.
i had to find the work email for some CEO of a swis venture capital lol.
and linkedin.. signed up fro something called RocketReach...
was abit weary of giving my phone number for them to send a verification message.
now they have my email (from FB log in) AND phone number! they could do so many things!

 after that it was about 4.30pm already
went over to jims car to fix the lock and door.
so happy that the green plastic bit helt with the UHU red gel.
and zip tied the white plastic bit
and wrapped the metal coil around it.. ah... i see how the metal coil keeps the bar towards the plastic bit

put back the door

then.. the rear left tire is flat.
had to fix that too.

while cleaning up the boot...
mira, nisa and kila came
mira helped change the tyre ..haha

then went home with iggy about.. close to 6?

chilled around, had dinner. they cooked ma la
 ate until... cant remeber what time..
wasn't too late.. about 8pm?

went downstaris to shop for car stuff..
bought a light..
wanted to buy a basin to put stuff (its so useful! when i was using kila's axia, when kok onn and i went to visit the fish market we could put it inside), radiator coolant, a strap to tie up all the loose water bottles, wiper fluid, battrey water.. haha so many things actually...

walked around for about an hour until 9pm.. then went over to popular to brows the megazines and books. mmhmm investopedia talks about auto-investing bots... i wonder how trusted they can be.

 then theres the self improvement section.
so many things on japanese stuff now. ikigai, kaizen, shinroku.. etc
and a korean thing also, something about looking into another person's eyes to see what they are feeling lol.

i miss looking into peoples eyes

you called me this afternoon when i was in the car fixing the door.
it was one of the most.. calming conversations i've ever had with you in a long time.

i felt.. liberated

thank you.

day 2 of my devotion
Test my thoughts
"The thoughts you keep in a loop determine the direction of your life" - Steven Furtick
Phillipians 4:8 think about the things that are true, nobel, excellent and worthy of praise

Q: Are the true?
A: some yes some no
- focus on that which are authentic, real and lines up with God's Word

Q: Nobel?
A: we are children of God, in highest ranks. our thoughts should be royal and regal. Not in an arrogant way, but not allowing ourselves to think in a repulsive manner

Q: Right?
A: is really what i think to be right, always the right thing? what if others have a different view of it
- accuracy and appropriateness to guide us

Q: Pure?
A: sometimes.. haha i still do think of girls sometimes
- ethical, good, upright, honest things

Q: Lovely?
A: yeah, its nice to be able to be lovely to everyone... i.. dont want to fear being lovely to people
- to see the beautiful part in life

Q: Admirable?
A: hmm, is reading manga, playing computer games, watching youtube videos... nah those aren't admirable... FIxing things/ reading books/ helping others?
- credible and distinguised, allow us to live commendabely

Q: Excellent?
A: harr.... no not currently in my masters. but definately in my supa hands work! haha. i try to do my best

Q: Worthy of praise?
A: hmmm....
- thoughts about God, His ways, His plans, His creation.

"WHen our thoughts are on Him, that's a good thing"

Reflect
philippians 4:8 in three different versions:

NIV
Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything is excellent or praiseworthy - think about such things

NKJV
Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lvoely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy - meditate on these things

i like the word meditate, to constantly spend a period of time thinking about these .. good things

MSG
Summing it all up, friends, I'd say you'll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things that are true, noble, reputable,authentic, compelling, gracious- the best, not the worse; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse. put into practicewhat you learned from me, what you heard and saw and realized. Do that, and God, who makes everything work together, will work you into his most excellent harmonies

there it is again: meditate. i would like the be in harmony...

my .. darling. i believe you'll have  a wonderful life in New Zeland.
we can start living out lives when we release each other.

i pray that you'll.... live life to the fullest. as will i back here in Sabah

thanks for all the memories