hopeful Risk

If there was ever a mottonto have the word Risk inside...

Calculated risk.. 

Risk analysis... 

I remember Jia tern having the saying "no risk, no life". Only when i dabbled in investing financially did i keep hearing this: "investing involves risk, bla bla bla".. Learnt alof of financial literacy from Sharsies podcast.

Risk... I never really used the word when i was young. Never did seem.. Christianese

Risk.... Focus

Everything in life.. Is.. A risk. 

Every choice.. 

There has never been any certainty. 

If there ever was, it would just have been a figment of our imagination. 

Only onw thing is constant, Christ. 

"the only constant is change" 

Risk, swat analysis.. 

Risk... A board game. 

Risk.. 

I risk my life for You. 

growth can only come when one is truely rested

Or restless...

Paratos esse, be ready. 

I think its time to change to "be present" 

To clear a foggy mind. 

Sleep. Excercise helps. Dont over sleep. 

This weekend was good. 

Abit the turmoil of not being able to sleep due to anxiety about the passports.. 

Rested much over the Friday and Saturday nights. Having not to wake up on the weekend mornings is such an amazing blessing. Please please never take it for granted. The time for a nap, owh how beautiful it is the rest... 

For when we rest. 

Than can we truely have the energy... 

To think, to learn, to grow. 

Rest is the start of things, 

Not the end. 

the wonder of curiosity

Wonderful how wonderful,

Amazment, 

The limits of my understanding and imahination, 

Never have i known this, 

Never could i perceive. 

How wonderful, 

How glorious, 

Beyond my mind's capabilities,

Current, past or future. 

Grow me, Lord, 

There is no other way. 

Like a baby learning to talk, 

Like a child learning to walk, 

How did i loose that wonder of the world.

How did my sense get so dull, 

I used to look at the world with amazement in everything, 

A chance to learn something new everyday, 

When Lord did i loose that and become old

When did i grow so old, 

I've forgotten how to grow. 

Just like a child, 

Juat like a baby. 

Teach me Lord

Once again

The wonder of curiosity. 

solitude is healthy, fertile solitude

“The best things in life happen to you when you’re alone,” artist Agnes Martin reflected in her final years. “Oh comforting solitude, how favorable thou art to original thought!” wrote the founding father of neuroscience in his advice to young scientists. The poet Elizabeth Bishop believed that everyone should experience at least one prolonged period of solitude in life. For in true solitude, as Wendell Berry so memorably observed, “one’s inner voices become audible [and] in consequence, one responds more clearly to other lives” — an intuitive understanding of what psychologists have since found: that “fertile solitude” is the basic unit of a full and contented life.

Excerpt from The Art of Being Alone: May Sarton’s Stunning 1938 Ode to Solitude

by Maria Popova, themarginalian.org

December 1, 2017 07:35 AM through Pocket.

I always thought that really hapiness is to be found when we are together with other people that significantly matter to us in our lives.

Maybe that was shaped by Alexander Supertramp's words: "Happiness only real when shared". Ans being an extrovert, yes. I feel happy hormones kick in when i am with others. The joy the laughter, the connection in interactions and friendships and relationships... 

But really.. At the end of the day. 

When i sit alone, by myself.. Talking to the moooooon~

Hmm okay sorry got a little carried away.. 

At the end of the day. 

Solitude 

Was something Jesus practiced as well.

Early in the mornings, late in the evenings. 

He always went to spend time with Himself, with God. 

Solitude is healthy.

Find that fertile solitude

mountain biking

Wife said.. Go cycling.

So i did. 

Got a bike on bookme. Hard tail. 40 bucks. 

Got the 6 up lifts for Skyline gondola at Queenstown. 

Tried out starva. Nice.

1st run: green lvl 2.

2nd run: mix in aome blues lvl 4

3.. Legs and arms feeling jelly

4. Legs cramping.. I just want to make it down alive without crashing. 

Just burn the last two rides up. Its getting late. Time to go home without any scratches... Just sore knees and hands. 

Rotorua redwoods was more fun in my memory. Queesntown MTB is just.. Too steep.. Maybe i would have enjoyed it more with a full suspension bike

Owh well. 

all that is enough

"Take, Lord, and receive all my liberty, my memory, my understanding, and my entrie will - all that I have and call my own. You have given it all to me, Lord, I return it. Everything is yours; do with it what you will. Give me only yoir love and your grace. That os enough for me. " - Norman Shawchuck