what has this world to offer?
went back from CNY to malaysia.
just got back to dunedin...
stayed over at auckland for one night.
slept in an aiport hotel that had free shuttle bus.
didn't buy any specific presents for the siblings this time around....
wish i could have brought back the raspberryPi for taikor and jonah
and give each of the niece and nephews NZ coins
or even a single silver coin for their red packets...
it would have been so easyto get it in Auckland compared to dunedin
cause of NZ mint... unless i'll be okay with shipping it...
sigh.. i thought i would be using the Pi over here.... thats why i didn't dring it back..
thought i could make stuff with the free time i have.. who am i kidding......
thought i could just buy one in malaysia if i wanted to give it to jonah for his birthday...
who am i kidding.....
there's no time....
the only time we have is the moment we think about something..
adn if we dont action it in that moment. it goes..
i wanted to bring back a reflex toy for the kids..
like the beep-it bop-it..
but you can get that in toy's r us.... just that.. i didn't have the time.
didn't even wrap presents..
horrible..
horrible horrible
don't celebrate brithdays..
or valentines..
or anniversaries
no more gifts.
spouse love langugae is acts of service...
what kind of service..
sigh..
horrible husband
horrible brother
horrible dad
horrible son
whis i spent more time with noah back during the holidays
watched terminator zero. time travel and fate
played cyberpunk 2077 on xiao jiu's ps4
only when boy went to sleep there aws time
other that that it's so busy and tiring
didn't post pictures on FB.. my 2025 resolution ins to not use FB
it's tough...
what outlet then?
maybe i should change it to... not use FB on the phone
still can post stuff?
i dunno
life is so..
conflicting
i regret what i said at the dinner table on the last night at charity's house
to yewmeng...
infornt of everyone
about the prayer beads
i said " i go for silent retreats" what kind of snobbish reply is that?
totally no humility at all!
i really like them.
i wish i used them more often
i find them useful
just that i don't have the time
i ronically
its supposed to help with focus and medidation practices
the goals i have
buy no.
i'm just..
snobbish
i havent changed yet
wont be going back for two years
but i guess i should still be able to buy gifts for them and shipp it using amazon
afterall the microbit and coding book did reach taikor
and it wasn't too pricy?
i regret
i wish i could turn back time