Saturday, March 30, 2013

by the beach


why would people need churches,
or even to to the temples,
to pray and read their vows,
and follow the same old bows.

to pour the tea in a cup,
to walk in circles around the fire,
or do any for that matter,
to make the officiation better?

well vows are made and stuff is paid
set by some old dude whose probably dead,
i wonder if they actually memorized it in the head,
or just followed what the pastor said.

i wonder how simple it can be,
maybe on a beach some where out there,
beside the ocean that has no memories,
and just a few friends who actually care.

to know that it is not the action of it,
that makes two become one,
its not just lighting the candles together,
but knowing two hearts are joined with each other.

i choose to love you,
even before i've met you,
putting in the ring on your finger,
is just a small part of the picture.

haha not as easy to be done than said,
with all the aunties and parents in this date

note: yeah yeah, i know there's such a thing called tradition and stuff. we've got to do our responsibilities as kids and the actions have some meanings to it

i love weddings

i love being involved with weddings,
its so fun and joy does abound.
no matter what the causes or reasons,
there is a purpose to be found.

yes its true that we can say,
looking at the past of people,
history does repeat itself if it may,
but who are we to predict the future.

generalizing was never a good thing,
assuming makes an ass of u and me,
sometimes just because of a fling,
there some much work to be done.

rushing is never a good thing,
especially when it comes to loving,
would you choose to love her in the heart,
even before the wedding ring.

so many rituals to do,
be it traditional or religious,
why do we have all this procedures,
what sense comes from following orders?

somethings are there for a purpose,
like counseling and stuff before the vow,
don't step into this deep water,
to find a stone tied to you now.

i love seeing weddings,
who doesn't.
"if anyone were to object,
do it now or forever hold his silence"
sometimes i wonder if anyone
could just stand up and shout
"DON'T DO IT NOW!"

we can never determine one's future,
the ending might be sweeter,
everyday is a chance to mature,
and its possible to swim in the water.

how lovely the wedding planner,
the girls who decorate the aisle,
they make such a beautiful banner,
even tough the time given is just a while.

yup, last minute preparations are cruel,
havoc is bound to appear,
so just hold your cool and understand,
some people have had a long day before hand.

a smiles on their faces i see,
but you can feel that it runs eerily,
something inside's a mystery,
ain't nothing can go so happily.

you just know it,
no matter how tired one may be,
the mask which looks like a perfect fit,
is one with thorns and a scribe.

pain means an experience to be gained,
hardships a chance to be tested,
would one be able to stand the drain,
and know that there is more to life mundane.

i choose to love God before her,
would she do the same,
working side by side together,
to achieve life aflame.

Paratus prius Laurus

secretary


Her eyes are really starry,
She'll get your documentary,
She'll make your life merry,
So vote ****** for Secretary!!

She looks quite tiny,
She could run for parliamentary,
but instead choose voluntary,
her tag line's quite funny.

note: a continuation

Thursday, March 28, 2013

this Flesh

The tongue is so evil,
should i cut it off.
These eyes are full of lust,
should i gorge them out?

This hands steal so many things,
This fingers are guilty with debauchery,
This legs are quick to evil,
These feet walk on accursed land.

"What is a tear, if not the
thawing of a frozen heart"
God created all things to be good,
So for You dear Lord, make em' good.

-no idea when i wrote this-
note: yeah i know "this" in stanza two is supposed to be "these" but this was what i wrote in the book... so yeah... find out its meaning .. i actually really didn't want to post this up. of fear that it would taint peoples perception of me.. but then again, how long can one hide, the things that will all come to light. i would rather confess the murder, than bury the bones in a closet of under the carpet... that one day it might come out to haunt me. but this i know, my Savior lives... and for all these He has ransomed me..

when i re-read the last stanza, i remembered why i wrote this.. it wasn't to remind my self or tell others about my sins.. (eh wait.. who said it was mine? it could be referring to anybody and people in general!!) ..now wehre was i... oh yeah...but instead, the whole purpose of writing this.. why why i should be writing anything at all... is to point back to Him at the end of the day.

Gloria in excelsis Deo

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

The Secret to sleeping

3 stages of sleep in life,
As a baby: we are forced to sleep when we don't want to
As an adult: we want to sleep but we can't
As an old person/teenage: we don't want to sleep but we do

There's so much to talk about sleep,
How it repairs the body, the biological clock, the sleep cycles.
How to get a better sleep: milk, breathing deep, slow music
some insomniacs even require drugs.

The hormone melatonin is the trick,
Don't play computer or look at your phone's bright screen,
it reduces the release of this key,
so does anxiety for tomorrows exam.

So trust in the Lord,
and He will grant rest,
His peace be upon you,
That you may sleep your best.

-written on 22nov2012-

note: i got the 1st paragraph from somewhere, but can't remember. hope you can have a good nites rest after reading this!! =D

The Peak

A student has many stages,
From UPSR, PMR SPM to STPM
One weird thing about them,
is they hit the Peak at different points.

If one were to score 5A's in UPSR
The memory is retained so strongly,
It is hard to unlearn it all and
absorb the new format, what more information.

This, it is hard at PMR and SPM,
A student who did badly in UPSR,
can choose to hit the peak later,
Scoring much better at SPM.

Of cause there are those who are always at the peak,
and those who never tried to climb.

-written on 22nov2012-

author's note: now i know this is not entirely true, nor not true at all. it does bear some truth for some while nothing at all for others. when i was wring this i had in mind friends, whom i've seen do badly in the early parts of school but score the best in senior high. and there are those who score in primary but start flunking in high school... so yeah it all depends actually, if the person continues to work hard or become lazy. but sometimes its just a mental barrier kinda thing.

"I find the great thing in this world is not so much where we stand as in what direction we are moving" -Oliver Wendell Holmes

whenever we have achieved success, don't brood over it for long, keep on moving on. especially when a position of power has been gained.

Sunday, March 24, 2013

Exams

Why do students get so stressed?
Studying like crazy for an exam.
Before hand there's so much uncertainty,
Something you should leave to God's hand.

Do your part,
and trust in your heart.
Whatever comes out in the paper,
is just some random luck.

Academic excellence does not determine life,
Though many a times it feels like it.
Surrounded by achievers and success,
One can only feel obliged to follow the skit.

Missing out the true calling,
We stick to a path too often,
Not daring to be adventuring,
Some take their life for this stupid thing.

-written on 16nov12-

author's note: basically the last line sums up what i didn't really like abt the pressure that could build up due to various exams in life.. not just academic things, but other everyday test we go though... suicide is .. erm.. the worst way to waste a life.

of cause the other part of this poem, is that we gotta do our part and not leave everything to God... thats called laziness, yet still find peace in knowing that not everything is in our control.. especially what questions are to come out... so, final words: may you find divine Peace in Him.

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." -phil 4:6-7

ICE BREAKER

A great mystery in life,
How playing games together can be,
The winner feels great,
the looser feels dead.

Team morale is something mystique,
How a single person who leads,
can change the whole team in peace,
without one, everyone just seems.. pissed

No leaders only followers,
the team stares at each other,
in boredom, thus they
lose out, and feel like... mush

If there was no loser,
There would be no winner,
so have some sportsmanship,
and smile for the friendship

-written on 16NOV12-

authors note: ok so maybe the 2nd and 3rd stanza didn't rhyme much. but owh well, atleast the last one wasn't so bad. the 3rd stanza was referring to a certain particular situation in a camp. there was this group of youngings that were just so tired (probably due to lack of sleep) .. and they were so crabby that they didn't even want to practice for the performance night, having no discussion what so ever, they just did some B grade item. sad rite.... group dynamics.. discern it.

Friday, March 22, 2013

TEMPER

An utterly weird phenomena it is,
How an adolescence of certain age,
Gets some hormonal imbalance in the head,
And is pissed off at any random word said.

To surpass this evil urge inside me,
Was not an easy path to take,
to not let my tongue reign free,
but to keep on reasoning silently,
containing them in the head only.

-written on 15 nov 2012-
author's comments: hmm this was one of the much earlier tries at 'poetry' that i found written in some ancient book.. gonna post them up just for keeps sake. this particular one was a cin chai attempt and didn't have any nice flow to it. but yeah, i guess it helps me to speak my mind out. haven fun reading this collection =D btw its written a long long time ago accordnig to those dates, most of the things have passed and minght possibly not have anything to do with what i currently feel, but be sure it was something la at those moments.

Monday, March 11, 2013

the end?


"you can't change the past, bear the consequences of the mistakes.
you can choose what to do in the present, its not what circumstance you're in, its how you'd respond
to influence the future... *insert funky line here* "

so yeah, everyone would have a different idea of what they want in the future rite?
certain dreams, goals, life purposes to achieve.

we'll all die in the end anyway. tough i do not look forward to the end physically (i really would like to enjoy life on earth), yet i wonder how paul could have said he longed to be with the Lord.

when will my soul ever have that great a desire. that everyday it would be a fresh one. hmmm..

"keep eternity in mind" .. heard it so many times. yet it is so hard to actually apply. why is it hard? shouldn't doing the right thing be easy? why is it so much simpler to indulge in sin and yet we have to strive and fight for righteousness... what really is the breast plate of righteousness that i'm teaching my small pre-teens group about...

so many questions, i'm glad that they do speak up and ask

owh well, life's.... a joy. each day

as mr wise-guy soloman once wrote:

"This is the end of the matter. All has been heard. Fear God, and keep his commandments; for this is the whole duty of man."

yup... hopefully i'll get to enjoy life at the same time =P

Friday, March 08, 2013

car accident, casio F201, Sennheiser HD 380 Pro

 so waiyan got into an accident. at federal. she was going straight, her right of way, green light...
and a car came from the left, it was red ligh for him, but the one furter down was green. trolling light.
so he banged her read left door, she lost control, and went up the curb on the left and into a pole.

thank God she's.. unharmed.
 made a police report, super long. so many things to get... car manufecture date la, insurance la, blablabla...

no matter how safe you drive, there will be some accidents that are cause by others and not one's self.
it is inevitable, it happens. owh well... the guy who bang her was really nice, young guy, polite, genuine. caring.

owh, and my trusty watch broke after all these years... had it since.. errr...  crazy long ago..  form..1?
and i proud to say it has only changed its battrey once.... was quite hard to open up.. lots of mini clips and a shortcircuite reset required.. but.. anyways thats all done.... its gonna retire now.. after all the mud and grim i've put it through in scout camps, all the swimming and water torrents, all the speed works on bikes, etc etc... it did break before, but i mange to find the small piece and glue it back.. this time a frisbee hit it and yeah... the chassis broke.. =( oowh well... time to move on and not be so sentimental

and.... cash converter was selling a shenhizer HD380 pro at RM299.... went back home to check out the reviews.. went back the next day to grab it.. it was too late.. gone di!!! =(

haha

"an opportunity only opens for a certain period of time,
grab it before it closes"

friends

"A: Are all the friends you meet good?
B: Nope, but they all have the potential to be"

was just wondering about what it means to have friendship with people.
what does it require of a person to acquire, gain, earn, get, believe, produce, etc etc
it....

making things so complicated when its not.
it just comes naturally doesn't it?

communication is...

oooppp sorry cant finish this post, sister got an accident gotta go.

Thursday, March 07, 2013

computer upgrades =D

wohoo! Got a 3TB external and 4GB RAM. for RM425 and 85

won't have to worry abt movies taking up space
and the computer is sooo sooo soooooo much faster with 8gigs running inside.
very happy with the buy
memory hungry chrome is no issue now =D

thanks shiva!

Wednesday, March 06, 2013

new layout


hmmm been kinda bored with the old layout...
and.. the templete was still the old old html one... so... yup..

motor accident


‎"How can you be so obtuse?" Andy said to warden Norton.. haha Shawshank Redemption's a classic!

and.. singing the greek alphabets is wayy too fun.. like learning abc in kindergarten all over again.

hmm.. what else to add abt my day, this blog has been.. dead for so long.

i have been dead for so long,
felt really empty and void.
life was a mundane daily chore,
repeating the same thing over and over again.

until i got hit by a car,
was riding the good ol' AM 799.
made of solid steel that honda cup 65cc
but it wasn't what saved me.

it was God.
it was a God given chance to live again.
i realized that we could die anytime.
and that everyday is a gift.

i stood by at the federal highway... just a few meters from where broken pieces of my bike lay... the cars we're zooming past... they looked and were moving so much faster...
80km/h seemed to be slow when i was still with them in that crazy flow of machineries

stopping and standing at the the side of things.. to just look.. gave me time to see ... a bigger picture ... and cherish that

everyday is

a chance to change.
a chance to enjoy and yet discipline.
a chance to forgive.
a chance to love.
i'm glad i met you.
it really has made me come alive.
yet i know that it is only You that i can rely on,
to be everlasting.

"disappointment assures in life, least it is given fully to Him"