seasons

Andrew at the kart control tower,

The young races can only get to where they are because of the support they recieve from the club..

He goes around the corners knowing what to expect ahead because of the signal lights..

Wittout them, we won't be as good as we are.

The young ones need the guidance of older ones...

It's a different seasons of life

expired DIgi

 so my digi number expired..

its the first number i got when i was in... form 5?

i used it in sooo many places..

it expired.. and i forgot to reload it...

and then it got.. like.. terminated..

thank God i remembered it during the 25 day window..

and Digi was able to reinstate the card..

phewh.....

i kinda knew this was gonnna happen one day..

 cause it has happened to Crystal.. and many others...

just didn't think it would happen to me..

sigh.

owh well..

lesson learn?

thankful?

what to do next to keep a malaysian number active

worship

 "If you don’t want to live a life of worship, why would you want to spend an eternity worshiping Him?"

3 levels of knowledge and talking about it

 1. A person doesn't know something, so doesn't/can't talk about it

2. A person knows something, and talks alot about it
3. A perosn knows something, but chooses not to talk about it

Shiro, the guy enjoying life

 SO i met up with a ex housemate, Shiro.

he asked me to come over to met him, and he was midway in the service of True Jesus church.

came up from Chirstchurch just to run the marathon this sunday.

many this guy is living it..

we talked about sooooo much stuff.

and they have such a friendly bunch of people and community in the church.

it's lovely.

James, Eunice had a baby boy too! Timothy.

just four months older than Noah. but born in Malaysia

gee, the circle of people is.. soooo small.

met a few new people. erm.. can't remember their names exactly

Thedrick

and Jakie? Kiki?

haha..

we talked about religion, what w're currently doing,

the state of the world, 

his adventures...

thinking ahead.. family planning.

God's Timing..

i love the way they pray in tongues and also how they still sing hymms

hymms are nice.

they meet 3-4 times a week

spending the whole day together as a community.

man.

thats..

life.

He's running 3-4 times a week,

rock climbing

cycling

its the NZ life,

balance of work .. and hobbies.

but the tough thing is visa

thank God for our residency

what's next?

Becoming a dad is the biggest thing

 Nothing changes life like having a baby.

Becoming a parent is one of the greatest life altering thing that has ever occurred to me.

From daily schedules to sleepless nights.

one thing i miss most is the freedom and time that we could have to ourselves before.

i could go play sports or hang out with friends.

its much harder to do that now with the responsibility of being a dad with a kid and a husband to a wife

 

 movement is life

book in advance

 so we got the flights to the soth island..

when i searched, i chosed queenstown instead of christchurch..

and boy was it so much more expensive..

almost wanted to cancle the trip

even though i alrady got my holidays approved from work.

sigh..

money money money

September 29

 So much for journaling once ever day.

Woke up this Saturday morning,

fed the baby, he did a big poop after mom went out for her facial.

came home, went for grocery shopping and badminton

gee my back.. and arms..

baby likes to make noises when we read him the bible before bed.

when we talk he talks, when we stop, he stops...

good night little one.

everyone cares about something

Everyone dies.

There's no escaping from it...

So the live the life... Now

The life that you were meant to live. 

Time is our most valuble resource,

Attention is the currency its measured with. 

How do we get more time?

Is by taking care of what we care about. 

wish

Wish we could be back home. Can attend so much stuff... Art exabitions, tapestry, friends weddings, MCCC anniversary...

😔

true colours

We always put on a mask.

Until we gind the one whom we can take it off infront of them.. 

We stay qith that person under one roof. 

And our true self comes out. 

That person loves us. 

And we love that person. 

For who they really are. 

A child of God. 

We all have room for improvement, 

But its all in the right timing. 

played games till my arms hurt and eyes couldnt focus

Thats how bad I was addicted to Ballons TD6..

I really like tower defense games... 

Last time i recall thia happening was in 1 Borneo.. 

Stared at the phone so long.. 

When i looked at a diatant object, 

The lenses in my eyes couldnt focus...

And my arms were bent for so long.. 

They hurt... But i still kept them there.. 

Addictive

Bad.. 

Prune out that which does no matter in life, 

Cut off whatever hinders us... 

In the pursuit of a life that matters. 

What matters?

Relationships do

growth 2

Grow in what matters

Simplified

growth

Grow in the things

that matters 

linkedin about me

So.. So.. Cringy..

Made this before i got the job at NCR

Dumping it here before a new edit

"Young adult with work experience in a myriad of industries. CompTIA A+ certified and currently studying Network+ to equip myself with skills for the tech industry which I am interested to enter. I have useable skills in IT, such as building PCs, soldering wires for sound systems, removing viruses using CMD and basic management of the home network. I am looking for employment in the tech industry and hope to grow my career along this path onwards."

real. risk

REAL... What ia real, what is perceived.

What is the RiSK you're willing to take.. 

After weighing the consequences and incentives.. 

Today's sacifice, tomorrows gain

training

Oh a road trip with the in laws, wife and baby.

First time.. 

Went to rotorua, dipped our feet in the hot springs, ate some stuff, saw the red woods and now back in the room at Grandeur Spa.. They had a spa in the room... 

Ao relaxing, reminded me of the times we had a bath tub in wilsha. 

Anways... Word of the day: training. 

Watched superman: man of steel. 

A word spoke out to me. On training. 

It really is an important thing that we do as humans.. 

Train... 

We get better and grow at things when we train. 

Like.. I really need to train baby Noah to do things.. Eat, sleep.. Probably poop too. 

Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not atray from it - proverbs 22.

I myself need to train.. Train my body through exercise.. Train my memory and focus and attention...

Train my skills.. In linux and coding.. Hah.. Always a dream

.

Train.. 

ba zhan

2 June.. Friday. Its one week since baby Noah was born.. Wife seems to be doing well. Drank some black soup for dinner...

1.55am. Wakes up to feed baby. Feels a weird blob of something ooze out of the uterus.. Its a uterus shaped.. Blot clot..  Ans theres.. A big red patch on the bed.. 

Maybe its normal, feed the baby, burp him, take off his soiled nappy, run warm water to clean, air his balls, sudo cream, change his nappy...

Read up a little, seems like blot clots coming out is.. Normal? 

Go back to sleep...

5am.. Wakes up to feed.. Wife checks the pad. More blod clots.. And constant flow of blood.. This.. Doesnt look good.

Feesing baby, cant even have time to change him, wife says.. We need to go to the hospital..

Wake up the inlaws, ask them to take care of baby.

Drives the van into the tight space of 22A. Walking with the wife, supported by the dad.. She passes out just before entering the car.. Lega go wobbly, hold her up as best as i can. Calls out to dad, shes.. Pengsan.. 

He grabs her legs and i below her arms swings her in to pessanger seat, forgot to buckel her up, dad remonds me.. , slowly back out..

Wife is in dream land..  Later on when she regsined consciousness, Says she was at the beach

I was voice navigating to Auckland Hospital, where she gave birth.. She wakes up.. So thankful to hear hwr voice "Middlemore.... Its nearer...." 

Drives there. 

 Parks outside emergency. 

Gets admitted to Resuscitation 1.

I stood at the side and gave an account of what happened. Good thing wife asked to take her phone. She had photos in it. Doctor from Singapore. Nurses.. All came to check on her. Full ED, wires getting signal for vitals.. IV drips in both arms... Oxytocin, Analgesic, etc.. They clear whatever clots they can find.. Swab.. For infection test..

I stand there. 

 Thinking.. Gosh.. That was really.. Alot of blood lost.. I dont want to loose my wife.. 

Surreal feeling.. Standing in an emergency ward. 

Really professional doctors and nurses.. See them zooming in and out.... Respect. Gratitude.. Doing all they can... 

To keep my wife alive.

Trust in God. Gee. She really picks the best dates for things to happen. A Saturday. 

She stabilisers..she doesnt shiver anymore.. Doctors tell whatever they can.. And go off.

We wait there.. She lies down while i sit beside her.. 

She wants to pee.. 

We ask the nurse.. She gets a comote.. Sits up.. Waits.. Stands up.. Takes of nappy.... Two blood clots plop out... Nurse looks at it.. And says she'll come back.. 

She sits to pee.. Lots of pee... Probably from all the IV.. 

She.. Wants to vomit.. I grab a cup.. Nah.. I need to grab her.. I try to waot for the nurse to come back. But nah.. Every second is one closer to less blood in her brain.. 

I lift her up.. And plot her on the bed.. She instantly feels better... 

We just have to clean her uo and get fresh sheets again.. Maybe hust pee on the nappy next tine.. 

We wait.. And wait.. I go repark my van.. Last time at Auckland Hospital for the birthing, i kept thinking about the 5 minute rule for the drop off.. This time i didnt bother.. 

I

When she was okay. And i was ready, i asked her.. And i went  off to park the car.. Yup.. Thankfully NCR sent me here once to fix the ATMs

Hospitals can be quite a maze, especially if its ones first time.. The allies.. The foot paths.. Rhe parking.. 

We wait.. Get a ward in Gyne room 5. Single. Nice view.. Nurse says get an ambulance next time if bleeding.. 

We go to Maternity, cause she is still within 6 weeks of birth.. 

Midwife sees her.. Needs am Ultrasound scan.. Scheduled for 11, they get it done at 10.30. I drive home with the pumped milk.. And have breakfast.. 

Home.. Ah.. Cute baby.. Sleeping... 

Grab some stuff.. And drive back.. 

Just spend the afternoon and early evening chilling with her on the bed. 

Thamk you Lord, for this second chance of life. Let us cherish every moment.. And do the things in life that matter.. And forgoe all the things that dont. 

Let us use the time you've given to us wisely.. 

Every second is a precious gift. 

Thank you Jesus. 

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