2025 coming soon

 So the year is coming to an end...

what will 2025 bring?

choice

Every choice matters

every action

Every choice counts

No action too small

Significant over time

wonder what Jesus did

Or his family, Mary and Joseph...

With the gifts given by the wise man

The gold, frankincense and myrrh

Read before sleep

 Why reading before bed is better than using the phone

The reason why is because of something called historical continuity of the present memories ability to recall past events and an anticipation for future outcomes, either through prediction or foresight.

So say for example, I read a book. Any book. I used to read the Bible, a chapter a day. I could recall what i read the night before, and because I’ve read the passage or heard a sermon being preached about it before sometime in the past, I can sort of have a premonition of what the next words will be in the lines ahead. This gives the mind a sense of consolidition. It doesn’t just have to be religious text, it can be any book. Currently I’m reading a comic, W0rldtr33. A chapter a night, somthing I look forward to to wind down the brain and the day. And when I finally feel sleepy, the brain is in the right state of mind for a night’s rest. The wavelength is just right…

However, if I use the phone. Normally the things that I watch are unrelated to anything else. For example, I scroll through FB news feeds, shorts and YT recommended videos. They normally have no continuity to any story line. Everything is just a short burst of entertainment that’s vying for my attention. (That’s how it they game it to work), Dopamine releases, etc. I’m addicted to it. I don’t want it to end.. and when I’m finally too tired, I crash into sleep… barely able to keep my eyes open anymore… It’s not a sleep that comes from the right cue. It’s forceful… and … i probably don’t remember anything I watched that night.

kilbernie pool

 swimming pool in kilbernie is sooo good for toddlers.

and it's free!

lift in the hotel broke down

no time to go gym/pool/spa today

owh well.

it was good as it gets

ah and linux is probably the way to go

healthy habits

 so staying in Gilmer for covering the CE in wellington provides complementary access to Habit Health's gym, pool, spa, sauna and steam room facilities at the Majestic.

Man. i love sauna.

and their 33m pool.... haven't swam for ages.. just by myself,

ever since the baby came.

so this 7-9pm sessions have been gooooood

really appreciate it.

the sauna.. just sitting in there, and letting the sweat come out.. oh so good

and then just walking back in the night, nice cool breeze that's not cold anymore because of the heat built up in the sauna.

blissful feeling.

headache and blood vessels in the brain can flow

owh. and i sorta manage to do a nordic curl ish today!

yea!

2024 resolution acheived

Finding purpose

 so just ended a call with John and some ELDP/YLDP people.

man, i'm really missing out on stuff back home.

why didn't i find anything like that to belong to in Auckland?

was it because of the life choices or the people or the...

nah, there's nothing to blame.

no one to blame except .. myself

i never found a community to belong to,

to build deep roots and establish myself, my family in.

hence, the dissatisfaction with life

the dissatisfaction with all that was good wherever we are

the struggle is real.

God why

why

its not You, its me.

I can't balme You

You didn't lead me onto this path,

it's one i choosed 

its the best yet

its a blessing from You

thank you, Jesus

for the wife, the kid, the job, the family the friends

least, people jsut be aquientences