just....

"just"

the word added before or after a sentence,
that shifts the focus from 90% of what was said/written to a marginal proportion blowing up.

studying Hubungan Etnik now. i always have so much rants about how malaysia's education system to the majority is so grossly skewed and selective. time and time again they keep repeating that chinese work in bijih timah = rich. indians were in the ladang getah, and malays were "petani dan nelayan SAHAJA". no seriously, whats what they wrote in a book to university students.

i dont know what i'd be thinking if i was from another ethnic group. my chinese friends say HE just tembak the chinese whole way.... and if i would to agree with that and say that too... what difference would i be from the rest of them.

they whole idea is to to get past this obstacle and work together. but obviously, constant dronning and drilling of this ridiculous idea that we are still segregated as it was in the past, some being treated unfairly, is.... just going to keep it the way it is.

i say bullocks to history. well... propagandic history anyway.

if a man were to make the world a better place, he must as well start with himself. like.. the man in the mirror. thats what education should be centered around, improving oneself, and thus it would automatically contribute to society.

just like how we in our sin go to God, and the consequence of that is good works. for faith without actions is dead. not the other way around, where we do good to get good karma/pahala to cover up our sins or balance the scale of justice to be made presentable to God.

it is by grace we have been saved through faith, not by works, so that none can boast.

sigh. boast. just.

"just me having lunch" *snaps a picture* .. of some super awesome meal... while someone out there is dying of hunger.

"just my bro checking out his new bmw" ... yup.. probably just taking it for a test drive. cause if he bought it with his own money, ..mmhmm.. cool.

"just the church doing renovation and installing a 5mil dollar sound system" ... as the brother yuan said, ... i dont think that's what churches need.

the moment we take God out of the church, something else has to take the place on top. and if it isn't pride or power, its money. Balam.

now look here, i'm not saying that rich is bad, that hard working people shouldn't be earning their wedges,.. er.. wages .... that communism equity where the poor lazy people parasitically sucking of the people who strive for excellence is the way to go. no.

i'm just saying that, sometimes we get our priorities wrong.
sometimes we forget what humility is.

like saying "i'm trying to be humble"

seriously? announce the word from the lips and it blows up everything you've been doing. but, its jsut so sososososo hard to keep it in and do-the-behind the scenes good stuff with out announcing it out to the whole wide world. especially since there is facebook in your palm and twitter/insta/whateva technolog-thingamagiky..

the Word says, do not let your left hand know what your right hand did.
how in the zzzz should my brain split into half....

do not even bother to dwell upon the fact i did something good out of my own strength,
when all glory should go to God for the goodness he has allowed me to do,
for the opportunities and the talents He has given.
He has given, and not we have earned. nor did we aquire by eager desire and petition.

the parable of the talents.
gave 5 earned 5
gave 1 earned none.

just me, doing a rant.