bleh, a saturday

saturday morning
i could have gone for frisbee, the UMS hat. good ol' days
but nope i was at home

woke up as late as i wanted too
is it better to fill one's day with things to do and get exhausted?
or should one have a laid back life and just enjoy the time.. that seems to pass by extra fast

how does one make time slow down?
diley-delaid until 12.30 then went to take a shower
had lunch with crystal, wai yip, zoey and sam at Bunker's cafe
took some pictures for google maps

she asked me if it was okay to wear her pejamas out,
yeah sure it was find, her friend did it too.

its comfortable

came home and decided to hardcore FYP, made some progress,
though i dont really think it's any real progress actually

sigh, this thing is eating away at my mind
dear God is it even possible?

work work work

at 4.30 we went over to zoey's place for a joint cell meeting
Zion cell is really one thing, crazy bunch of peeps
laughed, so much
and had fun, in a long time

today: the past, present and future,
am i really living out what i preach
its a different story
i dont know

i dont know anymore
to be sure of God
ontho-theo-logically
the metaphysics of being

beings and Beings
created and Creator

why, why am i in this point of life?
lost, feel so lost

Fyp

statistics
linear regression
elevational changes
statistics

zz


had lunch at Mdm Wong's near D'Archie corner
good lanb chop
but still, the most worth it has to be the chiken chop
the chiken chop wins all the time

remmeber that

i feel bad for not remembering to do push-ups for my darling
cause its her time of the month

not very caring not thinking of her all the time

i forgot to call my dad, it's his birthday today
he went for bersih
i should call him tmr

messy, so messy

i,, just want to go sleep
and run away from all the problems

anxiety

anxiousness.
dear God.. how can i present it to you
so thath your Peace that trancends all understanding will guard my heart and mind

gah

goodnight

i'm going to sleep
gotta wake up fresh for the Confirmation service tmr,
Ho;y Spirit, fill me. fill us.

to know
to know
to konw you
to be close to You

to be filled by You
to love You, more and more each and every day
 i want to love

and feel loved