feldenkrais...

reiki..

contact care....

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well... what i know about the body, is not as much as what is possible i guess.

all i know is that... we gotta feel our body more.. like.. listen to it.. move it. and try to be in tune with that it's trying to say to us.... i dont know why but when i think of "finding our own north star", i think of paying attention to what the body is telling us about

hand me that cup

What does it mean for our old bodies to be swallowed up by life?

Scientifically, When our body dies, we bury/burn it and it returns back to its constituent molecules of carbon, hydrogen, oxygen and all other trace elements. Just like any other vegetable or animal when they die and get decomposed.

But what is it that is different for a Christian's body for our point of view when we die? Jesus didn't die on the cross and have His body buried in the tomb and left to rot... While His spirit floated away and got another new heavenly shining angelic body...

No, by the power of the Holy Spirit, Jesus was raised back to life in the same body that was in thag tomb, wounds in the hand and feet and side and all. But this resurrected body was different from the old. This new body could seemingly teleport and phase through walls (John 20:26-27).

Jesus had achived a higher state of being. A 'new' body. And he offers us this 'new' life too. Do we need to die (physically) before we inherit an eternal body? Or hasn't always the gospel preached the eternal life is this: to know You, the one true God-and Jesus Christ the one He sent to earth (john 17:3).

That was Jesus prayer. That we would come into communion with the God if the universe. To be unseperated from Him. This physical body has the mind, body and spirit; id, ego, superego; insitncts, reality, morality; logical rational, primal intuition,...

Jesus was sent from another place beyond this earth. Sent by another from beyond our realm. We call that place heaven. Jesus was sent here to guide us. To save us. To show us the way, the truth and the light. Onto salvation. Onto the path of being one with esch other just as Jesus was one with God (john17:21-26).

Now hand me that sacrament. The Holy Communion. That bread and wine. In remembrance of Christ. But be weary, we were not instructed to indulge in taking it alone and in an unworthy manner (1 Cor 11:21)

minute 42: textbook

Alright got back my train of thought. Trigfered by the word at that minute.

Textbooks

So... 

Here's the post about it. 

A child doesnt like to be forced to read something that is of no onterest to them. I.e i did badly in Sejarah (history) in highschool. Why? Because i didn't like the subject, or well... The spark was never ignited in me for it (by my educator?)

As an adult.. I love history, (not doing it any justice though)... Not spending my time reading up on it either.

But yeah... 

As long as a child can read words. And can understand, comprehend and formulate the ideas that others have placed into writing... Thats the key skill..

The next is to guide them, but not force them... To read with interest.

See i think the brain only makes good neurons grow and remembers, recalls 'facts' better when our consciousness is attentively interested in a particular topic.

Theres where focus and flow state can be found. (as adults we seek for that state that so naturally comes to kids, mpre on this next time maybe...  Tldr: adults are to preoccupied with other matters, kids dont have a care in the world, especially on household responsibilities)

^ p.s I've put 'facts' in quotation because really.. As a kid everything i read was from 'legitimate' sources, so my brain consumes literally anything without bothering to spend extra energy and effort to filter if it is true or not. It is easily guaged: what doesnt sit well with what i already know in my currently accumulated knowledge database is rubbish and wrong.

What can be grafted onto ths tree of my knowledge is... Good. And expands more or what i know. Maybe certain information at too early a time wont fit anywhere, but will do so later on when there are more branches. However, nowadays with fb and yt short videos... The tonnes of info are just being dumped around without having any anchor to latch onto... Its a mess in my head. 

Ans hence, its not so much the case now whwre right is so easily distinguishable from wrong. I used to be suuuuper absolute in truth, and would be apologetic towards relativism. As im 29 years old now.. Uhh....  I'm more kinder and gentler. 

Not accepting or tolerant, but loving and empathetic. I wanna be like Dr Tan GJ. Wise. 

So anyways.. Yeah. That's that. On textbooks. And my weird random thought that spouted from listening to minute 42.

How we should change education for noy juat children. But people even as they become adults.

(but who would learn accounting then? If no one was ever willing to force themselves to read all those textbooks and sit for CAP exams??... Haha maybe there'll be a portion in our 8 billion population that fill find their place of belonging there)

As confusious said. 'A kingdom prospers when everyone is in place where they belong.' or something like that

evangelical Christian 'testimony'

Lisenting to ben and kami's podcast "everyone belongs" epdisode 1. So relatable. Haha. But aslo thats their point of view.

I think the beanbag and tickling each other part is actually a sign of self control (lol the 9th fruit of the spirit (i almost said 10th fruit)). Something like the marshmellow test for kids, those that didn't eat it showed greater mental resolve.

I think i have a weakened mental capacity, i failed morally.. Many times..

Growing up, life was goood. Grown up, life is kinda... Erm... Sub-prime.

Not the best. But still good.

Having a secial someone and having to adhered to their expectations can be... Uhh.. Draining.

But thats love aint it. 

As a kid , my parents were littt.. They let me cycle out into the mid night and come home at whatever time i wanted to with the house key.

But yeah anyways what I'm getting at is.. 

You'd know when you know. 

Main point: i forgot what i wanted to write. It was gonna be huge... Will get back to it

the right kind of right

Would you rather be right,

Or be kind? 

when you think it matters

"doesn't matter" - jima

purging preconceptions

The secret country of yourself by Jenya T. BEACHY.

Pg14. Write on these places:

Santuary

A holy place. Scantum. Brings to mind the Christian song. "Take me past the outer courts, into the Holy place, past the brazen alter, Lord I want to see Your face... ". Growing up in church we use this word quite a bit. I guess it's used to refer to where God dwells. Where He can be found.

Shadow House

Sounds dark. Like a place where ghost hide. Like a haunted place. The house in Stranger Things season 4. Its gloomy. Theres spider cobwebbs.. Nobody had gone there for a long time. Shadow brings to mind the Swtichfoot lyric "the shadow proves the Sun shines". Shadows are there, no doubt. But we dont pay much attention to them. Because its stuff that we think are negstive, taboo or not nice to show to the public. However, it is there. In us. I've heard of Shadow Work. Of the Dark Night of the Soul. Computer games make use of the "shadow" term in units, skills or characters..

Temple

The church. Where Christians in other traditions call a place of gathering. A religious place for whatever religion people belive in. It has many different names. But often associated sith Buddhist. A place with statues and idols. Smoke from joss sticks. When i was young i would say "I'll never never go into a chinese temple, thats where Satan is". But when i grew up, i realise that it is not what is on the outside, but on the inside of us that either keeps us 'holy' or defiles us. Visiting other people's places of worship 

One of the things dad wanted to do after retirement is water painting. But he never get started.

Thats living the authentic life right there! We always have so many choices in life and things that interest us... But sometimes we have to put aside stuff so we can do other things of more value..

Like playing with the grand kids.. 

Imagine if dad decided to spend all this time just sitting and painting. He might end up like uncle kwen peng! Haha not that theres anything wrong with how a person chooses to live the life with the freedom of choice we've all been blessed with by God.

To every man, their own art. 

crab by the lake side

 there was a hugggge crab at the side of the lake.

and the lake had hugee frogs too

we went for a walk in it.

and came out to wash our feet at a phone booth that had a shower

such a heavy burden upon the shoulders

i dreamt..

i was walking.. with such a heavy backpack...

so heavy that my legs started to give way..

and i could no longer even stand at all