by His strength

just did alpha on "prayer"

the stop animation story where the boy was playing in the sandbox really struck a heart cord.

father: Why didn't you use your strength?

son: but i did! i used all of it

father: You didn't ask me to help.

woahh... profoundness... like, before the father even replied, it was guessable for a long time christian. yet it brings so much truth, many christians rely on our own strength to do things (especially carrying out "God's Will") .. rather than realizing that it is from the Father that our strenght comes from.

Matthew 6:6 "But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you."

what struck me was verse 7
"And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words."

have i... become like one of the hypocrites? babbling nonsense, instead of talking to God? sigh..

introverts

i taught i was an extrovert last time, saying things without caring much about how other's felt.
now i begin to assume too much, to take things in a very negative light... like.. the worst possible senario a person could respond to something i said...

sigh..

how do intoverts go thorugh interviews?
isn't it not fair that one has to go through something the is set so much for extroverts?

maybe i'm just cowardly.

Zebra ts-3 400

I first saw it in e-books PJ. Bought the pen version. 3 years ago.

Then I found it so convenient fitting into my small survival box. I just had to get the mechanic version too.

Hence, I looked back for it.. In over 5+ book shops.

Finally found it today in popular imago. Thank God

I'm happy.

Purpose

What can a person want more in life than a purpose to live for.

My body?

 Thank you God for the soul that you've palaces in my body that grants life to all the cells.

You hold all the atoms together, the life support systems, organs... My mind.

You gave them to me, to be used for your glory,

This able body.

What have I done with it?

fruits are good?

today after dinner i decided to cut one of the three oranges left in the fridge since ages ago.
then a taught popped up in my head,

who ever said fruits were good for health?
like, how did i even know i should eat em.. how did humans know in the first place..
well for me, i guess i grew up in a family that ate em regularly.
(yes being a university student i eat much less healthier compared to home sweet home where mom makes sure we get one or two servings a day)

then a fond memory also came back,
i would sit behind the motorcycle... my dad drove me to the pasar malam in SS2,
and he would buy fruits. without fail, each week.

boy that must have been some schedule to stick to, buying fruits for the family once every week.
i wonder if i would become a dad like that some day, i wish i would.

to provide for my family, the kids and wife with health.

(p.s. yes fruits are good for you if you didnt know, think about scurvies that sailors suffered from... and eat yo vegetables too)

Passport

I dreamt that i was flying to thailand,
a ticket that was booked very abruptly.

and i forgot to take my passport to the airport with me.
I seem to do that quite often, living in Malaysia.
just flying from PJ to KK doesnt require one.

sigh.

Do you know me?

It seems like i have gotten off on the wrong foot.
I came here with a purposeful heart, a life set right and in line with God's will.

now i find myself so far away from the path i started on.
I seems like i have prostituted myself to the desires and pleasures of this world.

Living away from family is really something different.
No more parent to watch over me, to cook to bring me to church.

I have strayed so far away.
I want to come back Lord.

I want to come back to you,
to feel your presence and joy in my heart once again.
To be sensitive to your calling, your emotions, your word.

Lord, change me to be more like You each and everyday
i want to know You, and i want You to know me.

Thief

I dreamt that I was taking thumdrives from a computer lab. And also a phone, which kept ringing.

Sigh... So I have really have a thief in me. Why do I keep on thinking of larceny. Opening up computers and ripping out parts... Taking things which aren't mine.

God save me.

why listen to others?

sometimes its better to go ahead and do what you feel like doing.

not because it feels good, but because it is the right thing to do.

missing out the opportunity of a small time frame window can cause consequences that cannot be fixed in the future, unless you have the power to turn back time.

so make sure you know what you are doing in life, dont waste it.

dont waste other people's life.

Ephesians 5:15-17: "Therefore be careful how you walk, not as unwise men but as wise, making the most of your time, because the days are evil. So then do not be foolish, but understand what the will of the Lord is.…"

dont sleep things off,

go water the plants when you have to

especially if it is a hot day.. two hot days in a row

dont rely on others to water the plants for you just because they verbally said they would do it

remind them to do it, or what does trust mean? that you can abdicate responsibility and put the death of others on the hands of others?

no, do not fall into the sin of omission

when you are entrusted with something by someone, carried it out yourself.

because really.... it is your reputation with you are carrying

"He who is faithful in a very little thing is faithful also in much; and he who is unrighteous in a very little thing is unrighteous also in much." - Luke 16:10

dear God, i hope the plants from kinabalu survives.

and it didn't rain =(

sigh

Where are the letters of Timothy?

Where are the letters written by the rest of the apostles? Or Timothy or those who continued after Christ?

Why aren't they also included in the collection of the Bible?

Are we just regurgitating what we've learnt from our forefathers?
Is what we preach and talk about just traditions passed down from one single book?

Imagine if ALL the writings of man are written down. The Bible would just keep growing and growing in size.

The Bible says: if we were to write down all the works of Jesus, it would take up a whole lotta room.

Hence the Bible we have right now is one what has the essentials: the history that leads to the coming of the messiah, and his work, the Good news, the Gospel, the redemption of mankind.

And the rest of it, we are the ones who continue the story.

Christ continues to live on, not just in heaven on His throne, but in our hearts and lives that we daily go about.

Jesus freak

You gotta be crazy for Christ.
Like really, being a Christian is not normal.

Distractions

Why did I even join PM Fssa. I gave to do work once I'm inside it. (Can't just sit around not doing anything). It takes up time from what I really should be focusing on in life.

Sigh, I taught I had time. I taught I could go in to make fssa a better place. I taught I could make a change. I was wrong.

I guess I won't go where God doesn't call me to go then. Because really, its all just distractions.

Fearing God

Reading proverbs. It says so much about "fearing the Lord" and the good things that come out of it, gaining wisdom, avoiding evil, etc

I don't fear God anymore.
I've become desensitise to guilt after dwelling so long in sin.

Lord save me

How we think about the world

"It's not what we know about the world, more importantly... It's how we choose to think about it."

Sometimes the world doesn't really seem like a nice place to be in. But with the Father telling us the purpose of creating it, Chirst giving a good example of living in it and the Spirit guiding us through it...

I'm sure it is possible to have a positive outlook in the sorry state we're in.

For eternity, for His everlasting Kingdom