Cg is off

They're calling off CG because the only person that want sto attend is retarded.

I still remember when there was only three of us, my boss, mama and I. Three years back. And we would still have had CG.

And saying that there's going to be "homework"... Really??

Thats one word I disliked. And to still hear it as an adult. What do you think we are?? Some kinda kids? Who do you think you are? A more-righteous-than-you teacher?

Gah... I never got frustrated about these things.
Never felt irritated.

Why...
Why now

I don't want all these negative thoughts and feelings to keep spewing out of my heart and mind. This isn't me

I want to write all this as replies in the WhatsApp group. But that would just be mean, evil in fact.

It would bring no harmony and only harm.

What would a God of love,
Have me do?

To talk to him,
We are all intertwined

My Creator

What a world to live in,
God made it.

He is the begging of all things,
And will be at the end of it too.

There is no other gods above Him,
Although we may have created many.

It is all because He gave us freedom,
Creativity and imagination to make,
Just as He did.

Some will abhor the idea of eternal life,
And prefer a reincarnation cycle,
Some will loathe a religious order,
Detest priest and organisations,
Despise and scron sacred text and books,
Shun the written Word,
Disapprove of the laws and commandments,

In the pursuit of love, hedonism and nihilism.

Why.

Can't we see that everything around us has been created. Created by Someone. Created for a reason. Created together, for each other, for the Creator.

What does it really mean to,
Go and make disciples.

What do I follow,
What do I want others to follow?

the mind synthesis

i realise i receive insights,
when i'm talking with a friend.

My Father, 25+1

God is like a Father.. He is the original father.

He doesn't lay out a plan for you life and force you to follow it against your will.

He knows best, yes. He has a good will, yes. He has you in the best interest just as a father would to his child.

And He wants you to make your own choices, just like a father would his child.

He wants us to grow, to mature through our experiences and life decisions (of cause in consultation with Him too!).

He isn't a commanding tyrant devoid of emotions or a slave driver with only his best interest in mind.

He loves,
Just like a father would,
Just like a father should,
Love like the Father.

My King, 25 years

25 years old.
8 years leaving high school.
I wonder how much has changed.

4 years of being away
A year of wondering

It's so good to look back,
And see all the goodness

To be where we are today
To be celebrating Christmas

Thank you Lord,
Thank You for coming.

My King

Slave to Christ

I don't want to be a puppet.
I don't want to be used by anyone.
Except by You, Christ Jesus

leaving home for too long

"family doesn't say thank you"

"sometimes you're away from home so long you forget yourself" _ Eleanor Young

some truth in it.
its so different to be staying away from family,
the people that you grew up with and shaped your life.
It's not like they made the choices for me,
its just that it comes automatically choosing what was the best path based on the experience of others.
but now i find myself in a different place, and i...

i'm not sure if i want to follow the path that the rest have laid out before

really... life?

all part of being human, reality of life.

but the good news is that we have Christ =) and we know He has a good plan for us. follow after Him, focus on Him. and may He use you wherever you may be placed. be a light there i wish i could get married with my girlfriend and move in together and start a family, have a place to stay that is convenient for both our careers ... ah...

Ah, you know its just the thought of having to go through so many channels that it gets quite overwhelming.

Jesus did this

Brady boyd: Addicted to busy: recovery for the rushed soul

Day5 : jesus pace is relational

This is exactly how Jesus treated God. His times of withdrawal, of divine rest, weren’t patronizing scraps tossed God’s way; they were intentional and intimate moments of connection, during which nothing else caught Jesus’s eye. “What you are in love with, what seizes your imagination, will affect everything,” Pedro Arrupe said. “It will decide what will get you out of bed in the morning, what you will do with your evening, how you spend your weekends, what you read, whom you know, what breaks your heart, and what amazes you with joy and gratitude. Fall in love, stay in love, and it will decide everything.”

Jesus was in love with his Father. And that one great love drove everything he did—and did not do.

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I would not have done certain things my earthly father would disapprove off. Because I had a relationship with him and didn't want to sadden him. I did what I needed to do and I'd listen to his advice. And then I've met mentors and supervisors in life that I listen to too regarding ministry and work. And there's also the free time, what I'd spend time doing. Sometimes I just brows aimlessly on my Facebook wall, read random articles from Pocket or the News, watch endless stings of YouTube videos, scroll Pinterest, read silly 9gag or reddit posts. What am I rally doing with my life? Why have I lost 'control' over it. Why is my time consumed so much by media? Why am I tired and finding it hard to get out of bed. Why is there no drive, no guidance, nothing to follow, just going with the flow. Why does my brain feel so foggy. Where's the clarity. I think it's time to reevaluate my relationship with the one true God again, am I still in love with Him or have I fallen out of love and wandered away

Jon foreman tedX

When you're a musician and philosopher.. .

Something nice that speak to the soul amist all the...

Lifelessness to get out of bed

https://youtu.be/1w5Q4pDSwUE

2nd law of thermodynamics

If you don't put in effort
Things become chaos.

Good things take effort to build

The earth is flat

Relativity curves it into a sphere
Just like the universe,
What shape do the stars and sky take?
If not a flat piece of canvass,
We are just stuck on it,
Like a painting.

But we move and breath,
and have a being.

What are waves,
What are spinning states of sub-atomic particles,
What's entanglement,
String theory.
What is this life...

Comprehension
Of life

Where to next?

The feeling of: Anger

It's important.. to be angry.
I need to have a burning hate against:
Whatever is wrong.

Then only will I have the courage and strength to stand up against it.

To say "no, this is not acceptable"
To say "Enough is enough"

The feeling of anger and rage,
Was put there inside us for a reason.
Let God help you channel it rightly.
Towards the things that break His heart.

Reciprocated love

You love me so much
I want to love you back too

Satellite

Saw a satellite pass the sky,
A light that move so gracefully.

Redemption is right where I fell,
How many more times to be defeated.

Until..
I'm healed

There was nice.. Quotes in fantastic beast.

Write a poem she said

My friend ask me for a favour,
To pay a convocation bill,
On a Friday close to prayer,
I'll wait for next week still.

On a Monday I come to the Cansellori,
I go to the bendahari,
They ask me to go to DKP baru,
To pay along with the rest.

The walk,
The sun
The time..
No fun

I'm here standing in line,
Wondering why...

Something I thougt so easy,
Ends up to be such a...

And then there is that video
I did not volunteer to make
For wai yip's farewell..
Tonight

Sigh

Women in the Bible: Deborah

Ps Phillip lyn, skyline SIB, Judges 4

A wife, a prophet, a judge, a warrior.

Gold Meir (Israel)
June 6, 1967 - six day war
Preemptive strikes. Golan heights - > Western wall

She took over Levi
Yom Kippur War (Oct 1973)
Syria and Egypt attacked. Crossed the Swiss.. She didn't launch the strike, because Israel would have been seen as an aggressor. And the airforce would be shot down by the new Sam missile provided by Russia.

Because they were not seen as agresors, USA supported with arms supply and reinforcements. Hence they csmputred back, huge territory, the sinai desert.

The surrounded Egypt back again. UN called for a cease-fire.

"to be or not to be is not a question of compromise. Either you be or you cease to be" - Godla Meir

Barak - scared, he needed his wife all the time to hold his hand all the time

Judges 4:14-16 a breakthrough spirit
From being defeated to overcoming

Three poweful breakthrough truths:
1. We must learn to say "enough is enough!"... For the weeks months and years that we've been under oppression.

We are the ones responsible for getting into things that are threatening our families.

John 10:10 the thief comes to kill steal and destroy. But I have come that they may have life and life in abundance.

Tell the devil: enough is enough!!!

What mahathir did during the financial crisis

Enough of this depression

Barak - flash of lighting
Deborah - bee

This is the day the Lord will deliver me

Stop pitying yourself
Get out of your comfort zone
You need to get up

There's a phone call, a confession, a relationship to break, and apology, a debt to pay, a restitution, etc...

Take the authority

Even though you are aware of your sins, Jesus has given you the authority over it.

Get up and go in the direction He wants you to go.

2. Second know in your heart that : "God will make a way!"
They were against amazing odds
Iron VS bronze age

Siseria: iron chariots
Down at the plains, is where he had the upper hand.

Barak was counting numbers, the horses, the men, outgunned out maneuver...

Deborah wasn't counting that, she wasn't a military strategist. But she believed that God will make a way.

Isiah 43:19 I am making a way in the desert and and streams in the wasteland.

When God askes something, it might seem unreasonable, but trust Him

Isiah 55:8. His thoughts are higher, His has a way.

The Kishon River flooded. Even the stars fought against them. That's how the battle was won. The iron became a liability.

3. Thirdly give God the glory : say "Glory to God!"

Deborah arose, God gave the victory
Deborah never took the glory for her life.

Deborah's song (judges 5)

"be like the sun that comes out in full strength"

Israel saw God defeat Jabin.
Suddenly.. Your marriage gets healed, breakthrough in business, etc

the 'next' button

something about,

having the mindset of doing the next action,
that makes one not pay attention to what he's currently doing/reading/listening to

"i just want to click next"

I'm gonna cut out... everything.
so that I'm only left with so many things to do.

hopefully then my mind can be more consolidated

silence and stillness

"Silence is anything but passive waiting. It’s proactive listening. And each day God’s voice gets a little louder in our lives until He’s all we can hear. 

If you want to hear the heart of God, silence is key.

If you want the Spirit of God to fill you, be still." - mark batterson, whisper day 3.