back to the elementary

love. grace. i'm losing all of it.
i'm not seeking Jesus anymore as my source,
i'm seeking books about religion, websites about facts,
intellectual conversations, all talk

and no action.

i realize i'm not speaking out of love anymore,
that each word is forced out and carries a tone of stern harshness

and about speaking, why do i even start bringing up the negatives.
yeah its only right for people to talk when there news which is bad
but specifically pointing it out? well, it's avoidable.

people can already clearly see when things are going wrong,
they have the same thought running around in their head,
but just maybe shy or out of respect, choose not to say it.
maybe it was the they were brought up

and i dont think its called living in denial.
i just think its choosing to live above the circumstance.
to see the glint of good in the vast sea of darkness.

well, but some things need to be spoken out.
and those things not everyone can say so easily,
either because of fear of being marginalized by the majority,
the want to stay in comfort, or just clearly being blind and unable to see.

those things require not guts to speak out,
but knowing who we are when we speak out.

knowing our identity.
in Christ, i am first loved.

and thats why i can love.
its not that i'd speak out bluntly to anything because i dont care about other people's feelings.
its just that, we'd should only confront if we love first.

sigh. i should stop talking so much and learn to listen more.
learn, back.... all over again.. elementary stuff