23 Oct 2019

woke up in citiel this morning.
my taikor came over to run a survery for tahlassemia peeps in kota belut.
had a good YA exchange last night, updated each other and was asked to moderate. man i'm so sloppy in this already. mark sent me to the hotel and it was a really good and devine talk. so nice to be able to be beside someone whose going through a similar.. but not same thing.

its not the same. me and her. him and his girl.
but yeah.. God you're not silent.

we are fearful of triggering our other halves. yes we have broken the trust and it might be a loooong time to mend. we need to be patient. show commitment? how would God heal this borkeness and transgression. how does one forgive. it's no a difference in values, its a difference in beliefs.

relationships are built on trust.

then after that picked up crystal from Shell plaza, had breakfast together. was asked if the break in nov for 9 months was going to be a yellow, red or green light.
"taking a break" and "breaking up" are two entirely different things

took a cream for a rash thats been spreading on my right hand's fingers. oiments didn't work on it. Betamethasone does. found out from mark that it's steroids. lol

breakfast with taikor's colleague Norita. suuuper nice lady.

waited for makr to come, around 2pm. sat at borinos. totally missed the post by Dr Colin about there being a fish talk by Casey today, realllly regret not seeing it and informing kok onn about it. cause they both love fish and research so much.

took the car to the mechanic otospa. nice place friendly and cheap. oil change etc. did a general check up RM630+ worth of repairs could be done. but yeah didn't go through with it. should bring jim's car here one day.

by the time it was done it was 5pm. Crystal and i went to Tanjun Lipat to have fruit juices. found out you cant walk from anjun selera to the stalls outside becasue of the fence. sat down, ate chiken wings and the sweetes corn (becasue of two spoonfool of sugar!)

the sun set. no sun set sky too cloudy. took a walk. been talking with crystal much much more nowadays. its so good to have her here beside. the purpose she came here was to spend time together. and if she cant do that, then why stay? fly back to johor? she had to go for dinner with Krys. Abel didn't let me join.. haha.. or well.. advised agaisnt it.. and it was good. it was wise... they manage to have their girl talk. and i think that's really .. really good...

sometimes doing the right thing isn't the easiest or most comfortable thing.

night time. came back. dropped her off. ate dinner with jim at fook fah. went to the gym.
now they've got a new rule: students cant use the pool and gym after 5 pm
the guard came up to me and asked if i was a student..

i looked at time.... (detroit came to my mind)

"tidak saya kerja"

in a lower than usual voice... haha.. maybe it sounded more intimidating? lol

he let me in.

did about 30 minutes worth of weights.. good enough.

came back. shower. chat with crys.
type this blog entry... 10.41pm. barely 30 minutes to recount the whole day!
man this is a much more efficeint way to write a dairy.

probably gonna read something and then head to bed by 11pm.

gonna pick crystal up at 9am tmr! wohoo, its a new day! =D