Tuesday, June 16, 2026

simplicity is surreally sublime

Thr ability to remember is such a wonderful gift when expressed in a child...

When they can start repeating words or count numbers

... I mean. That's like what defined us in our school years right? The ability to recall facts during examinations to get that A score....


Until ....... they start remembering things you wish they didn't.

Like how you promised to bring their socks back to daycare after forgetting to throw it in the car during the morning rush to get everyone to where they need to be by the clock in time....

And so, you try your best to keep to the promise.


Small things. But in a child's world, some perceptions of time mean the lifetime to them.

A word unfulfilled is one of the greatest destroyers in a person's perspective of relationships 

Of cause, not everything that is said can be done. Sometimes it really is out of our control. And along the way of growing up, we learn to let go of things

Bith the Things that dont really matter.. and the things that do. The latter being the harder


After memory and recall: Selective forgetfulness,  is the next ability that is a useful trait to have in life.

Its not that we dont remember things,
Its that we make the active decision to not keep bringing up an event in the past.

Although it might have been painful, or sad, or life defining.

Neurons that fire together wire together.
Use it or loose it. So dont use it, and your brain will eventually lose it.

That's why the best way to not remember something is to not only not thonk about it (like trying to not thonk about the elephant in the room). But actively replacing it with something positive.

Choose to remember the good memories, 
And the bad ones will have no space to take root.

Let go, let God.

Focus on what really matters,
The inconsequential can become crippling if ruminating on when there are better things to do in life

Think about the possibilities, 
The brighter future that life beholds
In the life of Christ that is promised.


Its tough
To let go of the past
Its hard
To apologize and say sorry

But it doesnt have to be
If one considers themselves already dead.

That's what sin is.
The inability to forgive 
..and move on

Its a chain, shackles and prison...

When one comes to Christ,
We die. And there is no longer anymore ego or pride. Its okay to say sorry. There's  nothing to loose, if all has already been lost.

Or is it.
Victory comes not to the strong in their own eyes. But to those that see weakness in their being, and the need of reliance on God for strength 


Sin has no hold,
On the one surrendered to Christ.
For it is Jesus that bears our sin,
On that rugged cross on Calvary 


Chilvery 
Is dead

And only becomes alive,
When one can die to the self.
To lay down the one's own coat on a puddle for the dame to step over.

Not with hidden intentions to flirt and gain anything transactional or reward later on,
But juat because that's who the man is.
Dead to himself, so that he can live (not for others) but for Chirst himself.

Choose to forget,
The wet muddy coat.
The washing that needs to be done.
Hanging out the laundry to dry,
The folding of clothes
The cabinet of cloth.
There's more important thing to the fabrics of time

Choose to remember, 
The happy birthdays,
The celebrations,
The joyous occasions.
For we only have these few years left on earth, 
Before an obituary 

The end is near,
Even if it is 50 or a thousand years from now.

It doesnt matter
Not that nothing matters,
But few things do.

Choose to remember that which matters.
And leave out whatever doesnt matter.

Its not about accumulating more,
Its about subtracting until the bear essentials is distilled to the essence of life.

Love, joy, peace, hope


Let them win
Over pain, regret, despair and loathing

There will be a time for grieving.
Emotions are what makes us human.
Resilience comes from taking the hit.
Take as much time as you need to heal.
But eventually heal you must.
Dont wallow in pity.
For there's plenty of time for that in the grave. Dont let hell arrive on earth before it is due. Let your bones do it for you, once you have let out the last breath on earth. 


For now,
I have no time to think about such things 
For I have to get to sweeping the floor.
And vacuuming the dust,  which reminds me im not in a virtual simulation.

Have a kid,
And there'll be little space to think about yourself. But if you walk the narrow path, you'll think much much deeper about yourself. And how this world isn't all about you.... nor is is about them.

This existence, 
Its meaning
Its propagation 
Its continual
Its reason
Its joy

Somethings in life matter.
And because of that 
I've forgotten the things that don't 


Wednesday, May 27, 2026

water to wine

No matter how Jesus did it.
It was a miracle 

Empty ceremonial jars,
Filled with water.
And given to the master of ceremony to drink, wine.

Its like making a cup of ribeana or cordial.
A little dried powder wine or syrup at the bottom of the flask. And add some water.

Its "like" 

But that's probably not how Jesus did it.
His was a miracle.

Wednesday, May 20, 2026

is phone addiction as bad as porn

Seems like it
In fact it's worse, 
Because it's acceptable 

You can watch porn in public, 
But you can use the phone 

Friday, May 01, 2026

the ability to forget

The ability to forget things... 
...is a gift humans have.

One that might go away with using AI,
That remembers everything in databases.

Unless it learns to forget things too


Wednesday, April 01, 2026

breathing in bed

One of the best activities to do...

Monday, March 09, 2026

james 3:1-2 teaching and the tongue

Dcmc asked me to be a Sunday school teacher...

To be a teacher in the church.
Is not something to be taken lightly.
Because those who do take up the responsibility have a higher standard to uphold.

Is it necessarily a bad thing? No. Life, without its struggles,  cease to be worth living. An easy life is not the way to the narrow door.

Thus, guard your tongue. Start there. The words that we speak out, audible.  Has to come from our minds and hearts first. Let a guardian angel stand at the doorway of our lips, so that wahtever passes through is edifying and glorifies Jesus.

Whatever is gossip and unholy, let it die In our thoughts, as we submit it to God in meditation and quietness.

Friday, February 27, 2026

galatians 5:19-21. evil and good behaviours

Galatians 5:19-21 NLT
[19] When you follow the desires of your sinful nature, the results are very clear: sexual immorality, impurity, lustful pleasures, [20] idolatry, sorcery, hostility, quarreling, jealousy, outbursts of anger, selfish ambition, dissension, division, [21] envy, drunkenness, wild parties, and other sins like these. Let me tell you again, as I have before, that anyone living that sort of life will not inherit the Kingdom of God.

https://bible.com/bible/116/gal.5.19-21.NLT

Christians don't follow laws for the sake of it (read earlier verses of chapter 5)..

We just acknowledge that certain behaviours are just results of listening to the devil

As well as doing the hard stuff like loving and forgiving is of the Holy Spirit.

That's why we need His strength and help to do so. By human means, some things are just impossible 

Monday, February 23, 2026

Romans 14 condemning others

"what kind of Christian are you to act like that????"

When that thought comes to mind.
Sigh.

A Christian is still a human, they still get angry, they still get frustrated and vent out all the dissatisfaction of life...

They're just being authentic. And we have this condescending thought that they shouldn't be acting or saying or doing something like that.

God save me.

I am in much more need of reprimand than the other person in my mind.

I am wretched.

Self control, is not for others that we should judge them if they have it or not. The only person we are accountable for this is ourselves towards God.

Thursday, February 19, 2026

two sides of the coin. jesus the source of love

To love a higher power (God),
Is how we find the ability to love others (wife, kids, family, friends, enemies).

Jesus is the source of love. 
Find the source, 
And the well spring of life will bubble up flowing forevermore.

Life is all. 
I this world of experiences. 
The dark and the down trodden parts. 
The fights the anger the pain the sorrow. 

There will be no joy or peace, 
If we never knew war or sickness. 


Thank God for the good times. 
Remember Him in the bad ones. 

Wednesday, February 18, 2026

Holy jealousy Romans 11:11&14

Jealousy...

Always thought that that word had a negative connotation. The only line in where it is used for holiness is:

Our God is a jealous god.

But here in Romans, we read that Paul and God are trying to incite the isrealites (and anyone that has fallen away) to become jealous of those that have accepted Christ and is in God's grace and mercy.

So it is okay to be jealous... For the right things. To hunger and thirst for righteousness.

That is the thing we should strive to be jealous about.. Not others fancy car, house or family... But others obedience and walking in step with the Holy Spirit. That is something worth desiring, a life intune with God, grafted into a holy vine. 

Monday, February 02, 2026

Romans 8:5-8

There's only two wills:
God's and the sinful nature.

Whatever is not of the Holy Spirit,
Is of this world and the flesh.

There is no such thing as the flesh doing anything to please God. Whatever is good, it has to come from God.

So everything else that is no of God,
Is sinful.

There is nothing holy,
It things outside of God.

There is no such thing as pleasing God,
By doing things of the flesh.

Choose the Holy Spirit,
Follow God's will.

Die to one's own self 

Wednesday, January 07, 2026

Romans 3:31

We don't forsake the law because our salvation is by faith in Jesus. But in fact, only when we have faith do we truly fulfill the law.

There is no way to follow the law perfectly, by human standards and strength alone. The one and only way to fulfill it in all it's fullness is to believe in Christ first, then only are we able to do what is required by God.

That is what the law was originally for.
It was what God wanted for us.
Is what God wants.

That's why we have the law.
It's not for us to achieve a communion or to reach God's standards or access to Him or something arbitrary like that...

What's the reason we have the law?
It's because that is what God wants.

But by our human standards we will never ever achieve it.