morning wake up with dogs

owh btw, did i tell you i got chased by a pack of dogs this morning?
well, it was crazy scary. was literally running for my life's sake
it was fun =) got a feel of some hormones i haven't had in a looooong time

i found another jig saw puzzle piece! =D

ah the joy's of talking to friends. close friends.

i never really knew what it was to be completely freed form my past. the hurts from a torn relationship and losing the desire to strive for something.

neither the joy of having a broken heart mended by its Maker..

but it all comes to light when talking with a friend. it has already happened. i have very nice nights sleeping in peace. i dont have to suffer sleepless nights or a mind wondering over and over again about a matter that has long gone. cause... in our weakness, then He is strong.

well just some food for taught.
all the chatter about relationships and bla bla bla... seriously? i'm not ready now? .. when will i ever be ready? isn't the couple supposed to find the imperfection in each other the thing that attracts them and an obstacle that that can both work it out together to become better people as one unit?...

nah... what attracts me to people are their good points. looking at other's weakness and thinking its cool aint something nice to do. but fact is, whose fault was it that this man was born blind? well no ones. it so happened there is misfortune and suffering so that the glory of Him might be shown.. as simple as that eh..

sigh, if i'm to 'get ready' myself and prepare in whatever way i can to be the right guy for the right girl and blablabla.... i hope i dont have to wait till i'm 30... but whatever it takes lah, dont want to make a wrong decision and mess up life big time with the vow... the Vow.. nice movie.. the guy shows what a real man should be, standing up when he needs to, like saying he's not a punching bag.. and when he doesnt need to, like punching the guy at the wedding... go channing... is that what girls want? a guy who can make decisions like a man and blablabla.. not this "christian guys are so emasculated now adays" issue again..

i just think gaming has evolved from chess to dota so well, technology is screwing up humanity... go facebook and social media! may your sub conscious abstract effort to ultimately narcissisify (no it is not an actual word) even the most holy and righteous people come to pass.. even in all the obvious concrete goodness that you bring in the ease of planning events and having group discussing, reminding birthdays to the whole world till the tradition of having one or two people come and surprise us at the door on that special day slowly fades away.... (okay well.. birthday parties still get throw lah) ...

who doesnt like partying rite? wohoo... freedom..

anyways... i like what one character episode in a series said "a wise man once said whatever you say before a 'but' doesnt count" .. i was thinking how true it was... but then again... how much it wasn't either..

haha but...

so ironic...

okay enough typing for now. hope i fed you well enough today dear blog.

i found another jigsaw piece on the floor to place in the grand big picture of life, i know i will never be able to see it in all its wonder till i'm finally up there looking down.... but shucks.. thank you Mr Jigsaw Maker for placing those friends in my picture... i love them, i love them all, and i love You.

calling and election?

2 peter 1

v3 indeed He has given us everything i  need for life and godliness because of the mere knowledge of Him. now i just gotta participate in the divine nature and escape the corruption in this world.... riteeeeee..... divine nature?

mhmmm corruption.. being in university ain't easy, so many things that lure a young man's heart.. if not watched properly shall be swayed and taken away by evil desires.. sigh..

v5 faith>goodness>knowledge>self-control>perseverance> godliness>brotherly kindness>love

i got stuck somewhere, and became unproductive and ineffective about my knowledge about Jesus Christ. sad rite, i think i should read up more about christianity..

v9 dont want to be near sighted, only having short termed plans. blind... cant see what's ahead.. sigh.. wheres the light and lamp post that reminds me i'm already in narnia =P

v10: make my calling sure? hmmm, yup i dont think i'mma gonna escape UMS...
election? sure.... to do what? ... what ever God wants to do here lah..

v11 ah.. shall wait for that which is longed so much for, but right now.. gotta get back to earth....

with knowledge comes responsibility?

3 stages.

1st: unknown, there is no knowledge, have not heard/been told, in the dark. thus silent, if try to describe, rubbish presumptions and made up facts will come out.

2nd: known, received knowledge, experience. what to do with that knowledge?

3rd: show or hide it. its easy to show and talk big about things that are known well by one. its not easy to talk about things that are known by one to certain groups. hide it, even if one has superior knowledge of a certain matter, the current circumstances might require one to be silent about the subject to maintain peace.

keep calm and carry on. 

getting lost in ums, all part of the plan

okay so i started university.
didn't really prepare.. so much for "prius paratus laurus"

and got lost... a few times... but who doesn't right?

i got lost trying to find my way to the chancellors hall .. twice.. i got lost trying to find sib likas, really badly... as in like i stopped 5 minutes away from my destination but walked the total opposite way, making the whole trip there 2 hours long.

it was a big loop, but i ended up in the destination that being sought after.

should have listened to wei aun and start edc-ing a gps.. sigh.. words or wisdom, unheeded.. bring no light to the one's whose eyes are closed.

life's like that isn't it?
not just physically topographically lost.. but sometimes we get lost mentally... in studies, working hard but not achieving the results in proportionate ration. emotionally, finding core desires of the heart in the mess of relationships with most likely the wrong person. worst... spiritually, knowing the destination but not using the navigation.

when i was walking to find sib likas, i walked in one way (which was right) but then my mind had doubts, so i turned around.. i dislike retracing my footsteps on paths already traveled, call it ego or whatever, i like to come down the other side of the hill and not walk back down what has been climbed.. but life's like that, we make mistakes and if we don't find the humility/thick-skin-face to admit we might be wrong, we'll just keep walking down the wrong path.... so yeah, but then i had doubts again, or rather my mind told me its logically the other way.. so i turned around.... again... and asked some road side workers for direction..

the wonder's of asking people who know stuff...

anyways, that aside of re-facing something already gone through, i wonder why i'm always stuck at elementary truths, its like i've never learnt my lesson, always walking back and fourth, back and fourth... getting lost. and repeating my vomit eating experiences.

no. i believe that some mistakes have to be made to be learned. some lessons just cant be taught. people have to go through hardships for our mind to be made well.... harden?

good thing about being a child of God is, He's got a omnilevel phd in Counseling always being there for us and there's a Manual for us to use, a good Guidebook..  so that 5 minute walks dont have to become 2 hour ones.

"Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path"