wohoo Google purchased Nest!

the start of the end of mankind as we know it to be. nice privet lives.
truly Jesus was right when he said these were the 'end times'

"but what Satan intend to be our defeat,
when we present it to God,
He turns it around into a backfire,
because the victory is already won,
and the glory only goes the the One"

http://gizmodo.com/why-nest-is-worth-every-penny-1500616569

bring on the One World! cant wait for Uncle G to buy bitcoin once paper money stops working..

sigh, i just signed up for LastPass... i should have stuck to Paste-it-Notes..

you know why God didn't like the idea of the Babel tower? cause a unified language enabled man to achieve too much. yes it is possible.... pride cannot be bottled up as easily as one thinks.. and pride brings about an evil that even the highest archangel fell for...

Dear Lucifer who wanted to ascend into the level equal with the Most High ... U doing good in teaching mankind your tainted ways..

soon we shall be able to know what the tree of Tree of the knowledge of good and evil is.... soon knowledge shall be too easily accessed .. all we need to do is make the choice of disobedience and eat of its fruit once it ripens

with the internet, it's unifying mankind... seems like the short-term benefits are worth it.... efficiency and comfort. but i personally think it'll only bring about a grave destruction of mankind we all learn in History (yes Sejarah did teach me something).

any any great civilization before us who taught they had it all and were invincible, we shall see if we'll leave behind more than Pyramids and Stone Hedges..

gosh why do i even think about this? now i'm having second thoughts on getting a Nexus 7.... is it even necessary?.. should i just go live in the jungles and exile myself from the rest of mankind...

yeah rite........... sounds like something outta science fiction..
"ain't nobody gonna be able to talk to someone halfway across the world"

haha dun be paranoid after reading this k?
God is watching over us  and He loves you, He always has and always will...

"cast all your anxiety upon Him for he cares for you"

please dun filter this post out because of its sensitivity,
i'm not defaming Google in anyway! xD
and... if you did remove this, i would be .. really... really.... scared

good thing you dont control facebook! cause i posted it there too! hah!
go independent positive competition! =)

dont give in so easily

Accepting unfairness is not boldness
but an excuse for defeat and laziness

the trick is to find the common ground,
be it beliefs or problems...

and work from there

the A issue

 "quality of education, economic injustice and moral degradation." - anwar
yup totally agree this is what malaysia is facing

on personal note relating to this:
retaliating in the wrong manner would make the victim no better than the assaulter, two wrongs do not make a right. i have faith in religion, no matter what religion.. that there can be a common ground to work on.

do not let stereotypical views of hatred govern your mind to make what seems like the better of the decisions. look and heighten your mind to a greater level that is far above beyond all this trivial matters..

 neither open minded belivers on both sides want this to end in a war.
there can be understanding, trough peaceful dialogues.

the real enemy is the Devil.
all man are God's creation, all humans are loved by Him.
don't stab the wrong person least to find we are just fighting against God's own creations!

remember: the real enemy is the Devil, he wants this war

on another side note.. this song is soo awesome!

new year 2014

new year's here

spent my first watchnight away from home.
all this time it was always in church, never missing a year...

eh wait no, i didn't spend watchnight back home during 2012/2013 too..
was in indonesia for the 6th ISC... so this is my second year away from home.

gosh.. skipped two years in a row.
i used to think and ask why i was always HAD to go to church on that night,
i felt really obligated back then, as if i was forced to,
not being able to enjoy the fun at malls and other places where masses of people congregate,
like the Curve or KL or something...

but now that i look back, we used to share testimonies of our year back in church during this time.
and it would be so endless. we had to even pause the flow to do countdown at midnight and then continue back later..

owh well.. there's a first time to everything.

btw, today 1st january marks the day that i am, freed again

thank you Lord for sustaining me
throughout that moment in time
and now you have granted me
the rest i've wished for some time

so anyways, i was reading about the new mac pro.. the one that looks like a dustbin..
which lead on to reading about mainframes and super computers..
gosh... Tianhe-2 is... crazy
the power of china... i dont think i can calculate mesh and hypercube architectures..

my brain would just... melt....
and yet this is the way mankind moves forward =)

and i have an interest to build a personal supercomputer with nvedia's tesla =P
anybody wanna fund me? xD

yea humanity, i wonder what we'll achieve by the end of 2014 ... sentient computer's maybe? =D

maybe we'll be able to integrate our biological nerves with tecnology =P that'll be cool, especially if it could help in processing power and storage capacity

well i guess thats what the windows to the Cloud is... we're just separated by our hands and eyes

time and time again, waiting

"Waiting is a part of trusting",
do not live in a world of instantanity.
Time does infact prove something,
so please delight in walking the journey.

abraham waited for his son, believed in God to hold true to His word,
and it was accredited to him as righteousness. *genesis 15:6

trust and obey...
for there's no other way..
to be happy in Jesus...
but to trust and obey~

-this hymn always and an eerie ring to it,
i never liked how it was so straight to the point, almost harsh
obey is a very strong word,
but now i know, least i do not choose to follow what He says,
i obey my own flesh, and it is always my downfall.

a little Resurrection every-time i fall

Dear God,

Grace what have you done?
that i should show grace to others.
why have i been forgiven,
that i should be tested again.

you told me to repent daily,
for your kingdom is near at hand,
humanly, it seems too long a time,
with you, i find joy for each moment.

but when i dont go to you,
to fill my cup each day,
it runs dry and i get tired,
i feel like just giving up.

sometimes i snap,
and conform to my fleshly desires,
i let my guard down for a moment,
and put to failure all i have done.

i think this is the end,
its all going down hill from here,
but little did i forget,
i've given my life into your hands.

that you'll never let me go,
and turn my sorrow and shame,
into something that glorifies you,
for the victory is already won.

what satan meant for my destruction,
you made into a testimony,
what i understood humanly,
is nothing compared to the light you shone.

confessing is such a rare thing,
probably it's how the world views it,
it's a sign of weakness and defeat,
when actually it takes more than that.

as a matter of fact,
opening up is not as easy to be done,
i wouldn't say it takes a real man to do it,
i just needed the right Man to help me.

to be comforted in knowing that
you hold me in your loving hands

remind me dear Lord each day,
that the Person i believe in is not small,
but bigger than anything i'd ever imagine,
that i do not fight life alone.

i will live, by dying.
no longer shall shame and past hold me,
tough i've learnt my lessons from them,
its towards you i look forward to.

i dont know what to do for the future,
i dont want to make human plans,
i know its you who'd guide my steps,
each and every day of my life.

You died in my place so my soul will live

"If you have raced with men on foot and they have worn you out, how can you compete with horses? If you stumble in safe country, how will you manage in the thickets by the Jordan?" -Jeremiah 12:5

so yeah, did i fail you God? after all that you have brought me through in life, after being faithful and proven trough smaller trials and temptations, when i face a bigger thing, why has my heart crumbled? why did i not do the right thing and seek You first before taking things into my own hands. i really thought my own understanding was more than enough to amend the problem, and i thought that you would just bless the decisions i make like a genie. like how You've always done when i was a young child.

when i was a young christian, things used to go so smoothly, life in communion with Him was a bliss and daily life was a nice stroll in the park. but i know as i grow older, the path shall be more laden with stones, and i need to keep a much more open eye, least i trip. real man never trip. even if they do they do not admit it.

but every time i fall, it is a better state than being lukewarm, cause then there is a chance to rise again, to take hold of His hand again and be pulled up by grace. to feel His touch and grip His nail pierced hands.

The blood that flowed from them is more than able to wash away my shame. i no longer need to hide my wrong, for in confession and prevalence comes a testimony that just goes to show how He aids us to sore over the storms.

Or so i taught that i was right,
to confront a man older than i.
to assume and accuse,
thank God I didn't spark a fight.

My heart was aching from harboring,
a taint cause by evil's blight.
Everything at the end of the day,
shall eventually come to light.

I taught it was my very right,
to amend wrongs with my own might,
I taught i didn't need the Lord,
I've been through this before.
It was like rowing a boat it the storm,
using my strength to reach the shore.

Little did i know how grieve a failure,
my actions would be without His counsel.
To think i should, actually blurted it all out,
i should have kept my lips shut with a suture.

Now i learn that only certain people,
can handle what i think is simple.
To not be labelled judgmental,
is more than saying 'grow up' typical.

True love disciplines a loved one,
but i was in no position or authority,
As much as i wanted to get it done,
this needed to be dealt with spiritually.

A case that involved me,
somehow was not my fight to be,
I was just a passer by,
that God may shine unconditionally.

palms 36 talks about how i actually schemed to do wrong =(
but  2 Corinthians 6:8 says

"And God is able to make all grace abound to you,

so that in all things at all times, having all that you need,

you will abound in every good work."

sweet young girls

well so i never actually got the chance to see the blog, cause it was taken down by the time i read about the news. haha, so late in keeping up with trends, owh well... some trends aren't just worth while.

but as i was reading it, the thing that kept on reoccurring in my mind was: "i wonder if anyone is going to love the unlovable". i mean, sometimes people do mean stuff, mean enough that the 'victims' feel violated, breech of privacy, blablabla.. enough to consider taking the 'offender' to court to press charges and sue him.

lawyers..

but dont you think that when something bad happens to you it is a good thing?
okay that sounded really ironic and contradictory... but think about this:

when something bad happens to you, it is a chance for you to forgive.
when obstacles come your way, that is when your character is tested.
this is how what is inside us comes out, and we can see it to evaluate it
emotions dont just randomly pop out without any cause
if you find that the feeling generated by your natural instinct is ... unwise
then dont get comfortable with it, face your flesh's desires and put it to death
not all that we feel is good is good. i know God created us to be who we are with the individual personalities custom made so that we are just the one and only in all the world (no but seriously some people are soooooo similar! in characteristics... that fit body shapes! < weirdest coincidence; the face too)

then there's probably a billion other people who've posted articles about "mistakes are a stepping stone to success" and blablabla.... keep God's POV when reading any article on the internet, facts can be fiction, but there is always one Source that has the Truth to set us free..

Free.... our will is not free... whoever said (including christians) that we have "free will" .. i strongly disagree.. our will as long as it is not given to the right Master, has its wrist shackled in chains to sin. "No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money/wealth/mammon" - Matt 6:24. neither can a man have no master at all, least he says that he is the master of his own-self, he is disillusioned.

i do how ever believe we have the freedom to choose. so choose who you serve. an eternal Kingdom or a fleeting dream

bwt, ai learnt a new cool triangle from Dusty Hawk's blog defense post..(yeah i call it a defense, an explanation, whatever la....any negative effects brought by using the wrong terms?)

=D Paul Graham's Hierarchy of Disagreement

 
"it is a good thing when a bad thing happens"
-cause if you response in some low level baloney, than be glad that the crap happened to you so that you can be taught a lesson... to become a better person...

wow, that was a really mean way to end things... gosh... hope i'm not changing into some 'self-righteous' egoistic @#$%H@%3

haha, dear God, let your grace and mercies be new every morning, that my cup will not run dry but be filled each day to be poured out into the lives of others.... that You be glorified =P .... haha amen

Jesus loves you!

when something goes missing

so lets say there is a room.
with only two people, A and B
and then and extra person comes along, C. who is B's friend but does not know much of A

after awhile A realizes something is missing, item D
the reason is a mystery, no one has any idea where it disappeared to
it could have been misplaced by A himself and then forgotten,
it could have been moved by B or C
it could have been taken by B or C
it could have been taken by neither any of them, maybe someone else, E

so A ask B where it is,
B answer's "i genuinely have no idea"
"but i'll ask C"

B: "have you seen item D?"
C: "nope"

C: "are you saying i took it?"

so tadaa.. cool scenario... what to do now?

it might seem like B was implying that C took it.
but B has no intention what so ever to imply C took it
it just 'seemed' like it

it is just necessary for B to ask C, just as how he was asked by A
its like... curtsy.. xD or.. 'just-following-procedures'

but if C denies he took it, and he is telling the truth,
then were could item D magically have gone to?

A has to trust B
while B has to trust C

A can trust C directly but it is hard..

oh gosh.. God you know where item D is!

misconception of the mind

" i taught with all my heart he did what i taught he did.... so weird... to be so firm and sure in something that wasn't true...  the power of misconception and words can be so strong and real..."

well it started like this, i just.. well.. heard the wrong thing from the guy, cant blame me right? not my fault if he feeds me false information... haha

well i guess its my wrong too, cause i didn't go detective and CSI over trivial matters..

sigh.. how to trust words of people...

that aside, just came back from campuslife camp.. thank you Lord for the encounter and the reminders! =)

and, had fun: finding out that some people believe that we are no longer sinners when we accept Chirst.. seriously? non-sinner

 lesson learnt: get the truth, investigate, and... evaluate the friends characteristic of trust

how rumors start: guy A is trustworthy, guy B jokes/unintentionally says something sarcastic, guy A believes (fault), guy A tells others, others take guy A for his word.. tadaa...

but the grace is this: that wrongs can be rectified, all it takes it just a "sorry, my mistake"

three-in-one phone,tablet,book please

was wondering if i should get a ultrabook wih ssd, tablet of smartphone.
well i was using a blackberry and have no idea about the prepaid plan they have for BB.. haha yeah jacoon, so i've been using wifi only and been skeptical about internet data usage.

but just tried it *116*11# .. mhmm daily unlimitted.. why not? =P
i taught all this while bb had issues with downloading a gmail app or its calender like andriod.. haha yeah jacoon.. i know i know..

and i wondered why evernote, gmaps and other apps wouldn't work with wifi.. sigh..
so sad i only found out about this now, anyways.. life's been good without a smart phone functioning smartly.. hopefully now that it does it wont make me dumb.

so i taught it was unlimited and hotspotted it with my dying laptop.... but then i found out that the unlimited does not include teetering =P so yup.. thank God it caps at RM8

anyways i already bought a maxis Mifi 4/4gb plan and bounded to it for 12 months..
probabbly gonna stop the bb plan once i'm done having fun with it..

anyways why cant they make broadband into the same sim card as the caller's phone??

i like asus three in one pad phone concept..

i wonder if they could make a smartphone with a dual sim card quad-core 64gb, micro sim slot up to 64gb. and 2gb ram.

that sicks into a 10inch tablet which extends battery life, has speakers and anther quad core that can run simultaneously with the phone to get a octa-cored processing power... and then adds another 64gb of space with better radio wave reception, and another 4gb ram.. and probabbly a third sim card for boardband usage =P

that sicks into a keyboard dock which extends batt life, has more speakers, another quad core, and some neat USB 3.0s ... atleast 4 ports...

that would be a all-in-one sweet gadget to have =D

a dvd burner could be added as an extension and need not be part of the keyboard-dock.. (who uses CDs nowadays anyways)

to make toilet friendly wetsuits and x-ray trees

used a scuba BCD, tank and regulator, so fun! =D
but cant get license here in ums, still have to take externally.

anyways, had the theory for scuba and Dr Ismail joked about having to go to the toilet while wearing a wetsuit.. so yeah..

innovation? a wet suit with 'vents' that can be opened or close when needed =P

another thing is heart rot, Dr Mahmud said that there are only a few ways to figure out if the tree is diseased with heart rot or not, to chop it down or use stress wave analysis...

innovation? some more simple form of x-raying the tree.. that gives a results omething like a cat or mri scan... possible no?

anddd...... my computer BSOF-ed!!!!!

ah and just that morning i was reading about hardships in the Bible and how we should bring everything to God in prayer... owh well....

downloaded and made a bootable ubuntu OS from a usb =D so fun!

mange to save the fiels and documents i needed..
formatted drive C.
and reinstalled win 7 -64 bit... (was previously running on 32 bit) ... cause i only had 2 gb ddr2 ram that time.. just bought a second hand 2gb from karamunsing =P

so yup, can fully utilize the 4 gb instead of 3.5 gb

ah.. btw why BSOD? because got root kit virus =P SIGH, university thumdrives are fullllllllllllllllllll of them.

why avast u no protect me.

anyways learnt some stuff =) so not a total loss.. other than time taken to reinstal windows when i should be stuying for my midterm next week.

btw, offered to help a lecturer speed up her computer, thank God it didn't die when i changed some settings, i would have been skewered.... learn new things too like....

start, rightclick computer, properties, advance system settings, (advance) (performance) settings, custom, uncheck everything =P except smoothing out font edges and thumbnail preview.

msconfig, boot, advance options, number of processors, 2 or 4 =)

lecturers are so different in their rooms personally one on one and in the lecture halls when they are infront of so many people.

GOd, please.... let me study.....

morning wake up with dogs

owh btw, did i tell you i got chased by a pack of dogs this morning?
well, it was crazy scary. was literally running for my life's sake
it was fun =) got a feel of some hormones i haven't had in a looooong time

i found another jig saw puzzle piece! =D

ah the joy's of talking to friends. close friends.

i never really knew what it was to be completely freed form my past. the hurts from a torn relationship and losing the desire to strive for something.

neither the joy of having a broken heart mended by its Maker..

but it all comes to light when talking with a friend. it has already happened. i have very nice nights sleeping in peace. i dont have to suffer sleepless nights or a mind wondering over and over again about a matter that has long gone. cause... in our weakness, then He is strong.

well just some food for taught.
all the chatter about relationships and bla bla bla... seriously? i'm not ready now? .. when will i ever be ready? isn't the couple supposed to find the imperfection in each other the thing that attracts them and an obstacle that that can both work it out together to become better people as one unit?...

nah... what attracts me to people are their good points. looking at other's weakness and thinking its cool aint something nice to do. but fact is, whose fault was it that this man was born blind? well no ones. it so happened there is misfortune and suffering so that the glory of Him might be shown.. as simple as that eh..

sigh, if i'm to 'get ready' myself and prepare in whatever way i can to be the right guy for the right girl and blablabla.... i hope i dont have to wait till i'm 30... but whatever it takes lah, dont want to make a wrong decision and mess up life big time with the vow... the Vow.. nice movie.. the guy shows what a real man should be, standing up when he needs to, like saying he's not a punching bag.. and when he doesnt need to, like punching the guy at the wedding... go channing... is that what girls want? a guy who can make decisions like a man and blablabla.. not this "christian guys are so emasculated now adays" issue again..

i just think gaming has evolved from chess to dota so well, technology is screwing up humanity... go facebook and social media! may your sub conscious abstract effort to ultimately narcissisify (no it is not an actual word) even the most holy and righteous people come to pass.. even in all the obvious concrete goodness that you bring in the ease of planning events and having group discussing, reminding birthdays to the whole world till the tradition of having one or two people come and surprise us at the door on that special day slowly fades away.... (okay well.. birthday parties still get throw lah) ...

who doesnt like partying rite? wohoo... freedom..

anyways... i like what one character episode in a series said "a wise man once said whatever you say before a 'but' doesnt count" .. i was thinking how true it was... but then again... how much it wasn't either..

haha but...

so ironic...

okay enough typing for now. hope i fed you well enough today dear blog.

i found another jigsaw piece on the floor to place in the grand big picture of life, i know i will never be able to see it in all its wonder till i'm finally up there looking down.... but shucks.. thank you Mr Jigsaw Maker for placing those friends in my picture... i love them, i love them all, and i love You.

calling and election?

2 peter 1

v3 indeed He has given us everything i  need for life and godliness because of the mere knowledge of Him. now i just gotta participate in the divine nature and escape the corruption in this world.... riteeeeee..... divine nature?

mhmmm corruption.. being in university ain't easy, so many things that lure a young man's heart.. if not watched properly shall be swayed and taken away by evil desires.. sigh..

v5 faith>goodness>knowledge>self-control>perseverance> godliness>brotherly kindness>love

i got stuck somewhere, and became unproductive and ineffective about my knowledge about Jesus Christ. sad rite, i think i should read up more about christianity..

v9 dont want to be near sighted, only having short termed plans. blind... cant see what's ahead.. sigh.. wheres the light and lamp post that reminds me i'm already in narnia =P

v10: make my calling sure? hmmm, yup i dont think i'mma gonna escape UMS...
election? sure.... to do what? ... what ever God wants to do here lah..

v11 ah.. shall wait for that which is longed so much for, but right now.. gotta get back to earth....

with knowledge comes responsibility?

3 stages.

1st: unknown, there is no knowledge, have not heard/been told, in the dark. thus silent, if try to describe, rubbish presumptions and made up facts will come out.

2nd: known, received knowledge, experience. what to do with that knowledge?

3rd: show or hide it. its easy to show and talk big about things that are known well by one. its not easy to talk about things that are known by one to certain groups. hide it, even if one has superior knowledge of a certain matter, the current circumstances might require one to be silent about the subject to maintain peace.

keep calm and carry on. 

getting lost in ums, all part of the plan

okay so i started university.
didn't really prepare.. so much for "prius paratus laurus"

and got lost... a few times... but who doesn't right?

i got lost trying to find my way to the chancellors hall .. twice.. i got lost trying to find sib likas, really badly... as in like i stopped 5 minutes away from my destination but walked the total opposite way, making the whole trip there 2 hours long.

it was a big loop, but i ended up in the destination that being sought after.

should have listened to wei aun and start edc-ing a gps.. sigh.. words or wisdom, unheeded.. bring no light to the one's whose eyes are closed.

life's like that isn't it?
not just physically topographically lost.. but sometimes we get lost mentally... in studies, working hard but not achieving the results in proportionate ration. emotionally, finding core desires of the heart in the mess of relationships with most likely the wrong person. worst... spiritually, knowing the destination but not using the navigation.

when i was walking to find sib likas, i walked in one way (which was right) but then my mind had doubts, so i turned around.. i dislike retracing my footsteps on paths already traveled, call it ego or whatever, i like to come down the other side of the hill and not walk back down what has been climbed.. but life's like that, we make mistakes and if we don't find the humility/thick-skin-face to admit we might be wrong, we'll just keep walking down the wrong path.... so yeah, but then i had doubts again, or rather my mind told me its logically the other way.. so i turned around.... again... and asked some road side workers for direction..

the wonder's of asking people who know stuff...

anyways, that aside of re-facing something already gone through, i wonder why i'm always stuck at elementary truths, its like i've never learnt my lesson, always walking back and fourth, back and fourth... getting lost. and repeating my vomit eating experiences.

no. i believe that some mistakes have to be made to be learned. some lessons just cant be taught. people have to go through hardships for our mind to be made well.... harden?

good thing about being a child of God is, He's got a omnilevel phd in Counseling always being there for us and there's a Manual for us to use, a good Guidebook..  so that 5 minute walks dont have to become 2 hour ones.

"Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path"

Black or White? A or B?

if neither end is good, why choose to be/remain there

"I feel a strong desire to tell you -- and I expect you feel a strong desire to tell me -- which of these two errors [Totalitarian and Individualist] is the worse. That is the devil getting at us. He always sends errors into the world in pairs -- pairs of opposites. And he always encourages us to spend a lot of time thinking which is the worse. You see why, of course? He relies on your extra dislike of the one error to draw you gradually into the opposite one. But do not be fooled. We have to keep our eyes on the goal and go straight through between both errors." - C.S. Lewis

thanks to Blake for sharing on FB.

so yeah this kinda thing pretty much is tells me that i cant use "Opposites have to exist for things(it contrast) to have definition" for most this post. i think its healthy to be in the middle, a grey zone in things. having a balance of when to show grace and when to practice justice.

something interesting from the captivating book.

"When a man goes bad, every man has in some way gone bad after the Fall, what is most deeply marred is his strength. fallen men tend to sin in one of two ways. He either becomes a passive weak, silent man -strength surrendered, gone away- or he becomes a violent , driven man-strength unglued, gone bad.

when a woman falls from grace, what is most deeply marred is her tender vulnerability, beauty that invites to life. she becomes a dominating, controlling woman -or a desolate, needy, mousy woman. Or some odd combination of both, depending on her circumstances." - excerpt

hmm.. but as a guy, i do like fighting. like physical martial art grappling sorta thing. i guess i just have to control it so that it doesn't get out of hand right? after all, we need to fight for the things that we believe in. it is inside us to wage war, but wage it for a good reason and in the right manner. i also like taking time to be alone, strength gone away? i dont think so.. its more like, recharging for the next fight to come =D so yup, i guess its the skill/wisdom/discernment on how to balance both sides out so that i dont tip the see-saw to an extremity... like beating up random people in fits of rage or sitting quietly sulking in the corner thinking the world doesnt care about me and i can go kill myself aka depression.

plenty of example i could assume about the girl's scenario, but i aint a girl, i have never been through it as one, and will probably never know who it really feels to go through it as one, so gonna skip expounding on that. least i crap up something untrue and get haters =P (any female out there that would like to share your view on this matter?). but one thing i can tell, girls that take charge usually get things done =) what would the world do without them....haha

but if its one thing i've learn, i know i should not generalize. so no prejudice, no speculations... no "this generally applies to every one" (but i do agree it does to some, if not most at a certain degree, especially about the guys part)

this post has two entirely different topics. the top part was about negative errors in pairs. both being bad.  the lower is about 2 paths of being the consequence of the Fall. hmmm...  i guess learning to balance on the see-saw in the park as a kid has its lesson in life.

laos

“Disturb us, Lord, when we are too well pleased with ourselves,
when our dreams have come true because we have dreamed too little,
when we arrive safely because we sailed too close to the shore.

Disturb us, Lord, when with the abundance of things we possess,
we have lost our thirst for the waters of life, having fallen in love with life, we have ceased to dream of eternity, and in our efforts to build a new earth,
we have allowed our vision of the new heaven to dim.

Disturb us, Lord, to dare more boldly, to venture on wider seas, where storms will show your mastery, where losing sight of land, we shall find the stars. We ask you to push back the horizon of our hopes, and to push us into the future in strength, courage, hope, and love. This we ask in the name of our Captain, who is Jesus Christ. " - Sir Francis Drake

thanks Sarah for posting this on facebook.

btw i just came back from laos, i have to say it was an eye opening experience. it was a good 15 days of getting out of normal life. hopefully life will not be the same after this journey.

triathlon

so went to PD for my first international/olympic distance triathlon.
really a fun experience. so many things to learn
went down there for 3days two nights with josh and syanon
would just like to say a few thanks to these people cause without em this wouldn't have been:

dad/mom: for the "sponsorship" and allowance =D
syanon: for starting off this whole thing about doing this
joshua: support crew =P
justin ng: for his beloved polygon 300 helios (really couldn't have done it with out a rodie)
kerwiin: for bike tools
friends and family for the encouragements and tips: Cheok Gheen, Judy Liew, Claire Andrews and many others

overall it was a delightful experience cause all that was in my mind was just to finish the race, even tough not first place but at a nice calm pace.

night before: carbo loading dinner, didn't stuff myself full due to meeting two wonderful people judy liew and claire. gave quite useful advice and talked abt life, addiction, being hooked and hardcore about running. these kinda community is quite interesting. the best meal was: the herbal chicken soup

the swim: hardest part in terms on technique. never really trained this.. and pools are so different from open waters. got slapped on the butt and kicked in the face. found someone's RFID tag floating, poor dude. seniors over took me. salt water in the mouth made me thirsty. forgot to bring my goggles (thanks syanon for lending me yours) and felt the weakest here.

transition: beach run was soso. saw josh and syanon cheering on.. took a nice long bath at the showers... no rush.. left them.. felt i wasn't clean enough and went back to shower again xD at the bike rack, wish i had place a bottle of water there. changed into cycling shorts and a singlet.. boy i felt so naked just wearing a swimming trunk while all the others had 2XU tri suits.

the cycle: most fun part, cause it required actively making fun decisions on what to do with the bike. rodies are super fast and different from mtb's (respect those who used them). thank God mange to get the right timing out of the swim to catch a pack of cyclist. always tried to draft/slip-stream a 6 footer or fat dude =P the shifters were so fun to play with and the ultegra cranks were uber stiff. thanks for remembering the padded pants kerwiin. almost died when taking the water from the rack, cause it got caught in the break cable. quite adrenaline. ppl crashed at the u-turn point. downed 2 powergels. followed the pack till 5 km more to the end, then they sprinted off... decided not to follow and go at own pace.

transition: really wish i had water. owh wait they have water stations =D changed out of the padded tights to something more loose. ate half a bar or banana flavored powerbar. slowly walked and drank =P

the run: hardest part in terms of cramping. took things with alternating runs and walks. had an actal tablet but decided not to eat it, scared of indigestion. drank too much water, felt like puking. (but thankfully mange to hold it all in). met wonderful and encouraging people on the way. how nice. downed two gels.

the ending: push too hard, cramped like frankenstein. thanks for joshua supporting me to walk off. rested and got back to standing. mange to bump into judy just before leaving. hope i can go for The Most Beautiful Thing next time =)

venue: cozzie hotel is kinda bad. towels stink, no air-cond remote , it was always at 16. toilet didn't have working exhaust fan, beds and pillows weren't firm. haha so many complains but what i said was: its just a place to sleep and shower, most of the time we would be out. and staying with people under the roof really brings out the character or a person. dear God, please sustain me.

after PD we went down to melaka to let syanon try out satay celup.

then drove back up to PJ. joshua took the first half, then swapped cause he was getting tired. so i took the wheel, taught i could be wide awake and fully concentrated when behind the wheel... first time i almost fell asleep while driving =P

next trip bring: checklist, portable chair, umbrella, book to read.

thank you God. was a delightful trip and eye opening too