clear starry skies

i keep telling people that the most important thing in life is, God
yet i do not practice it myself

such a hypocrite.
i've seem to have lost all that i've learnt over the past years of being a Christian.
the elementary truths.

what has happened to my life and walk with God?
i feel so lost.

when i looked at the clear skies, sitting at the edge of the jetty.
i think to myself: "wow, thats really clear"

i wish my life could be as clear as that.
now it seems so cloudy, murky like unclean water.

i cant see past the fog.
i dont know where my life is going.

there seems to be no more purpose anymore.

i wonder why this feeling has come upon me.
i wonder when it'll go away.