the only thing constant is change

memories that wouldn't stay

as much as i wanted them to

my brain was just degrading away

thats why there was something i needed say

decades may pass with you by my side

it would have been like that if nothing changed

but i wouldn't want to stay the same

as if every day was spent in vain

i had to make a move

a big gamble it was

to step beyond the comfort zone

into something that would bring the change

i'm not referring to the bad things i did

those were my sins, and i paid for it

i'm truly sorry for your heartbreak

it was wrong of me to be such a ...... jerk 

but now we both know

on a mutual agreement

that both parties are set free

to wonder their own way

to meet new friends

along life's new path

bumping into old ones

for an occasional laugh

its been almost a year now

until the circumstances met

even tough i sorta made a vow

i had to take the chance of this set

to rectify things to rekindle memories

to remind you of the love we once had

i don't know why, along the way

i tainted it with my sin from far away

the words i chose,

the actions i did

wasn't in line

with what i said

sometimes i said things 

that didn't make sense

but you would still listen

and understand them

there is something you must know tough

because even you said you preferred it

to be comfortable enough with someone

and be able to speak with freedom in it

i could choose to hide the things,

some topics that were uneasy

but that would meant lies to you

by no telling you the whole story

i agree i wasn't a good talker

never filtering what i said

neither was i a good listener

but still accepted all you did. (sorta)

i always wondered why you were quite

why you didn't just talk it out

i remember i used to scold you

to not backspace your msn chat typo =P

then again, i didn't really do my part

sorry i wasn't the perfect sport

pleasing you was something like art

sometimes i just missed a spot.

as much as i would love to be there

when ever you needed me

you to know that i have my own story

and i too was torn apart in agony

it wasn't easy, to choose what i chose

after calling you sweet names

for years as if there was no end

to finally say it, i had my own plan

physically, truly years had passed

a time length never heard of in school

but somehow or another

all i stayed was a young fool

a fool not because of you

but a fool not to have spoken to you

over the years we grew

i changed and so did you 

you knew me and i knew you

we would go places with out a clue

but where ever you went, i never stopped you

for i knew you would always stay true

i'm do agree i'd confused you

making you think i'll never leave you

but if you saw me in the obituary

i would have failed you

thats why it was so important for me

to show you that there is more to life than me

make no doubt, you meant much if not all to me

i couldn't just be with you and let it be

there were too many wonders for you to see

and i wanted, was to shared it with you, honey.

time has passed, the chances has slipped by

one thing left, all that i can do

as i lay on my bed

i'll be praying for you.