fail

Learn to fail, or fail to learn. 

Failing is a privilege. 

chatGPT poem 1

 i asked chat GPT to write a poem about life

Life is a journey we all must take, A winding road with twists and turns, Full of joy and love, heartache and ache, A lesson in each moment we learn.

From birth to death, we live and grow, Our paths diverge in many ways, But we all share a common goal, To find meaning in our days.

Life is fleeting, it moves so fast, A blur of memories we hold, We try to make each moment last, Before they slip away, untold.

Sometimes the road is rough and steep, And we stumble, fall and cry, But with courage and faith, we keep, Moving forward, never asking why.

Life is a gift, a precious thing, To cherish and hold dear, With every breath, we can sing, And feel the beauty near.

So let us embrace this journey of life, With open hearts and minds, And through the pain and strife, We'll find the treasure that we'll find.

one note stuff up

 so i was trying to organise the sections and pages in one note.

but some how or another i manage to make four sections (GIS, exam scehdule, etc) from the section group (UMS), disappear entirely. ... tried recovering them, but cant seem to find them in the deleted pages.

owh well.... atleast they were not really critical notes.

also my lease plan address has been updated, a little show. but it has been done. three enquiries sent in, i tried calling but no one picks up..

ah let it go let it go

patience... just.. patience

incoherent images

Reach Silver fern motel at 4-5pm

Had dinner till 6..

Went back. Chilled..

Went out to get friits at 9pm..

Came back.. 

Used phone YT videos till... 3am.

Lol. That's like.. 8-9 hours of life wasted. 

"every action we do, is a vote towards whom we want to become" 

Sigh. 

desire

The secret to desire,

Is that what is sought after cannot be granted, 

Atleast not straight away, 

The tension must be built up.. 

plan execute

Prepare for the next day

Execute the plan.

Pack luggage for the trip the day before

Rehearse what to say before the event

Visualise mentally the route. 

too busy. tooo busy

 too late to sign up for Open AI's Dall.E for free.. sigh.. missed it by a month. owh well..

life was just.. too busy

goodbye hashbrown PC

 thank you for your service

a computer made out of scrap parts.. not too bad

i5, 32GB DDR3 ram, had a R9 390.. good enough for mining on nicehash...

got a fair bit out of it.. now a friend needs it.. well.. actually just the power supply..

but i guess the whole thing will do him good...

wish i  could keep some ram..

still have another Mobo with me. not sure if i'll ever build a PC.

tech nowadays is soo far advanced... nvme on the mobo itself,

DDR5.. sigh.. hard to keep up with tech.. if on wants to keep buying.

lapthor's screen is flickering and has a really noisy fan, still can use it with an external monitor.

currenlt using wife's microsoft surface pro4, which she got for cheap for her studies..

i actually kinda like this surface, so protable. just sad that it's missing the pen..

and.. battery is bulging too .. btw.. the smart watch battery popped the surface off.. hah.

these lithium polimers...

thinking of a mac M1, but thats like .. 1600. sigh. money money money.

i can do whatever the same thing is with this PC.. as long as i have access to the internet.

22 April 2023 9.00am

 its only 9 am.

woke up, lazed around the bed on a saturday morning.

read so much...

started with the Bible on Jesus beatitudes, He really liked going off y Himself into the wilderness to spend time with the Father. Blessed are those who are poor... i guess its a calling that we should..

save up fr now, and enjoy the fruits of our labour later?

then read a page from 50 spiritual classics. on Black Elk.

then Earth is Hiring by Peta, about breathing, ayahusca, vibes, circulating energy, play and such,,

then DK downloaded books... on REligion, Money (personal Finance)..

much of Finanacial literacy I've thankfully read about in the past few years since coming to NZ. i think it sort of started when i started earning my first real pay check...

golden rules: spend less than what is earned.

pay yourself first, into the savings account

pay of debs (thankfully i have none because i dont even have a credit card o begin with)

going to get an AMex from work soon tough.

but one thing that as sharply risen is the ouse rental.

we were at 160 per week, jumping up to 540 now. but we've got our own place. two rooms, a nice kitchen and bathroom for our self. no need t share with other housemates.

ah the joys of having one's own place. however.. it comes at a cost...

earnings about enough to cover... 4k per month. about 2200 is for rent. almost half . gosh.

how will it be possible to save 33% for personal savings now..

i wonder why money was such a taboo topic.

like.. we're so.. scared to tell others how much we earn or spend.. like its such a personal mater..

is it for the fear that what others will percieve us?

sigh...

owh well...

i'm also looking into using one note as PKM (personal Knowledge management) tool...

gotta start loging down my thoughts digitally, not just on the blog. or notepad.

well thats done for the morning. its rianing now, cant go for a job.. maybe just do some yoga and weights at home. haven't eaten breakfast either yet. but feeling quite alive..

feeling alive. ah yes that is what life is for..right God?

in a few weeks time, about 5m ore weeks... we're gonna bing another life into this world.

wonder how mch life will change with a new born baby.

9.16am.

21 april 2023

 what a day, friday. so nice to sleep..'

so tired. just waking up... driving about

bought a 300+ mm wrench from No1. tools at Onehunga

yeah, no more regrets not getting the Ron Enright's Bancho reversible wrench..

never knew if i could have tightened the nut and bolt on the 6684...

leave it for another day..

now the SR on hand is CD's Mt roskill task for the cameras.

so...

we really are all going to be surveyed.

we cant hide from the cameras anymore

20th A[irl 2023 10.44pm

 woke up early today.

spleat early last night

woke up in the middle of the night.

slept at 9pm. woke up at 1.30am. took the rubbish bins out. did some reading.

did some bible study. did more reading.. went back to bed at about 3am.

woke up with alarm at 6am. slept back till 6.45am.

got ready with a a container of cereal and milk

drove over to CBD. a 38 minute drive became close to one hour.

traffic gets really jam then

had the Hyosung training with Adam, met Angela and Chip. nice ppl

good training session.

words of wisdom from Adam:

"If you enjoy what you do at work, you'll go home a happy person, and that affects the people around you back in the house" .. or well.. something along those lines.

got stuck in the traffic coming back.. reach about 6.30 plus.

wife was waiting but she had to go off for dinner with Carolyn and Sue.

she waited fo me to cook and say goodbye. but i just couldn't make it back in time.

well she had a good time out.

i had some quite time.

cleaned up the old desktop PC for Wythe. he just needs a power supply, but i could just throw the whole thing to him.

its good that the microsoft surface connects to the large screen.. and that all our accounts are synced on it so well.

yah..

thats... about today

really want to look ino:

1. usin OneNote as a Personal Knowledge Management (PKM) tool

2. explloring more of GitHub

3. learning more about Web3.

thats all for now.

signing off. 10.49pm

isolation

 humans dont do well when they are placed in a room alone for an extended period of time.

we are social creatures.

we need community

imagine if the last human was all alone in this world

how long would he last

pslams 119:32

One of the wonderful things in life is growing right. We like to learn new stuff (thats why social media is so addictive). I guess one's innate goal would be to gain more understanding about the world. Each and every day, like a new born baby, exploring and discovering novelty. That's the beauty of wonder and curiosity. It inspires us to go read up about someting we're interested in. To search and search until we find out what information we were looking for, which was a gap in our knowledge base. Of memories in our mind. But how can one grow in a good way? (obviously there are bad ways to grow, GIGO), how can one ensure that information put in is good. That time spent pondering on something is of productive value. We'll here's the key. This bibical verse in all its godly truth. Seek after what the Lord says. His commands is what can expand our mind and understanding in a wholesome way. Way better than any other thing in this world can offer... Not just way better. The only way better. Wahtever the world has to offer.. Its counter to Christ. Its garbage.

Social Media is killing me

 this thought came into my mind when i was in the shower.

"Social media is killing me"

scrolling.. for an addiction... for a dopamine hit...

for something novel to pop up..

its robbing me of living my life..

my daily life. with friends, and family..

help me..

help me GOd

smart phone addiction

Social media is killing me

how sweet it is to hold...

 our passports once again.

what an ordeal, a total roller coaster. we came back from Malaysia on Feb,

and sent the passports through NZ Post to INZ.

it got mis sorted into international mail, thank God there was a tracking number on it.

so many calls to their customer service, they always said the investigation team are looking into it.

they had a nice person looking into our case.

So just before Crystal came to join me in Qtn, she picked it up from Botany collection point, dropped it off at Dx mail. but it had the new sticker on it, so it was redirected back to Botany. Got a friend Avi to pick it up, repackage it into a DX mail parcel and send it to INZ.

we were in Queenstown. gosh.. the anxiety.. i couldn't sleep for a few of the nights.

is this what losing sleep over worry feels like... it's horrible ...

but God there is a reason You let us go through this. through Elim's 21 day fast and prayer. You reminded me that You will not let us face anything beyond what we can bear.

INZ sighted out passports and gave us ou Residency, now just to get them back.

NZ Courier. The housemate at 19 Hangahai didn't want to show her ID to sign and receive in the parcel. hence it was taken back.. and wasn't tracked properly..

i had to go to the Depot in Highbrook myself.. and there it was sitting on the table..

our passports.

owh.. the joy when i held it back in my hand..

after almost two months of it being away from us...

gosh..

thank You Lord.