the same God

Who created the corona virus? Where did it come from? 

Some say from chinese eating bats at a wildlife market. 

Aome say it was made in a lab. 

Either in china or USA. 

I'd say... God knows exactly what it is

And it is by Him that its exsistance is sustained. 

Same as mine. 

Gee

spot check

A girl cant check her boys phone nowadays and find nothing wrong.

If nothing is found, it means he has another phone. 

Lol

hope

I secretly hope...

That this corona virus never ends... 

:/

more introverts now adays

Introverts

I foresee more peoplw claiming to be that

Nowadays... 

Its not like I'm saying anything misjudgingly...

I believe there are two sides of the coin in personalities when it comes to this, extroverts and introverts. But unlike a coin thats clearly 50-50, this isnt so black and white. With plent of grey and a whole spectrum in between. 

Anyways, you dont read that many people are self proclaiming to be extroverts do ya? No right. But introverts, yes. Especially on social media and the net. 

I remember my form 6 chem teacher's daughter qalista to be extreamly introverted in real life, but a whole different person online. 

So yeah... 

Hmm.. 

I think more and more people will become introverts. Not by nature but because of how the internet nurtures us to become so. 

We're in our own bubble. 

And aything ww dont loke is outside of it. 

We find talking to people... 

Tiring. 

Why? Because inside us... We're dry. 

We dont have the source of life, 

That overflows like a cup overflowing. 

Into the lives of others. 

Extroverts get energy when they talk to others? Nah... They get tired too. 

Everyone gets tired,

Just like the women at the well whom's thirsty...

Yes she can drink water to quench physical thirst. But spiritual thirst? Ah

 Thats a whole other thing. 

Extroverts... 

Introverts... 

Need

 The life waters

money and religion

some put their trust in money, finances.
others put build their whole life on chasing some other personal thing they think is of value..

of utmost value.

the word controls people,
by money...
or by religion.

lords control their samurais by a code called bushido
the samurai thinks he's doing is lord and people good.

by sacrificing so much.

by is it all worth the sacrifice?
what if the master we serve isn't all that deserving of our service?

who is the one we want to subject ourselves to?
if it isn't the King of a Kingdom that will never come to and end
then it is only temporary. even if it's building up the castle for our own selves.

brainwashed.
waiting for the end to come
that 'glorious' end.

being willing to forsake the desires and pleasure of this world in the current day.
why

is money evil? no

it is just a tool, which can be used for good or bad.
why are some so sad, when they dont get to earn as much as others?

when they can instead look and see how much they can help and give to others with what they have.

but some people know how powerful money is
and use it to control others, instead of bless them

evil, is in the intention
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religion,
once it becomes law
and follwed just for the sake of it
that's where it derails

God saves us,
not by anything we can do
but it doesn't mean we stay the same
living out our life the same as before making Jesus our Lord
something inside us changes,
we start wanting to follow His will
we work out of faith with fear and trembling
we dont stay the same

accept the gift of salvation as it is,
a gift.
but when the Gift is received,
it doesn't leave us unchanged.
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universalism and relativism
i grew up in an armenian culture,
Christ died for us on the cross
it is up to us to choose  to accept Christ or not.
it is the gift of God, free will
to choose Him or not.

but now in my latter years
i think back and see,
if God already knew what was going to happen in the future,
doesn't it mean that we already knows if we would choose Him or otherwise?
Hence, isn't what we're going to do already predestined in a sort of sense.

predestination, to be save,
one day,
to be seated with Him in heaven.

but that doesn't give me the excuse to be lazy,
while here on earth.
no that doesn't mean what heaven is.

heaven is here, on earth,
when we pray the Lord's prayer.
Let it be, as it is in heaven.

here, right here
right now.

don't wait for the future,
make it now.

make the choice to be alive in Chirst,
right here,
right now.

love others,
forgive
don't bear grudges,
let of of anger,
let go of the chance to say "i'm right"
"i told you so"

thy will, forgive us as we forgive others

How does one balance between being

Selfless and meet, humility and authority? 

Thw first shall be last, 

And the last first. 

Christ. He bore it all on Himself. 

So that we need not to. 

In dealing with hard colleagues. 

Take the less traveled road. 

Yes seniors many always be asking juniors to do things. Thats normal. They want to assert control, dominance. 

And most of the time its because they are told to so things by the supervisor/manager. 

None of us are perfect

We all make mistakes. 

Some can be corrected, 

Some cant. 

Humility, 

Staying silent when youre in the right to speak and claim something. 

Out of loving kindess for the other party. 

Least they be blind and not see that the submission is not one of inferiority but superiority to give in. 

Like a dad playing like he lost when his child is wrestling with him.

Yes we could wrestle back and win, 

But where is the love in that? 

Only if the other is trying their best, 

And it matches with our own. 

The senior bears the mistake of the junior, 

Because their duty is to check on them. 

This responsibilty breeds a kind of... Distrust and enmity. Hence why the bigger bullies the smaller into submission. 

But... What if the smaller is actually the bigger. 

When did we see you Lord... 

God... Teach me to be more like you... 

Notnselfnsacrificial for ones own sake snd glory and fame... 

But.... 

Because the Father Wills it to be.... 

Thy will be done

Easter 2020

God of light,

God of darkness. 

God of the good times, 

God of the bad.

God of the mountain tops, 

God of the valley low. 

He is God, 

God of all. 

God in life, 

God in death.

You dont just want to be in the rooms of my heart and mind thats clean, neat and tidy. 

You want us to open, 

Up the door that we'd never dare show anyone... The darkest rooms, the one we're most ashamed off, the one we've hidden from everyone else, even our own selves. 

God... Why would you want me to invite You into that? 

Where I'm angry and frustrated,

irritated and short tempered.

Hatred and twisted, 

Tormented and suffering. 

A torn, 

A pain, 

An ache, 

A nuisance. 

God,

You made everything. 

The good the bad, 

The beautiful the ugly. 

A good God, 

Did you make evil too? 

God, the God of goodness, 

Surely You're not a god of hate, 

A God of jealousy,

A God of pain and suffering. 

When you made things, 

The esrth the sky the seas, 

Us. 

You made em good, 

But because You know all, 

You foresaw the fall. 

You knew what whats made perfect in Your image, would not stay that way. 

We would one day turn and deny, 

Disobey and run away. 

Yet... Yet You still chose to go one and make us.... 

Knowing in this world there would be suffering awaiting. 

Not just for us. 

But Yourself. 

You knew what You'd have to do. 

To redeem what You would did. 

Would did. 

The confirmation of doing something in the future in reference to the past. 

Time and space, 

Do not contain You. 

Morals dont, 

Nor do human minds. 

God of goodness. 

God whom is holy. 

Yes, 

You're not evil. 

You're not unholy. 

But yet you still chose to be there. 

For our sake. 

You bore the most evilest punishment, 

Betrayal, 

Mocking, 

Flogging, 

Spitting, 

Jeering, 

Accused, 

Stripped, 

Crowned... 

Nailed. 

Hung. 

Bled, 

Died. 

When to hades. 

You were there, 

In hell. 

With Satan. 

You were there beside him. 

Yet not on his side, 

But still remaining holy, 

You faught for us. 

You faught to bring back to order what You intended since the beggining. 

You faught for You, 

For Your glory.

For Your fame. 

Is it wrong that God should be praised? 

No, He is the only one worthy of praise. 

There is nothing else in this earth worthy. 

No riches, 

No power. 

No fame, 

No flame. 

God. 

You are. 

Who You are.

The good and the bad. 

They both belong to You. 

I acknowledge that, 

And I submit to You.

Remove from me, 

All my sins. 

The thoughts that twist me, 

That make me greedy and prideful. 

Only You can remove. 

Only You can restore, 

Only You. 

Becuase You made us, 

You once made us good.

But we turned away and disobeyed.

But our own free choice and will. 

And you paid the price to make us good again, once again.

God.

Only You are good. 

Only You can make me do good. 

I am not good. 

I cant be good on my own terms. 

Even if i tired. 

I will never be good. 

Not even just good enough, 

But just even good.

Therr is no goodness, 

Aside from God. 

I can do nothing, 

Aside from You.

Bad. 

God of, 

God of the bad. 

Not a bad God. 

But a God of, 

Everything. 

Including what would seemingly be to me,

the bad things. 

"all good things come from God, all bad things from the devil" 

Aren't You the God of all, 

The good and the bad. 

Sovereign. 

God, You are... 

Death

You died on the cross. 

To claim it. 

Death where is your sting. 

Death,

The God of death.

Death belongs to You. 

And You alone. 

You get to choose, 

Who dies and who lives. 

The wicked or the righteous, 

The rich or the poor. 

No one can escape it. 

No one can escape You, 

Everyone will have to stand before You, 

Everyone will be judge. 

Why not start to know the Judge now.

God.

The judge. 

God, 

Death. 

Life. 

God of Death, 

God of Life. 

Death isn't necessarily the worse thing. 

We finally get to meet our Creator. 

But there are more things wrose than death. 

That can happen in this life here on earth. 

Death. 

Life. 

Life, live. 

To the fullest. 

Heaven, is not a place. 

It is... A relationship. 

This is eternal life, 

To know Jesus and the One whom sent Him. 

And to obey, who wouldnt want to obey, especially when He's got our best intrest in mind for our veryvoen lives. Even better than what we could think or dream off.

Seek God, 

Obey. 

Follow His percepts and commandements

His covenant, 

A new one, 

Not made by following rules or regulations. 

But a new covenant made,

By His blood. 

Be known by God. 

To be know by Him. 

Wow

God, to know God. 

And to be known by Him. 

God... Happy Easter. 

Its like... Your birthday again. 

Coming back to life, 

Just as a baby is given life. 

Born again, 

Out of a tomb. 

Happy Easter day Jesus. 

made the wrong choice

My girl came to coco's room during smoco after morning CIP. Thats rare.

It was nice. Bro kinson came over and asked me to go juice room to drink. 

Gg. 

To go or to stay. 

I choose the wrong one...

Out of the feeling that she'll understand, 

And i dont want to let him down. 

Next time,

Priorities.

Choose love

on working on good friday AND Easter

Me: aiaya i didnt kena the public holiday to work, can earn 1.5 pay. 

Dad: its okay la, its juat money. You're not in need of it right.

.... Wow.... 

There's surely more to life than just chasing a higher salary eh....

I want to be like you dad

whose fame

fame, to be known by the most Famous One,
what could possibly be more wonderful than that?
to be known by the most famous person in history.

like all

But like all documentaries, i guess its always good to take in things with a pinch of salt. At the end one person might say something that isn't really reflective of the whole population. Or make generalisations when actually people are unique individuals.

lockdown sily

The lockdown rules reminds me of all the silly restrictions of university, school and kindergarden..

How does limiting four people to the pantry room... Having 2 meters apart form another... Contact dairy for people more than 15 minutes.... Do... Anything..

Why not.. 3 or 5 people, why not 1 or 3 meters or 14 minutes...

All those things dont really make a difference.. But well.. Atleast their trying

I think their focusing on the wrong things... Like.. People should be checked for covid19 instead 

the right thing

If we know something, 

Which should be reported... 

But we dont want to backstab, 

Or there's no anonymous channel.. 

The more responsible thing would be to let the person tell the story for themselves.

Tell then to tell it, 

If not you would tell it. 

Which relationships do you value,

Which relationship is above which. 

What are the backlashs if one point is tsken over the other and vice versa. 

What are the probable futures and outcomes? 

Will you cry, will. Your friensship be destroyed? Will there be.. Trust issues

to be more and more like You

Coming before the King

We'll worship you and sing. 

You are, you are... 

Holy....  Holy

God almighty, 

Grace and mercy, 

Show us more of You

God almighty, 

Love and glory, 

You are all we long for... 

Praise... We'll praise, 

Well sing, Your song..... 

From our hearts we cry out, 

From our lungs we call out,

Lord won't you see us through, 

To be more and more like You...

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1v_P0cUSq23wQUKwldle1rICUZzXlHtC_/view?usp=drivesdk

different way of cooking

You okay ah bro,

Its just different way of cooking mah.. 

Girls.. 

Haha ya man bro, 

I know how you feel

Sometimes my girls like that too, 

But its okay lah, we puy up with them.. 

With patience, 

And love. 

They've had a long day, 

Summore as supervisors they probably got alot of stress and baggage that rhey bring back home. 

They cant let it out on anyone at work,

So sometimes its the ones at home, those closes to them that get the brunt. 

But its not that they want to intentionally hurt us. The only intentional choice we should make is to be there for each other. 

Going through life, long life together.. 

Small things like these creep up, 

But thats parr of the relationship.. 

We bear with each other. 

That's love. 

28th Feb 2020

marks a new season in my life
i'm in NZ now

thanks Chiao Wenn

took a 12 hour flight
SIN-MEL-CHC

immigration, had to clear singapore, then melbourn, then NZ
flight to CHC, nice stewardess, sat beside a fellow malaysian, a chef.
customs, asked about my working holiday visa. so smooth.
declared that my hiking boots were used in the forest, nice lady, just took it in for disinfection
then though the bag scanners. nice =)

Went to the ANZ bank at Ferrymead, thx Michelle

Went to a medical clinic, thx Dr Bernard from Sarawak

Went to a car workshop, thx Mr Daniel from Taiwan
lol crystal they all rage bought transmission fluid.. poured in normal Automatic transmission fluid for a CVT..... it's too slippery. haha. changed the brake pads, they were realllly worn out.

Went to CHC central, food... thanks KeXin and Chiao Wenn
such a pleasent night. from 12pm on 17th in singapore to 11pm on 28th in NZ.. didn't shower
gah.. itchy.. but.. its okay now... thankfully

this place is full of nice people,
now i'm in a homestay.

ah changed my google play location from malaysia to NZ to install the gomoney ANZ banking app,
only can change location once a year.. so i guess this is the place =) haha

the landlady is suuuuuuper friendly.
she keeps on trying to find a adaptor for my laptop =)
thankfully NZ uses the same voltage as malaysia,
i bought a head to swap it out on my plug.
hmm... should i bless the landlady?

ah.. God you're so good. so so good.

thank you for all the prayers and well wishes....
mom, dad, abel, guo jeng, daneil, erin, joshua...
so many more

thank you God,
that i get to be together with her

faith

I believe in You,

And i just want to follow You. 

Faith... Thats the step to take, 

Not about chasing the actions or "good works". Those will come naturally and automatically, a byproduct, a fruit...

Faith is taking what is unseen and bringing it down to the world... 

By faith we take hold.

Cain and abel, 

There is worship that is acceptable to God, and one there is not. Which one are you bringing? 

Type? Lamb-veg

Portion? - the best part.. Just something?

Timing? First born- in the course of time, just suka-suka..

Writer of hebrews: what set it apart : faith. God looked into the hearts of cain and abel... He found faith in one. 

Heart of cain was exposed when God rejected his offering. 

What does it mean to worship by faith? 

Choosing to love and honor God inspite of what we're going through. 

Anyone can worship God when things are good, but it takes something else to worship Him when things aren't going well 

Abel worshiped by faith

Enoch walked by faith

Sense a sense of intimacy, 

Like evening walks... 

A walk isn't a continuous thing, a process... In the same direction, can both walk together if they are going different directions?.. When two come into ab agreement. When God calls something good, its good. When God calls something bad, its bad.

Its never a one off thing. 

"a long obedience in the same direction" 

Any relationship is like that. 

Enoch was noah's great great grandfather. A positive effect on the future generations. 

Noah... ____ by faith. 

Witnessed 

To tell people about something you known its true. God spoke to Noah, and he shared it. He acted upon it. 

It look hundreds of years. 

In a time of no rain, people didn't believe it. It is one thing to be ridicule. If you're a good person in an evil society. You'll feel unsafe. 

No one could say no one witness to us. Cause the ark was in their face.

Does our obedience bear witness to our God? Live in a way that we trust God for our salvation?

Live a life that is mindfull of the word or God,.... mighty in service

the speed of the soul

"My soul just can’t do life at the speed of smartphones." - John Eldredge

ted and ted talks

Ted kaczynski... What a genius.

He must have life good inside prison, a roof over his head and meals, isolation from the world. All the basic needs taken care off, all the unnecessary things done away like taxes and relationships.. Or the need to build relations with strangers... He still keeps in contsct with people, relationships are important... 

He can just focus.

Wow. 

That there is real genius.. Being able to do something so.. Atrocious to society. To help it. 

I wanna read his manifesto. 

Ted.. A hero? 

Ted... Hmm. Ted talks.. Haha. 

I wonder if he's linked to it and pulling strings while still behind bars or something. 

red comemoration Aukey CB-AC1

Finally decided to get the Aukey braided nylon usb3.1 Gen1 to type-C (1.2m) cable. It can quick charge my huawei mate 9. Its thick and no worries of bashing it around. Its going to be my EDC cary cable (wanna leave the original one at home with the charger, as that one does supercharging really well and dont want to spoil it by wesr and tear). This one on the other hand. Imma abuse the heck out of it.

And it is usb3.1 btw, so it transfers data at 5gbs. Even faster than the original cable that only has usb2. 

Because the two wires are different in function and tecnical aspects.. , i justify that it is worth the buy.

Haha, thats just me comforting myself.. For spending.. RM29. RRP was RM89. Aukey's official website sells it for Rm49. So 30 bucks... The digi store in 1B has had it for quite some time... And i keep eying it everytime i pass by the store.. So now... No more.... 

I'm satisfied and happy with my purchase.. 

The last thing i'd buy here in Sabah,

Before flying off back to PJ tonight, 

And then to NZ on 27th!