chasing the sunset

https://www.thestar.com.my/news/world/2018/10/31/couple-die-in-yosemite-national-park-while-apparently-taking-selfie/

holidays and happily ever after,
how many of us sit on the ledge of a cliff,
how many of us realise,
that we all sit on the edge of life everyday.

We'll never know,
when will our happily ever after start.

My condolences to the family and friends.
That lost them to such risk, such pursuit of 'happiness',
may they Rest in P..e..a..c.....e?

why do we even use that acronym.
RIP..



how.. ironic

they wrote
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holidaysandhappilyeverafters

CHASING SUNSETS or CHASING LIKES ??? 😛
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Sooo today on #socialmediabadasstribe we are talking about limits of #doitforthegram.😶Yeah sure it can be limitless but guys, we reaaaallly need to have boundaries(this is handy as life lessons too but we will revisit that later😉)
A lot of us including yours truly is a fan of daredevilry attempts of standing at the edge of cliffs ⛰and skyscrapers🌆, but did you know that wind gusts can be FATAL??? ☠️ Is our life just worth one photo?
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When we squirm at another selfie attempt gone south 😱 from a skyscraper, let’s remember to save that in our core memory 🧠 and not the memory dump 🛢(I am still on the Inside Out 🎬 train y'all 😬) Same applies when we get our knickers in a twist and hog a spot till we get the perfect shot🙄 I know I know, I am guilty as charged for all of this 🤦‍♀️ and if I didn’t have Mr. Two Goody Shoes, Vishnu 🤭 with me, I am not even sure if I would have written this post.
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Let us all try to be responsible digital citizens and use our “numbers” to be transparent and honest, shall we?🤗 None of us is perfect and the more we accept it and share our flaws as much as our wins, we are one step closer to creating a sane social media without the scary brouhahas.💕✨"

sigh.....

its like... we know about the dangers,

yet we sill put ourselves in it.

boundaries and memories

“Children who are not encouraged to do, to try, to explore, to master, and to risk failure, often feel helpless and inadequate. Over-controlled by anxious, fearful parents, these children often become anxious and fearful themselves. This makes it difficult for them to mature. Many never outgrow the need for ongoing parental guidance and control. As a result, their parents continue to invade, manipulate, and frequently dominate their lives.” 
― Susan Forward, Toxic Parents: Overcoming Their Hurtful Legacy and Reclaiming Your Life

Was it because of my time around people that were controlling,
that i have become fearful of being who i am?

My biological parents were wonderful, they were the ones that gave me freedom yet led me in bibical ways. Its the institutions and organisations and hierarchy of men that has polluted and made toxic my mind and heart and thoughts. As a results of me not watching over it and working out my faith with Christ.

“Don't go overboard in praising required behavior: 'We have only done our duty' (Luke 17:10). But do go overboard when your child confesses the truth, repents honestly, takes chances, and loves openly. Praise the developing character in your child as it emerges in active, loving, responsible behavior.” 
― Dr. Henry Cloud & Dr. John Townsend

My parents brought me up well, what have i become now? was it because i threw away my boundaries?

“Evaluating the benefits and drawbacks of any relationship is your responsibility. You do not have to passively accept what is brought to you. You can choose.” 
― Deborah Day

I don't want to constantly have to live around people that bring me down,
or should I be a light no matter where I am placed?

Grandma Eu Pui shared something on boundaries the other day,
but I can't remember. was trying to look up the phrase on the net,
came to goodreads, where they had a collection of sayings from various places
I wish i had the time to read all those books and, self heal.

but now it's not the time to do so.

adam and eve and me

i read the story of adam and eve.

and i used to think to myself:
"ah, how silly they listened to tempter and gave in,
if i was in their shoes i wouldn't have made the same mistake!"

how.. not.. true it is.. not that i look at it.

how foolish i was to think that i wouldn't have sinned

we're constantly being face with the challenge.

every day... satan is tempting us to disobey God.

and yes, many times i've failed... many times i've given in.

sigh

but then.... what is the Gospel and Good News?

that God has a way to redeem us from all our mistakes?

the grace.. and mercy.. and forgiveness and... compassion

my flesh wants to feel angry and hate your friends for asking this kind of questions, but the Spirit tells me that i should love them instead, and see that their questions are actually good questions... they are questions that come from friends that care about you

drone crash, if i was on that plane...

i want to be famous for being unfamous.

today in the morning we woke up at 5 am
we went to a flying field in tuaran.

Jim briefed me on the instructions to launch the plane.
"ARM!" the motor will start, i wait for 1 second and toss it.

He switched on te controller, the throttle started,
and i threw the plane.

He was devastated, it wasn't supposed to be like this.

it flew for about 10-20 seconds, and then crashed.
oh my goodness....

God.

i went to search for it, now i know how hard it is to find a missing plane
I walked through the fields, quite a distance off to where the plane went...

found it across the dirt path hanging on a tree..
the front part ripped out by the battery.

Gosh... this looks.. bad..

If only i could jump back in time.
If only i didn't let the plane go without listening to the code word first.
If only i'd pay more attention to instructions and listen attentively

owh well, Jim was really nice towards me.
He comforted and did not show anger
He.. loved and cared

God bless his soul.

He messaged his supervisor

I wonder why i live life in a fog.
like.. why is my mind.. not cleared up?
why...... can i not listen to people
or understand and comprehend language
am i always trying to master everything?

am i superficial and shallow in the many disciplines that pull my interest and distract me.
what should i focus on.

like really .. master.

i dont know.