day 1

but I'm still new and need guidance.
( i never knew what an "overload" is)

I thought I could handle of all this myself,

but i guess it was just overconfidence,

Had the intention, the initiative, 

but no determination and discipline to follow up.

Guess this is almost like starting form ground zero,

step by step.

Day 1

Pn Norisha's office (Head of Administration Section), got the keys. and paid the deposit.

rules of the Room, safety first, lock.

secondly cleanliness.

third: no couples in the rooms.

Met Eyen 30 minutes late from scheduled time.

should have told her we were going to the office.

Got a whole load of things up her sleeve for me

even i couldn't catch everything. but from what i remember:

1. There's an arboretum being set up in RDC, i need to compile a list of dipterocarps with the areas they occur in to check if they are in commercial forest or totally protected, and their status. so that Robert and .. erm.. someone else can see which trees they should select to be grown in the gene safe.

2. Follow Anis and Giacamo into the ...erm.. some FR to collect soil samples. and get paid an allowance 70 bucks a day. yea.. part time job.

3. when Chirs Kettle comes, see the gene mapping for Sepilok for Eyen's PhD.

4. go in with Alex to set up plots in Deramakot, for LTMP... seeing if we're taking out the good genes.

aside from that there is Colin;s work:

5. IUCN redlist.

6. FYP poster

7. IUCN online course.

and then...

8. finish of the dip lamellatus paper...

gg

and there's also a need to go for a fish seminar on the 15th (wednesday), remind eyen to send me the fish poster tmr.

Richard helped alot, really nice guy. showed us around the biotech tissue culture.

and then the molecular lab later on after lunch (we ate at McD in mile 6).

Grateful for: a nice boss, food at night, a room all to myself, sandy getting along with hers, my gf being understanding, Jesus answering prayers.

"It is by your light, we see light"

take away the fog from my mind,

dont let my nuerons in the brain seperate from each other.

i know i dont fear you Lord.. i plot evil and wickedness,

satan controls my heart because i've allowed him to..

take me back God,

take my lips back God..

that i will speak words of love,

speak the truth in love.

life is not about the money,

it is how we can contribute back to the system,

from within, from without.

ask questions

keep asking.

why

how,

what

where

when

whose

what is the work you are doing?

why are you doing it,

how does it contribute back to the bigger picture?

what is it hinging on?

how do you conduct your research?

why did you choose this site?

what are you expected results/hypothesis?

when did you start and am expected to finish?

whose also on this project with you?

i have to find out,

i have to remmeber,

i have to let my mind be working

to stay sharp, to stay frosty

to be clear.. crystal clear...

not muddy and murky.

clear my mind God

clear it....

cleanse..

okay its 11...

i should get a note book,

to just jot and scribble down stuff.. 

i actually do have one.. hmm.. i should finish it up first right.

yeah no point buying before finishing it.

so many things to be grateful for

thank you God

for never giving up on me

 i love you

i love you

i love you both.

WIsdom: inform people, especially if unable to make it for an appoinment on time.

dont talk bad/slander/compate negatively people.... look on the bright side of things =)

Chirst in you, CHirst in me...

light, be the light..

its a good life, dont hate it.

every day is a new day to shine

to grow

to love

to love

every new day

tmr is a new day.

move on

no regrets

no pain,

no suffering

move on,

dull mind

refresh, freshen up..

God take me back