different way of cooking

You okay ah bro,

Its just different way of cooking mah.. 

Girls.. 

Haha ya man bro, 

I know how you feel

Sometimes my girls like that too, 

But its okay lah, we puy up with them.. 

With patience, 

And love. 

They've had a long day, 

Summore as supervisors they probably got alot of stress and baggage that rhey bring back home. 

They cant let it out on anyone at work,

So sometimes its the ones at home, those closes to them that get the brunt. 

But its not that they want to intentionally hurt us. The only intentional choice we should make is to be there for each other. 

Going through life, long life together.. 

Small things like these creep up, 

But thats parr of the relationship.. 

We bear with each other. 

That's love. 

28th Feb 2020

marks a new season in my life
i'm in NZ now

thanks Chiao Wenn

took a 12 hour flight
SIN-MEL-CHC

immigration, had to clear singapore, then melbourn, then NZ
flight to CHC, nice stewardess, sat beside a fellow malaysian, a chef.
customs, asked about my working holiday visa. so smooth.
declared that my hiking boots were used in the forest, nice lady, just took it in for disinfection
then though the bag scanners. nice =)

Went to the ANZ bank at Ferrymead, thx Michelle

Went to a medical clinic, thx Dr Bernard from Sarawak

Went to a car workshop, thx Mr Daniel from Taiwan
lol crystal they all rage bought transmission fluid.. poured in normal Automatic transmission fluid for a CVT..... it's too slippery. haha. changed the brake pads, they were realllly worn out.

Went to CHC central, food... thanks KeXin and Chiao Wenn
such a pleasent night. from 12pm on 17th in singapore to 11pm on 28th in NZ.. didn't shower
gah.. itchy.. but.. its okay now... thankfully

this place is full of nice people,
now i'm in a homestay.

ah changed my google play location from malaysia to NZ to install the gomoney ANZ banking app,
only can change location once a year.. so i guess this is the place =) haha

the landlady is suuuuuuper friendly.
she keeps on trying to find a adaptor for my laptop =)
thankfully NZ uses the same voltage as malaysia,
i bought a head to swap it out on my plug.
hmm... should i bless the landlady?

ah.. God you're so good. so so good.

thank you for all the prayers and well wishes....
mom, dad, abel, guo jeng, daneil, erin, joshua...
so many more

thank you God,
that i get to be together with her

faith

I believe in You,

And i just want to follow You. 

Faith... Thats the step to take, 

Not about chasing the actions or "good works". Those will come naturally and automatically, a byproduct, a fruit...

Faith is taking what is unseen and bringing it down to the world... 

By faith we take hold.

Cain and abel, 

There is worship that is acceptable to God, and one there is not. Which one are you bringing? 

Type? Lamb-veg

Portion? - the best part.. Just something?

Timing? First born- in the course of time, just suka-suka..

Writer of hebrews: what set it apart : faith. God looked into the hearts of cain and abel... He found faith in one. 

Heart of cain was exposed when God rejected his offering. 

What does it mean to worship by faith? 

Choosing to love and honor God inspite of what we're going through. 

Anyone can worship God when things are good, but it takes something else to worship Him when things aren't going well 

Abel worshiped by faith

Enoch walked by faith

Sense a sense of intimacy, 

Like evening walks... 

A walk isn't a continuous thing, a process... In the same direction, can both walk together if they are going different directions?.. When two come into ab agreement. When God calls something good, its good. When God calls something bad, its bad.

Its never a one off thing. 

"a long obedience in the same direction" 

Any relationship is like that. 

Enoch was noah's great great grandfather. A positive effect on the future generations. 

Noah... ____ by faith. 

Witnessed 

To tell people about something you known its true. God spoke to Noah, and he shared it. He acted upon it. 

It look hundreds of years. 

In a time of no rain, people didn't believe it. It is one thing to be ridicule. If you're a good person in an evil society. You'll feel unsafe. 

No one could say no one witness to us. Cause the ark was in their face.

Does our obedience bear witness to our God? Live in a way that we trust God for our salvation?

Live a life that is mindfull of the word or God,.... mighty in service

the speed of the soul

"My soul just can’t do life at the speed of smartphones." - John Eldredge

ted and ted talks

Ted kaczynski... What a genius.

He must have life good inside prison, a roof over his head and meals, isolation from the world. All the basic needs taken care off, all the unnecessary things done away like taxes and relationships.. Or the need to build relations with strangers... He still keeps in contsct with people, relationships are important... 

He can just focus.

Wow. 

That there is real genius.. Being able to do something so.. Atrocious to society. To help it. 

I wanna read his manifesto. 

Ted.. A hero? 

Ted... Hmm. Ted talks.. Haha. 

I wonder if he's linked to it and pulling strings while still behind bars or something. 

red comemoration Aukey CB-AC1

Finally decided to get the Aukey braided nylon usb3.1 Gen1 to type-C (1.2m) cable. It can quick charge my huawei mate 9. Its thick and no worries of bashing it around. Its going to be my EDC cary cable (wanna leave the original one at home with the charger, as that one does supercharging really well and dont want to spoil it by wesr and tear). This one on the other hand. Imma abuse the heck out of it.

And it is usb3.1 btw, so it transfers data at 5gbs. Even faster than the original cable that only has usb2. 

Because the two wires are different in function and tecnical aspects.. , i justify that it is worth the buy.

Haha, thats just me comforting myself.. For spending.. RM29. RRP was RM89. Aukey's official website sells it for Rm49. So 30 bucks... The digi store in 1B has had it for quite some time... And i keep eying it everytime i pass by the store.. So now... No more.... 

I'm satisfied and happy with my purchase.. 

The last thing i'd buy here in Sabah,

Before flying off back to PJ tonight, 

And then to NZ on 27th!

saving is all His work

The more i read..

The more i realise that..

"saving is all His idea,

And all His work" 

I've tried to save myself before.

Many times, trying to do the "good work". 

It became the goal, not a response/byproduct. 

I cannot save anyone, 

Not the ones i love, 

Nor even myself. 

If i cannot love myself, 

How am i even supposed to love others, 

More so my enemies. 

The only way, 

To Abide in Christ, 

Whats the reason for all this? 

Love

= grace + kindness

It is futile to even think that

"i can do good works"

Its like building back the old barn thats meant to be teared down. 

No one can do good, 

Not even me. 

No one can save, 

Not even me. 

Christ. 

Only in Christ. 

That i may not boast. 

Christ, 

Only Christ. 

Can save, 

And it is His work. 

And it is his goodness. 

That out flows, over flows, displays itself, reflection off, result of, transforms, changes, moulds, mends, automatic response... 

It is His good work, 

And not mine

ps josh power to prosper s2

Ah ps phillip has a cd compilation of PTP.

Fsther wanting to teach the child 

10 sen or 50 sen. You can choose which one to put into the offering bag. 

God loves a cheerful giver. 

I gave the 10 sen, casue keeping 50 eill make me happier

Abundance formula

Earning - tithe - investments = epenses

What is tithes? 

Thr ship wreck people, someonebwill find us. The pastor will find me, i tithe 10k to the church. 

Tithe is a covenantal act that is born out of love. God is the one that has enabled us to make everything.

God is not just a good God, he is a generous giver. John 3 verse 16. Gods love language, for he loved the world so much he gave his only Son. 

FLO

For lovers only. 

If all we want to do is to keep, oyr hesrts become stagnant. It becomes like the dead sea. It becomes toxic. Hoarding, hanging on.

Let our hearts be like the sea of Galile. In flow and out flow. 

Go with the flow.

Four promises of financial covenant

Malachi 3:10-13

I will open the channels between us. 

Windows of heaven. 

"sluice gate" - a dam and river, outlets. 

When God opens the floodgstes, no man can close it. 

A young man wanted to go to the big city and find employment. He took a cannel boat. The captain said to him. Someone will soon be the leading soap maker in NY. You can be that person. But remember the soap is given by God, remember to faithfully tithe to him. 

William Colgate. 10% to 20 to 30 to 50.

All that we have, truely belongs to the Lord. The life, the financial, the family, the people, the factories. 

He knew how to Flo. 

Speak Gods love language. 

I will pour out abundant blessing in Excess

Our God is no man's debtor. 

Financial blessings in excess

"bless" - to kneel or praise. 

Pour out so much that you will not have enough room to store. 

I got it all back, 

And got more than that. 

In salaries increment, in bonuses. 

We can never outgive God. 

Henry parsel Cornwell 

Massive change, people were loosing jobs. 

Ohiao factory, tuberculosis. 

Quaker oats company. 

As their buisness grew, so did their giving. 

I have never gotten ahead of God, 

He always outgives me. 

Over and over. 

When you tithe, i will close the backdoor. 

Prevent the devourer. The pest.

I will protect the blessings you receive. 

It can leak. 

There is no secular sacred divide. 

I want to make God my business partner.

Earth moving machinary. 

Still recession. 26 times in 6 years. 

Antonio. 

Its not how much money i give to God, 

Its how much of God's money i keep for myself - R. G. LeTourneau

I will bring your investments to full term

Time, energy, hiring labour.. 

Skills, company. 

Craft cheddar cheese. 

"the only investments i ever made which have paid constantly increasing dividends is the money i have given to the Lord" - James L. Kraft. 

chaos

https://youtu.be/ovJcsL7vyrk?t=995

"we're not going to throw chaos at students, but maybe we should"

freedom, actions, consequences

1. in life we have the freedom to choose what to believe in. 2. what we believe in normally determines most of our actions in life. 3. our actions all have consequences

dr dolittle

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=K2HIZgzAiyE&feature=youtu.be

I would have tagged you if i could. You loved to play the sims. What a good interior decor partner you would have been.

I just wactch the dr dolittle movie.

Anjmals, you love them.

And the theme of lily inside.. Sigh 

I.. miss...

memory

Everyone can remember well. Its weather we want to train our brains to remmeber things or not. If we keep outsourcing the task of memorising to the smartphone then.. We become dumber

complaints

To believe in Jesus..

Is not to complain. 

But choose to think about love

yes no

'To do' is to 'Not do'. It's okay to say "No" to be able to say "Yes"

justin and jienn's wedding

got called to help out in registration
wore my silver watch but forgot to calibrate the date to the correct one, it showed 16 haha. but the first uncle that came in asked the date "is it the 19?" i was like uhhh...


was supposed to watch the wine, the person came to find me
i didn't take note about which meal was being served,
i took out four boxes straight (after 8 boxes were used up), maybe i should have went slow and do 2 or 3 boxes first. i told them to chill, and pour less. but then, the bartender was like, no worries.. sure can. haha okayyy

i hope he followed his way and not mine. who wants to be stingy on wine on a wedding dinner

was walking to pei about working in church.
her challenge to me: work full time. learn to commit

hmm should i do that. or should i take up part time and work with Chumbaka. I'm still thinking about going to teach the children in sembulan every day from 3-5pm. with off days on maybe friday and saturday?

when i went to another table to talk (the frisbee group)
i forgot to tell pei or eric that i was going over. they seemed busy talking with the people that were beside them. so yeah. maybe there's a rhythm to things

izzudin is working in the enforcement, crime investigation department in SFD now. cools
gabrile is in a vape shop in telupid, earning cash. he stays at the hosues in menggatal just before sepanggar.

azwan is staying in.... her old house... i used to go there so much... every.. night...

krys asked about the paul smith shoes being too big.
"yeah i know right, finally an occasion that i can wear my red formal shirt, to match the red shoes"

"yeah its a lil big in size, but just like life, we learn to grow into the shoes we wear"
"walking around in the start was tricky"

how long should lines or comments be,
when should we start listening to others.

give pauses so that they can interject in

"so emery can join frisbee one day?"
justing tried to bring jienn to play too, she was like owhh.. *hide* *hide*

haha "you can do your other sports"
e: "shopping"

me:....

"haha yeah, lots of cardio, walk more than a marathon"

so many things i wanted to say that night,
but my brain was just too slow to say it.

unlike the other night that we had the dinner,
the lines were just flowing..


let the conversations just flow.
thats nice

awkwarddd...

at the end of the dinner didn't get to say thank you to justin and jienn,
said bye to the parents tough.

and jessica. didn't get to chat much with her.
so creepy i told her to have a good flight, even tough we never talked.
it's because i found out about it form her mom. lol. she has a flight at 5 am tmr.

i asked uncle mike: so whose the wedding coordinator, planner.. event planner?
lol, none, they just do it themselves. aunty E's good at this.

"ah btw the boxes of door gifts and CD's are outside"
"would you like me to put them in the car for you first?"

"so i guess i dont have to go to your house anymore to stay over"

... so many things left unsaid...


weddings...

bleh.. who wants to get married.

so many people brought their plus ones.
some didn't..

some seemed happy.
some...

i dont know..

will i ever have a partner..
someone i can call...

my.. da.. r.. =/

=(

i..

i..

zz

goodnight,
have sweet dreams

10 ideas

Ticked the boxes for some of the points..

How I'd wish we could just stay in love with each other and all the problems will go away. 

https://www.theschooloflife.com/thebookoflife/10-ideas-for-people-afraid-to-exit-a-relationship/

25 Nov 2018

Revelations 16:15
Do you have your clothes on?

Spiritual garments
1. Isiah 61:10 - garments of Salvation, robes of righteousness.

New creation, Old has passed away all become new from the inside out.

The language of the Bible defines us.
The prodigal son. Like a pig. He is a son. Not a slave. There are rights and privileges given to us, because of 'relationship'. We serve Him, with eh right mindside. Because we love Him, He is wonderful, He...

The best robe. The kind worn by Kings. King of Kings. Revelations 1:6 we are Kings and priest. We are Kings.

He tells us how to operate under Him. He directs us.

A garment of praise

Ephesians 4:22
Put off the old man, Old lifestyle
Put on the new man, new creation

When you read the Bible
It changes the way you think about things
And when you think about things
You act upon those things

When you think about something long enough,
You want to do it

Change the way you act
Spending time in the word renewing your mind

Philippians 2:12
Work out your salvation with fear and trembling.

The fact that you have a desire to change, is a fact that God is already working in you.
He wills in you, he enables you. As we yield to the Holy Spirit that is in us.

4. Ephesians 6:10-18
Spiritual armour

5. Luke 24:49
Endued with power from on high
Live the way you ought to live.
It will bring confusion if your lifestyle doesn't not line up with God's power in our lives. 

19 Jan 2019 yby

Private public partnership.
Comit sharing of savings.
Enerygy efficiency goal.

Finance by: bank
Because of the government backing.

Think creatively.
Easier for minister to do it than civil sefvants to execute it. As a subordinate you need to find a way to lobby the leader.

Peace. That burden to be somewhere. Didn't heard God's voice. Try to hear God's leading thorough leaders and pastors.

Conviction not

Is an open door. Things just happen. God open. If you become a ministry or is from God, and of our from God take our with faith and do it excellently. Get yourself busy and be prepared.

Q10. Background. Empatieze. Go see chief minister. Even if it was a private trip. Good thing I change clothes. Sensitive to their needs. Baju luring. Malaysian politician. They want to see you are a part of them. How you dress, will portray. Who you are.

Dressing alone alot edi.

Racist. Framing. How do you frame the discussion. Economic on the race and religion lense. Don't fall into the frame of the enemy. The perspective. I focus on delivery. Noises instead of voice that will bring the country forward.

Q11. Which character. Moses. I thought we won't rezch the promise land. Esther, that position, what we should do. Ezekiel. Different times, different biblical characters in spiritual life.

Science and tech, we don't focus on particular fields. What is strategic for the economy of the country. Tangible. How to commercialise more tech.

Climate change. Its happening. COP24.

Q12. Your so successful. Politics is temporarily. Its just a responsibility. Entrusted. It'll pass. What to improve on, EQ. I'm an impatient person, it's my character. When I'm angry, I eat chocolate. I'm angry at this character. I send my staff to them. Prepare them to see me. Working on Patience. Long meetings, long winded.

I must be a good person. Let the staff do the dirty work xD

Confidence, build or natural? When you know your thing you'll be confident. Public speaking. She couldn't do it back then, two weeks before speaking cant eat. Speak and repeat then you get better. Practice more. Problem with malay, Chinese... And English. So she go kampung speak more.

Hobby. Something you do natrualy. When you're free do will do it wan. YbY is holiday, the beach. Reading, watch TV. 1 two days off, she go beach. Clears the mind, can make better dicisions.

Q13. Regrest or failures.
She can't think off anything her head now.
Didn't spend enough time with her late aunt.
Passed away a non believer.

Make dicisions: will I regret.

Bee Hong.
Brought youth to the parliament. Life change. Feedback. How do we move forward. Not being able to express or advocate what we believe in. Thought to listen to authority, without questioning.

Critises and analyse.

How to ask the correct question and look intelligent.
I just like making jokes. Cheeky person. Depends on my mood. Leaders need to ask questions.

4W. Quite helpful. Ask the process of it. Meticulously in asking. Must do your homework. Processes are the same.

Normal meeting: so this is what we're doing and how and when? When can you come back to me.

What is a good question to ask?

If you don't want to answer, stick to not answering.

Q14. How to balance. Time. Priority.
What is the one thing you do, other things don't matter. Task, urgency and critically.

Urgent: time
Critical: importance.

Q15. Two years 5 years 10 years plan.
A reshuffle. How do you see things down the line. Set it in a way that is not reversible. An ecosystem. It's uncomfortable and inconvient to do. If it's easy to reverse and change.

50 years goal. 28 open day.

ADUN. Counselors. How they get things done. High performing. Engineer. Approve.? He likes to bring down other people.. Shot-stirrer. He is very toxic. Keep on saying want to quit and resign. Gave up on him. This person bring negative spirit to the team, effects me emotionally. He want to feel importance.

I regret not doing it much earlier.
People whom you know you should kot be a part of what you do. You should remove them immediately.

There is no one that is indispensable.

Talk to him. Understand the situation. Curable? People have weaknesses. As a leader help them. If they forever cannot change.. Cut them off.

Cut the tumours off.

22 Mar 2019

Social media does impact our patience,
How things become faster and faster

Patience correlates with how fast technology is

Less patient to the ones we love (graph)

No matter how slow you walk,
You will arrive

17 Feb 2019

3 keys to spiritual success - Gary soon, PPBC

Proverbs 3:7-10

True wisdom, in the Word of God

Nature of knowledge.

Church theme is Ascend

1. Humily

2. Holiness

3. Honor

V7. Do not be wise in your own eyes

A) pride is the first step to a downfall (porv 16:18)

-sometimes we think we are so good at doing something, we forget God is the one that enables us

- self conceited. Don't give attention to instruction and improvement. 

- become hasty in judgments and over confident, doing whatever you want without seeking God. Even in matters of importance, not asking for advice. 

- guard against the fascination of novelty, I.e. The Internet. 

James 1:5 - worse sign: neglecting to ask the council of God. 

:) consider the humility of Jesus (Phil 2:5-7)

2) holiness identifies us as Christians

I) fear the Lord and depart from sin

Romans 11:20 - do not be proud/arrogant but tremble.

Nehemiah 5:15 - out of reverence for God, I did not act like the others did

In all our dealings, make sure because God sees us, we are mot doing anything in private. If we have healthy fear, we will do what is right. 

ii) reverential trust in Him

iii) we recognizer the Holy life of Jesus as our example.

Knowledge of the Holy One is understanding. With the HG, we can understand better. 

When sin comes into play, it is harder to be intimate with God. 

What you say to others makes alot of difference. 

3. Hornoring God in Giving, increases His blessings. 

i) honor the Lord with your wealth. With the firstfruits of all your crops (v9)

-put your money where your mouth is

You cannot give leftovers

-Not how much money I give to God, but how much of God's money do I keep for myself

-The amount is not important, its the heart. Remember the widow with the two coins. 

- even when you don't have enough

- don't steal from God

ii) giving teaches us the joy of living by faith

a) fear says "I am afraid to give" 

b) faith says "I'm so blessed I can't withhold" 

Health: the physical benefits that flow from being right with God

1) we are able to forgive because we have been forgiven

2) we can stop worrying because we have learn to trust God

3) we find real joy because we walk in God's eill

4) new life in Christ kmrpives health in both body and soul

When God calls you, do it

Reputation for good judgement

Pleasure, peace, protection

You are not against God

God's favour is with you

No life is so sinful

That God cannot turn around

Proverbs 3