kilbernie pool

 swimming pool in kilbernie is sooo good for toddlers.

and it's free!

lift in the hotel broke down

no time to go gym/pool/spa today

owh well.

it was good as it gets

ah and linux is probably the way to go

healthy habits

 so staying in Gilmer for covering the CE in wellington provides complementary access to Habit Health's gym, pool, spa, sauna and steam room facilities at the Majestic.

Man. i love sauna.

and their 33m pool.... haven't swam for ages.. just by myself,

ever since the baby came.

so this 7-9pm sessions have been gooooood

really appreciate it.

the sauna.. just sitting in there, and letting the sweat come out.. oh so good

and then just walking back in the night, nice cool breeze that's not cold anymore because of the heat built up in the sauna.

blissful feeling.

headache and blood vessels in the brain can flow

owh. and i sorta manage to do a nordic curl ish today!

yea!

2024 resolution acheived

Finding purpose

 so just ended a call with John and some ELDP/YLDP people.

man, i'm really missing out on stuff back home.

why didn't i find anything like that to belong to in Auckland?

was it because of the life choices or the people or the...

nah, there's nothing to blame.

no one to blame except .. myself

i never found a community to belong to,

to build deep roots and establish myself, my family in.

hence, the dissatisfaction with life

the dissatisfaction with all that was good wherever we are

the struggle is real.

God why

why

its not You, its me.

I can't balme You

You didn't lead me onto this path,

it's one i choosed 

its the best yet

its a blessing from You

thank you, Jesus

for the wife, the kid, the job, the family the friends

least, people jsut be aquientences 

only way to be filled

Matthew 5:6

this is so counter intuitive. or counter culture.

the world will say the opposite:

"indulge yourself in unrighteousness. drink your fill and some more, then only will that deep craving inside be fulfilled "

it will never be.

greed, lust, power, fame, fortune

one who gains things out of the pursuit of these vices will never be filled

hence, the verse.

as i ponder upon it more.

it comes to pass that the truth which it holds is this:

that the only true way to be satisfied in this life on earth,

is to listen to Jesus's words to longing for righteousness...

the path of righteousness isn't an easy one. majority of the people don't do it.

righteousness isn't just about integrity, holiness, or even perfection.

it's about acknowledging our fallen state, and the need for a Saviour to bestow upon us His qualification of being right before God.

seek that. seek the Way, the Truth and the Life.

the Good life.

some positive stuff

1. Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time." Thomas A. Edison

2. "Out of clutter, find Simplicity. From discord, find Harmony. In the middle of difficulty lies Opportunity." Albert Einstein

3. "With the new day comes new strength and new thoughts." Eleanor Roosevelt

4. "Optimism is the faith that leads to achievement. Nothing can be done without hope and confidence." Helen Keller

5. "Keep your eyes on the stars, and your feet on the ground." Theodore Roosevelt

6. "What you get by achieving your goals is not as important as what you become by achieving your goals." Henry David Thoreau

7. "The key is to keep company only with people who uplift you, whose presence calls forth your best." Epictetus

8. "If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude. Don't complain." Maya Angelou

9. "Setting goals is the first step in turning the invisible into the visible." Tony Robbins

10. "Knowing is not enough; we must apply. Willing is not enough; we must do." Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

11. "Determine never to be idle. No person will have occasion to complain of the want of time who never loses any. It is wonderful how much may be done if we are always doing." Thomas Jefferson

12. "Well done is better than well said." Benjamin Franklin

13. "If you start by promising what you don't even have yet, you'll lose your desire to work towards getting it." Paulo Coelho

14. "If you want to conquer fear, don't sit home and think about it. Go out and get busy." Dale Carnegie

15. "Go for it now. The future is promised to no one." Wayne Dyer

16. "The quality of a man's life is in direct proportion to his commitment to excellence, regardless of his chosen field of endeavor." Vince Lombardi

17. "Your talent determines what you can do. Your motivation determines how much you are willing to do. Your attitude determines how well you do it." Lou Holtz

back p backup backup

 plex..

life time access...

making servers.

backing up things

nice to back up

too much media,

photos, videos, etc....

nothing will last forerver,

even in this digital information age

missing hand gripper

I've misplaced my hand gripper exercise tool...

Last used it in the can..

Maybe it was on my lap when I open and jumped out the door... working late at night it's dark...

But I remember putting it in the door handle space...

Owh well..

Did my best trying to look for it

No regrets. I used it much...

It's just.. stuff.

Let there be no attachment. 

lost and found

I found my ring back...

Have not been wearing it for few weeks....

After I went to waiheke Island.

I thought I lost it.. but it was in my work bag. Phewh.

Lots of things been happening lately.

I kind of screwed up doing the ANZ SW reload at BP Greenlane... miss typed one number in the IP address... and didn't catch it when the ATM wasn't connecting... Leslie found it. Thank God.

And then there's the time we're I deliberately disobeyed the wife... when she said to stop spraying the anti mould on the kitchen sink...

But I still did.

Wonder why.

I think it's because I wanted to please the landlords. And the OCD part of my cleaning just kicked in....

I should be using it at work.. not home.

Brain fog. Can't think straight. 

Doing things that irritate others.

Not able to process current situation and gauge future consequences. 

Move to Dunedin? Or stay in Auckland.

It's so convenient here.

Daycare. Wife's work.. house.. friends.. flights.. events.... warmer...

All this will be sacrificed with the move down south.

Craig, Brett... give some clarity please.. don't be afraid to ask them questions.

Thanks Bilal for the comforting chat during the CE meeting.

Fix the TV, old plasma from shri. Have to pay to discard it otherwise.. use the airports to get a new one later on.

Logistics.. have to move the house.. sigh.

Van chair.. Two people want to buy.

First buyer hasn't come yet. 

Time to give chance to the second one?

dell attitude

 a new life

a new laptop

a new chance

doesn't really make a difference

unless.

it is used

its all about the attitude

to the latitude

how well is it used?

how much distraction is there?

is it really better.

or not..

to boot from USB

or to dual boot from nvme

choices choices

well, it is much much better than the Acer aspire v3 from like... 2016..

gosh that's almost, 8 years old?

i used it in second year of uni,

after my sister used it first

traded it with a travelmate

hmm

another tear drop

 i'm so sorry my dear child

its just ... 

..

.

nah... there's no excuse

i'm sorry

conspiracy Olympic sports

So stuff like breakdancing is an Olympic sport but squash is not ..

Yeah, so it's actually who controls the Olympics that gets to determine what sports go in.... 

The more subjective sports, the more they can select judges that will score their own country with more gold medals.

you can't choose who gets the medals in real sports..... Cause it's an obvious who wins or not by clear rules....

Stuff like... Points awarded by judges.... That's where your country can get em gold medals racked up xD i.e diving, gymnastics and.. dancing..

the idea of being a liberal

A conservative is a liberal whom has been robber.

A pious religious person is deep down inside, a depraved and twisted person, longing to live life on his own terms, freedom to act without consequences, and seek the pleasures of all that is taboo

But because of self discipline and self control.

He does not.

Because of Christ,

We know the fruit from the tree of knowledge of good and evil isn't worth it.

We don't need to experience all that can be offered in this world...

Jesus didn't take up Satan's offers to bow down to him, of rule over a city, or eat bread when he was hungry.....

In the moment of being in the desert and fasting.

He was tempted, yet was still to be found without sin. Because He didn't give in. So that He could live a perfect life and die ok the cross to atone for the sins of those He loved, you and me.

He sacrificed for others.

Think about that.

When you life your own life, do you just live it for the happiness of you own self? Or can you live life, not for others, but for God.

Christianity is not sacrificing your life for another person. Jesus already sacrificed his for them. And only Jesus can do that.

We can't sacrifice for others, we're not perfect ourselves.

We sacrifice to God. For it is He whom demands a sacrifice of praise worthy of Him. Not what is left out of our pockets, not the best choice of meat or cut. But just the humble corn, just the first fruits in rememberce that all is given by Him, just the right heart and attitude.

Of Thanksgiving.

Not of whating to receive benefits or favour. Not with alterior motives. Not with hoping you'll get a hundred fold in return....

But just innocent, giving from the abundance that's recognized. In Christ we already have it all. Heaven. A communion with God. What else could be more precious than that?

Give me poverty, give me death.

But do not take away from me my relationship with the Lord.

Hannah ljz

yahor, true also lah.. this is why people in position always have jaga what they write loh... Feelings and emotions of masses is a real thing. That's why most can't speak their mind. Always have to think what others will think about them.

She was trying to address that in point 3 I guess... To be brave.

But I think..... It's still okay leh.

Cause it's not like she took the photo like really right right after the semifinal match... That one will be really toooo much lah.

This is like what... Two days gap from the loss.... (Cause they holding up the medals right)... And she noted the calmness style from when he fought world number 1. Probably lots will have shaky knees if paired up against ShiYuQi

But you're right lah James. Poorly worded post. Easy to be taken not in a good way. It's just that the response of the others to it was not as mature as yours. At least yours is respectful and got suitable examples given in a kind way

Haha but media is media lah... What I didn't like was how they blew it up by just focusing on one picture post and leaving out the rest (not like she didn't take pictures with our own guy right) and writing insidious captions saying she's not patriotic

But yalah... What to do, that's how news works right......I mean.. common, even our own LZJ also kena bully on social media himself 🤦 how la. Minister kena... Player also kena.. don't know what is patriotism...don't know who won't kena.. no one is safe from cyber bullying no matter what they do

perfectly imperfect, to be human

 no one is perfect.

the idea of perfection is.. in-human

to be human is to make mistakes

and to learn from them

that's evolution,

that's life.

I acknowledge that i am imperfect,

help me to become a better person.

only You, God are perfect.

You are not just an idea of perfection,

You are, You are all that is. You are everything, and all in all.

You encompass everything, the good. what what ever else makes someone, Perfect.

perfectly good. perfectly whole. perfectly perfect.

God is perfection.

How do we achieve that?

We could never... we are only human

Hence, Christ.

and His death on the cross.. for us

that BY his perfection... and sacrifice.. His willingness to give up what is rightfully His, His communication and connection to the perfect all Father..  

He was cut off from God in the moment He took upon Himself our imperfection.

imperfection, is just another word for Sin

but what is imperfection? it's all around us.. it's unavoidable

no one can be... un-imperfect.

that's just... life

acts 13:39

only through Jesus,

is there freedom from sin.

not just a few particular type,

but all, every single one.

big or small 

no sin is insignificant,

no sin is too significant.

and this freedom...

is found no where else,

not in laws, not in books,

not in mindsets, not in selfhelp.

not in this world.

Only Jesus has the power to save

to go or to stay

A place in Dunedin has opened up.

To go there in a one CE area or to stay here in Auckland with 15 other CEs?

Proverbs 20:4

Those too lazy to plow in the right season will have no food at the harvest.

V13

If you love sleep, you will end in poverty.

Keep your eyes open, and there will be plenty to eat.

The opportunity to go out, and get more standby time is really a big thing.

Missed out on Tauranga when Anghad left and Bilal came back to fill the spot. Myles manage to get someone from FLM to become a CE. Sigh. What a wasted opportunity to go to Mainganui and Papamoa, Crystal really liked the beachand mountain there. Should have put more thought into it.

Now the chance has come up again to go out of Auckland. Should I take it or not?

Medical: my right shoulder still aches a little bit it's getting better. My stiff neck has sort of transferred it's pain to the shoulder. (I think I got it over the weekend, maybe a Friday or Saturday), but the necks been stiff for weeks... After looking down at the phone a a weird angle one night.and stretching out my hand for too long. And maybe carrying boy with one side only... So many reasons.

Boys left arm has a small red patch that seems to be growing. Putting some anti fungal today 22/7, and will need to continue on for the next 10 days after it goes away.

Studies: Etec and EAS course coming up.

70% thought the self study book only. So distracted with reading other books like why the Rich get richer by Robert K.

Work: got the spot for Hastings this weekend, Friday to Sunday.

is Jesus

More important than time,

Than money....

Than love

Is Jesus

Because only He can do things that

Time, money, love cannot

He can do miracles,

Time is endless for Him,

He can Raise the dead..

He can do what love can't 

He can change hearts,

Open and close doors

Seek Him first

15 July 2024

6am ish. woke up. milk for the baby

wife slept, rainy day.

brought him to the van with umbrella,

knocked his head on the seat belt buckle,

this boy is strong, cries for only a short while

8am ish, home, breakfast toast.

9.30 work, wbc oak pharmacy, cassettes not reading, invalid

11 ish national storage. pick up part. met ummer and kunal

12.30 second meet. part not suitable, called Karl and tendai. 

2 ish. home firefox, 

4 cook.

5 pick up boi

routine dinner shower milk brush bible sleep

7-8 entertainment

2041 now....

zz

whats good?

i like blinkist , good book summaries daily

whats bad?

firefox.. sorta....

what i wish?

no more social media

whats being read lately?

Duel at the Valley of Despair (Second Part) Battle Angel Alita: Mars Chronicle Vol. 10, Ch. 51.2

Tower Dungeon Vol. 1, Ch. 1

thoughts of the day:

when it rains,

stop whatever you're doing and enjoy it for a moment

run long distances, slowly

lift weights, light, frequently

no replacement

 there is no replacement for spending time with Jesus